Advice and a side of therapy
(12th September, Monday 22:31)
(We love Taylor)
Padfoot: hi
Moony: hi :)
Padfoot: I'm really sorry !!
Padfoot: ok I know I kinda ghosted you
Padfoot: well it’s only been two days but yeah
Padfoot: I'm sorry about the other day, I just don’t like talking about my family. I close up and leave.... as you can tell
Moony: don’t worry about the ghosting it’s fine
Moony: of course, I'm so sorry I brought it up
Padfoot: no don’t be, it's fine !!!
Padfoot: it’s my issue, not your’s, don’t worry about it :)
Moony: we’ll if you want to talk about it I don’t mind
Moony: I’m actually pretty good at advice, not good at listening to it, but good at giving it!!!
Moony: as they say, those who cannot do, teach.
Padfoot: not much to talk about really
Padfoot: shitty family, old money, homophobic and transphobic
Padfoot: they found out I was gay when I was 15 and they disowned me
Padfoot: they also found out that my brother was trans this year and disowned him too
Moony: well that sounds really fucking shitty
Padfoot: it is
Padfoot: was
Padfoot: I’m ok now though
Padfoot: I’m lucky enough that I had somewhere to go when I was disowned, Prongs’ parents took me in and I lived with them until uni
Padfoot: I call them mum and dad, so I really don’t have anything to complain about
Padfoot: sometimes I feel guilty, but that’s just life
Moony: is it too personal to ask why you feel guilty
Padfoot: as long as you don’t mind me dumping some of my trauma on you ?
Moony: well after english professor, therapist was actually my next choice of career
Padfoot: really ??
Moony: nah I have enough of my own shit, however I would love to hear some of your shit
Moony: we can share
Moony: well you can share
Padfoot: that
Padfoot: hurt my brain to read !!!
Moony: yeah mine too
Moony: I had a point
Moony: I just don’t remember it
Padfoot: you would have been an awful therapist :)
Moony: that is very true
Moony: however I am an amazing listener and can, on the rare occasion, actually give good advice
Padfoot: ok
Padfoot: I feel guilty because I ran away from home, even though I was disowned, I ran before they could kick me out
Padfoot: and I tried to make my brother come with me but he wouldn’t
Padfoot: or couldn’t
Padfoot: I’m not really sure
Padfoot: and I left him in that house for five years
Padfoot: without any support
Padfoot: and it’s in the past and he’s out now
Padfoot: but I mostly feel guilty, for feeling guilty
Padfoot: it’s not even about me, my brother is the one with more trauma, why should I get to feel guilty
Padfoot: wow that was a lot
Padfoot: sorry
Moony: don’t apologize!!!
Moony: I mean firstly, if I ever meet your bio parents I will verbally assault them
Padfoot: Only verbal ??
Padfoot: not physical assault
Padfoot: I can’t believe you wouldn’t go to jail for me
Padfoot: it’s like we barely even know each other or something
Padfoot: OH WAIT !!!
Moony: HA
Moony: you’re so funny :|
Moony: I would physically assault them but I have the upper body strength of like a wet paper towel, so I don’t think I would be very useful
Padfoot: jwjsnebnejendmmd
Padfoot: you ARE funny !!!
Moony: don’t sound so shocked
Moony: ok I’m not done being your therapist!!
Padfoot: Sorry, continue !
Moony: and secondly !!!
Moony: you are allowed to feel guilty, and you are allowed to feel guilty about feeling guilty
Moony: but you can’t let the guilt define you, you can’t changed what has happened, but you can change what will happen.
Moony: don’t let this guilt get in the way of building a relationship with your brother
Padfoot: but how do I do that without letting the guilt override my thoughts ??
Moony: you have to remind yourself that this guilt won’t get you anywhere
Moony: and that it’s coming from something much deeper than the one night you ran away
Moony: trauma can affect everyone differently
Moony: and all trauma is different
Moony: you just have to remember that just because your brother’s trauma is ‘larger’ than yours, it doesn’t make yours any less painful
Moony: you are allowed to feel abandoned and you are allowed to grieve
Moony: grieve for the childhood you wish you had had
Moony: the childhood you deserved
Moony: don’t feel guilty just because you got out sooner
Padfoot: wow
Padfoot: I don’t even
Padfoot: just, thank you
Moony: hey like you said, stranger, new slate, no expectations
Moony: and can help you with your problems
Padfoot: wow I really am so wise
Padfoot: I love when people quote me ;)
Moony: glad to see all that trauma didn’t ruin your ego :/ (joking by the way!!)
Padfoot: ouch
Padfoot: I really think you should really reconsider your chosen profession
Moony: but that would require me talking face to face with people, all day, every day
Moony: I’m an introvert so I’m gonna go with no x
Padfoot: Well you have definitely helped me, so thank you, again
Moony: twas my pleasure
(20th September, Tuesday 08:38)
(We love Taylor)
Padfoot: MOONY !!!!!!
Moony: shhhhh
Moony: it’s so early
Padfoot: but I have to tell you about my day :’(
Moony: tell me at a reasonable hour
Padfoot: you’re grumpy in the morning
Moony: and the screen is wYyy too brught
Moony: so kindly
Moony: stfu x
Padfoot: the x really softened the blow -_-
Moony: I do what I can
Moony: NOW GOODNUGHT !!
Padfoot: goodnught!!
(16:38)
(We love Taylor)
Padfoot: COME ON COME ON DON'T LEAVE ME LIKE THISSSS
Moony: I THOUGHT I HAD YOU FIGURED OUT
Moony: SOMETHING’S GONE TERRIBLY WRONG
Moony: YOU'RE ALL I WANTEEDDD
Padfoot: ahhhh Moony I'm so glad you got my reference :’)
Moony: got your reference !!???
Moony: speak now>>>> everything
Moony: HER BRIDGES IN THIS ALBUM SOSJJEJEJRJRNRN
Moony: ESPECIALLY HAUNTEDDDD
Padfoot: I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE SO PASSIONATE ABOUT TAYLORRR
Moony: Taylor is everything
Padfoot: WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY ANYTHING BEFOREEEE??!!!!???!!
Moony: Well you seemed like you were on a rant anyway and we had 20 questions to get through ?!
Moony: I thought I would leave it for another time
Padfoot: MOONY
Padfoot: WE ARE LITERALLY SOULMATES!!!!!!
Moony: ok opinion time
Moony: don’t hate me !!
Padfoot: well that can never be good
Moony: I don't believe in soulmates (I think)
Padfoot: HOW DO YOU NOT BELIEVE IN SOULMATES??!!!
Moony: I don’t even know if I believe in souls
Moony: like I understand it’s a comforting thought for many people to believe in souls, soulmates, love and afterlife etc
Moony: But in reality what we think is love is probably just a chemical reaction in our brains ??
Moony: you’re not bonded to each other, or soulmates, or whatever
Moony: you’re just attracted to each other, have stuff in common and eventually experience a feeling that got labelled as ‘love’
Padfoot: MOONY THAT'S SO DEPRESSING!! AND SCARY!!
Moony: yes well realism
Moony: I mean we’re all just using eachother, that’s what ‘love’ is
Padfoot: you are such a pessimist!!!!!!
Moony: I just
Moony: I get love for friends and family
Moony: but I'm twenty and have never experienced what I feel is romantic love ??
Moony: so maybe my chemicals just don’t work the same or whatever
Moony: or maybe I just haven’t found the right person ?
Moony: but my romantic connections with people have never turned into love
Moony: there’s the initial attraction and the start of a relationship, but it never goes anywhere
Moony: I guess commitment issues?? but I feel like if I'm going to love someone I want it to be worth it?
Moony: I do believe I'm capable of romantic love though, that it just takes the right person :)
Moony: I'm not really sure, like I know I'm on the asexual spectrum in some form, but this specific feeling isn't to do with sexuality, but I cant explain why it isn't
Moony: sorry, that was a lot
Padfoot: don't be sorry!!!!
Padfoot: we are VERY different, but I understand what you are saying
Padfoot: I guess I'm an optimist so it’s a bit different for me?
Padfoot: but I have romantically loved only one person, so I know (hope) it could happen again
Padfoot: but heartbreak does change how you have romantic relationships and love
Padfoot: but I do believe in souls
Padfoot: because how else do we experience empathy, emotional pain and love that other less evolved animals don’t ??
Padfoot: I am quite a spiritual person so I hope souls are real or else what is the reason for all this ???
Moony: I never thought about the empathy thing before but that’s true
Moony: I mean maybe it will just take the right person to love
Moony: but waiting for your ‘big love story’ to come along or whatever just seems futile ?
Moony: like if it happens to walk into my life, yay !
Moony: but I’m not going to go looking for it
Padfoot: how sensible of you :/
Moony: as opposed to you, who is what? actively seeking love, dating people ??
Padfoot: if you’re trying to figure out if I’m dating anyone you are NOT subtle
Moony: dating ??
Moony: you
Moony: no I just you know
Moony: thought that
Padfoot: that was beautiful
Padfoot: truly, it brought a tear to my eye :’)
Moony: Oh shut up !!
Moony: all I meant was, I like to know people before I decide if I like them or not
Moony: and IF you had a boyfriend that would seem like a large part of your life I would need to know about
Padfoot: ok well for the purposes of winning you over, and thus proving Prongs wrong
Padfoot: No, I do not currently have a boyfriend
Moony: cool
Moony: yeah cool cool cool
Moony: it’s all cool
Padfoot: so cool
Padfoot: so very very cool
Padfoot: I think I have a paper or a thing you know
Moony: YES !
Moony: eh yes, me too
Moony: paper due that’s not gonna write itself
Padfoot: yeah same
Padfoot: so we will....
Moony: talk later !
Padfoot: yep sounds good :)
(17:55)
(moonflower supremacy)
Moony: ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Lilyflower: word^
(17:57)
(Da Boyyyzzzz 🥶😩😈)
effiesfav: arghhhhhh
ProngsIsKing: Are we pirates now or have I missed something ?
effiesfav: nothing I just was awkward and I’m never awkward and it was weird and I wanna watch WandaVision
ProngsIsKing: and particular reason you need to watch your comfort show ??
effiesfav: I WAS AWKWARD !!!!!
ProngsIsKing: ok well then
ProngsIsKing: I will be home in 20 mins
effiesfav: bring chili heatwave doritos
ProngsIsKing: on it ! :)
(21st Sept, Wednesday 11:13am)
(We love Taylor)
Moony: ugh I have such a busy weekkkk
Padfoot: I don’t ha!
Moony: ugh screw you
Moony: I have three assignments due ON THE SAME DAY!!!
Moony: why do my professors hate me??
Moony: and I have work this evening and Thursday AND FRIDAY!!!
Moony: I'm never offering to take someone’s shift again
Padfoot: ooh how is the library ??
Moony: how do you remember that?
Padfoot: photographic memory
Moony: SERIOUSLY!!!
Padfoot: I'm always ‘serious’
Moony: I still don’t get the joke
Padfoot: ugh I know but I can’t not say it sorry, it’s reflex at this point
Padfoot: but yes I do have a photographic memory
Moony: ugh I'm so JEALOUSSS
Moony: can you just do my assignments for me???
Padfoot: SO NOT ONLY ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME PAY YOUR UNI BILLS, NOW I'M DOING YOUR ASSIGNMENTS??!!
Moony: oh no!! they’re onto me!!
Padfoot: your next career choice may have been a therapist, but mine was a detective
Moony: So why the change in heart, artist and detective aren’t exactly alike ??
Padfoot: oh well I wanted to pick the thing that would piss off the people who gave birth to me the most
Padfoot: and gay artist just has more of an air of shame around it than gay detective, don’t you think ?
Moony: true, true
Moony: I’m sure they’re very ashamed of you xx
Padfoot: I'm so glad you believe in my ability to disappoint people :’)
Moony: I was trying to be helpful, but I feel I may have done something wrong
Padfoot: jwnebebebe NO !!!
Padfoot: it’s all good really
Padfoot: jokes is how I cope
Moony: ahhh humor
Moony: so you laugh instead of crying
Padfoot: ……..
Padfoot: you would be a very mean therapist>:(
Moony: I TOLD YOU I HAVE BAD PEOPLE SKILLS !!!!!?!?
Padfoot: sjjsjdnndd Im joking Moony
Padfoot: you are right
Padfoot: except I joke because honestly the whole thing is a joke
Padfoot: might as well get some laughter out of it
Moony: we are so different
Padfoot: don’t worry your pessimism brings me back to earth
Moony: I don’t think you could ever pay me a bigger compliment :’)
Padfoot: oh moonshine you make me laugh
Moony: and you make me concerned for your mental well-being !!
Moony: as fun as this has been I have to go and be a working human :’(
Padfoot: good luck !!
Padfoot: enjoy the library ;)
Moony: should I be scared you know where I work ??
Padfoot: there are lots of libraries in the city, so no
Moony: phew, thought I was about to need a restraining order
Padfoot: HA HA
Padfoot: very funny -_-
Moony: I know, I’m a comedian :)
Moony: also if I don’t talk to you until the weekend it’s not personal, just very busy!!
Moony: but keep texting me I’ll reply later
Padfoot: MOONY MY LOVE, EVERYDAY I SPEND WITHOUT YOU MY HEART WILL BREAK A LITTLE BIT MORE
Padfoot: I WILL MISS YOU MY LOVE !!
Moony: anddd with that note
Moony: goodbye :)