Expectations and Desire

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
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Expectations and Desire
Summary
I can do this. Count the steps Hermione. 1.. 2.. 3.. I count my steps, head down as I walk through the Hogwarts Express corridor to find a compartment. Free of people. Free of conversation. Free of the sympathised looks I had become so tired of.
Note
I love reading dreomione fics and thought I’d try posting my own!Trigger warning: contains mental health; depression, anxiety, eating disorders please don’t read if this upsets/triggers you!Slow burn, eventual sexual content!I hope you enjoy! Let me know what you think, it would mean the world 😌
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Chapter 17

Waking up and remembering where I was made me wake with a huge smile. I opened my eyes to see Draco a bit further along the bed on his side facing away from me still sleeping, and Theo was right behind me spooning me. I held onto one of his arms and moved it off of me trying to wriggle out of his hold. I managed to get up without disturbing either of them and went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror as I was washing my hands and my eyes widened. I was absolutely covered with love bites, all over my chest and a few on my neck but not too many there. The memory flashed back into my mind from last night, and I smiled recounting it. Looks like I will have to do concealment charms and wear scarfs for a few days. At least it was October and cold in Paris this time of year. I really needed coffee but wasn't sure how to order any with room service. I got dressed ensuring my neck was covered and made my way down to the restaurant where breakfast was in full swing. I found and approached a waiter.

 

"Excuse me, am I able to take some coffee upstairs?" The man looked at me confused. Right, French. Just as I was about to say never mind a man stepped in speaking French, the waiter nodded and smiled at me turning to leave and the stranger turned back to me.

 

"Coffee is on the way. Most people here do speak multiple languages, but I think he's an exception." He stuck his hand out to me to shake it, I took it in his and he had a firm grip. He had dirty blonde hair styled perfectly, not a hair out of place. He was a similar height and build to Theo, though his arms weren't as muscly, and he was dressed relatively smartly, blue eyes piercing into mine. He was a fellow brit. "Sam, Holland. Nice to meet you." I smiled and nodded.

 

"Hermione. Thank you for ordering my coffee, you have made my day a lot more manageable" I joked. I didn't want to say my last name, I don't trust new people.

 

"Well I'm glad I could be of service. Here on business or pleasure?"

 

"Pleasure. I'm here with my boyfriend." I didn't plural. Muggles don't tend to understand multiple partners and it wasn't a discussion I wanted to have with a stranger. He laughed and nodded looking at his feet.

 

"Shame, I was hoping to get to know you a bit more." He admitted as the waiter came back with a mug of coffee. I took it thanking him and turned back to Sam.

 

"Well, it was really nice to meet you, Sam. Have a nice trip and thanks again for the coffee." He nodded and bowed his head putting his hand in his pocket bringing out a card extending it out to me. It just had his name and number on it.

 

"The pleasure has been all mine, Hermione. Just in case things don't work out." I took it frowning as I looked at it but nodded to him once more before I headed back to the room. I walked in and Theo and Draco were both up sat out on the balcony their heads turning toward me as I entered.

 

"Coffee! That's where she was, of course" Theo said laughing. "But none for us? So rude" I laughed and walked out joining them.

 

"I'm sorry, I didn't order it, some guy had to to help me because the waiter I was speaking with didn't speak English. He just ordered the one and I needed it so I wasn't about to complain" They both looked at me suspiciously at the mention of another man. Honestly these two. I rolled my eyes and laughed. "He was perfectly nice, his name was Sam and all he did, was translate my order... and say it was a shame I was here with my boyfriend, but what's a girl to do" I shrugged and they both cut their eyes at me making me burst out with laughter. "Now who are the cute ones?"

 

"Did he say his last name by any chance? No reason, just need to do some research... see where he lives, what he does, if anyone would miss him" Draco joked. At least I think he was joking anyway.

 

I took the card out of my pocket looking at it. "Holland." I answered sipping on my coffee. They both widened their eyes and Draco sat forward in his chair and Theo did the same, taking the card from my hand.

 

"Sam Holland? Tall, blonde-ish hair, creepy blue eyes, British?" I nodded and looked between them both.

 

"Yes, how do you know him?"

 

"We don't really, just heard of him back home, he's a lawyer. He's known for winning law suits all over the place, and he always wins. We almost had an incident where we were going to hire him but luckily there was no need in the end. Ruthless though, he really goes for the jugular in his cases, most people he defends end up putting the other people's business under." Theo explained.

 

"How charming." I said sarcastically still drinking on my coffee. Theo went to take the mug from me to have some but I pulled away. "Don't make me get my lawyer friend up here" I threatened making them laugh. "Oh also, Theodore Nott, I have something to discuss with you." He put his hand to his chest and pretended to look shocked.

 

"You just full named me. What did I do?" I took my scarf off and pulled my t-shirt down to show my chest a bit and he bit his lip looking at all the marks he had placed on me the night before. "Sorry sweetheart, but that was to teach you a lesson. Also, you just went down for coffee and came up with another mans number. I think we're even." He winked and I rolled my eyes covering them back up.

 

"I think that's fair" Draco said shrugging. "Although if we ever need him it's good to know we might be able to get some sort of discount, right Hermione? You could wrangle that with your new friend?" I groaned and threw my head back dramatically.

 

"I will do no such thing! I'm never telling you anything ever again if this is how possessive you're going to be" I joked and they got up kissing me on the cheek and went to get ready.

 

They wanted to take me to all the tourist sites they could in one day. We saw Arc de Triomphe, and went to the Louvre museum, where they both knew so much than I thought they would about the art. They explained how they both had a love for art, especially muggle art due to the fact it was done with so much more difficulty considering magic wasn't involved in the making of it. My favourite place was when we walked over the Pont Alexandre bridge. It was so beautiful. They even planned for us to have a baking class with a patissier who taught us how to make a pain au chocolat from scratch. Theos was amazing, mine wasn't too bad, just a weird shape but tasted good, but Dracos was awful. We made fun of him and even the chef joined in joking about how much he messed it up. The amount of French they both spoke throughout the day made me weak at the knees multiple times, but they knew what they were doing. Walking back to the hotel I was so glad I hadn't wore heels today. The amount of walking we did would have killed my feet. We got back to the hotel and made our way to the bar to get a drink, as we sat Draco's phone rang and he left to take it outside.

 

"I don't think I'll ever get used to seeing that. Draco or you with a muggle phone. It's so surreal" I said as I sipped on the wine they had ordered. Theo laughed and shook his head.

 

"It was actually so hard to get used to. Learning all of the technology you have and their uses. Like cars, computers, phones. It's incredibly impressive. I hate that we were brainwashed to think muggles were bad people. Looking back I feel so naive." Theo admitted grimacing. I reached my hand over the table and took my hand in his.

 

"Hey, you didn't know. Like you just said, you were brainwashed. You were young, and didn't know any different. What's important, is how you feel now." I squeezed his hand and let it go and he smiled gratefully. I saw Sam behind Theos head sat at the bar raise his glass at me and drink then turn around. I rolled my eyes and Theo turned around then looked back to me.

 

"Aw, he's in love with you" Theo said fluttering his eye lashes. I sniggered and shook my head.

 

"Shh, he is not now be quiet before he hears you and thinks he can come over here to talk to us" Theo picked up his wine and muttered in his glass it's not him he wants to talk to. Draco came back in and sat down then looking a mixture of concerned and stressed.

 

"Whats up Dray? Who called?" Theo asked frowning at Dracos clear distress. Draco lowered his head and stared into his hands his face twisted in a frown.

 

"Oh, just the monthly update of my Mother." He let out a laugh and chucked the phone on the table. "They said she asked for me to forgive my Father, that it 'would help her move on'. The woman doesn't talk for months on end, and then she comes out with that blinder? Fucking ridiculous." He leaned and put his elbows on the table placing his head in his hands and took a deep breathe. I couldn't tell if he was sad or angry. Theo looked at me and smiled then back to Draco placing his hand on his shoulder.

 

"What do you need?" Theo asked, though from the looks of it, it seemed like he already knew what Draco needed.

 

"Control." Draco responded just that one word and Theo nodded and looked to me. I think I knew what he was going to say so I shook my head and smiled.

 

"It's okay. I think I know what you need to do. But don't for one second think i'm staying down here. I'm watching." I stated. Draco lifted his head his eyebrow raised and classic smirk atop his face we all knew and loved. Theo shrugged and looked to Draco.

 

"Fine with me. Never had a voyeur join us before. This should be interesting." We all left the bar and went straight up to the room. Draco pulled a chair from the bathroom that was in front the vanity and brought it into the bedroom placing it at the side of the bed gesturing me to sit there. I sat and Draco knelt next to me. As Draco spoke to me Theo closed the curtains and it looked like he was transfiguring things, putting them on the floor, but I couldn't see what they were. He also stripped completely naked.

 

"Just so you know, anything you see now, Theo and me have done before. I wouldn't ever hurt him in a way that wasn't pleasurable for us both. If you want to leave at any point though, then do so. He trusts me and that's why this works. I would also never do anything he doesn't consent to or enjoy. Okay?" I verbally confirmed and he seemed satisfied and kissed me on my head. What was I about to see?

 

Draco started to take off his clothes, but left his trousers on so he was just shirtless. Theo was sat still now on the floor at the bottom of the bed facing away from the bed toward the doors his hands clasped in front of him. Draco walked forward slowly, then came to kneel directly behind Theo, smoothing his fingertips lightly up and down his arms either side. I could see Theo shiver from the contact, goosebumps appearing all over his body.

 

"You're okay?" He asked, Theo nodded and spoke at the same time.

 

"Yes sir." Sir? That was hot. Draco nodded and now his demeanor and voice both changed. He was speaking directly into his ear, his voice low and rumbling.

 

"Tell me your safe word Theo" Draco demanded. "Apple, sir" Interesting. I guess that's for if things get too much for Theo?

 

"Good boy. Get on the bed and put your back against the headboard. Legs straight in front of you." Theo got to fulfilling Dracos request straight away, and as he did, Draco unbuckled his belt and removed it, then went to Theo climbing atop his lap.

 

"Arms up." no further instruction was needed. He raised his arms above his head and Draco tied his wrists together with his belt and then tied them to the headboard. "Since we have an audience tonight, we're going to use the traffic light system. Understand?"

 

"Yes, sir" How was that different to the safe word? I guess I'll find out. Draco got off of Theos lap and then picked up his tie he had taken off earlier. He showed the tie to Theo who smiled. He placed it over his eyes and tied it gently at the back of his head "Colour, baby." Draco asked.

 

"Green, sir" Draco looked to me and smirked, I smiled back and squirmed in my chair trying to create any sort of friction between my legs, the display turning me on already.

 

Draco went to the end of the bed where Theo had laid some things down. He looked over the floor and bent down picking up what looked to be, a riding crop? I felt hot instantly. That, looked like it was going to be fun... and painful. Draco held it and moved the end travelling it up and down Theos body, teasing him. He brought it up and then back down over his hardened torso, the noise making an audible crack making me jump slightly. "Colour."

 

"Green, sir." I think I get it, the colours are to say if he's okay with it or not? Draco trailed it back up and down his body and brought it down again, this time on his hip. Theo hummed with pleasure. He thinks it feels good? I was so curious to how this dynamic made both of them feel.

 

"You're so good for me baby. Letting me use you like my personal little play thing when I need it." Draco said his voice still low. Theo shivered again and spoke.

 

"Thank you, sir" Theo said shifting his hips. His cock was leaking pre cum and standing to attention. Draco let out a low laugh and continued to move the crop up and down his body. Draco hummed again and went back to the floor and picked up a small item this time. I had no idea what this one was. He crawled up the bed and placed it over Theos hardened cock. It made a small buzzing noise like it was vibrating. Theo groaned with pleasure and threw his head back. Draco came down and kissed his abs moving down before kissing the tip of his cock making Theo thrust up a bit. Draco instantly came up tutting and brought the riding crop down on Theos torso and he jumped slightly his hands straining against the belt not having expected it.

 

"I thought you would have known better by now, baby"

 

"Sorry, sir. I'll be good. I do know better." Draco smiled and came forward again and brought his hand around Theos base and moved slowly up and down teasing him. "Please, sir, I want to cum"

 

"You can cum when I say you can baby. Do you understand me?" Theo groaned out loud and nodded. Draco brought the riding crop down once more on Theos thigh this time. "Use your words Theo."

 

"Yes, sir I understand." Draco put down the riding crop now and picked up another item that was on the floor and got back onto the bed approaching him from his feet and pushed his legs apart. Theo brought his knees up and opened his legs, allowing Draco access to crawl up in between them. Draco whispered a charm on the item in his hand seemingly making it wet. Lubrication charm maybe? He placed whatever it was into Theos hole and once again, Theo hummed with pleasure. It sounded that this might have been vibrating too.

 

Draco brought his hands up over Theos knees, moved up his thighs to the top of them and stopped. Theo was shaking slightly beneath him, his chest moving up and down. Draco leaned down and kissed around both his thighs and around his lower torso, avoiding his dick purposefully. "Colour"

 

"Yellow sir, I don't know how much longer I can wait!" Draco seemed very pleased with his answer. "Good boy baby, you're so good for telling me the truth. Thank you" Draco removed the small vibrating ring and gripped him at the base of his length then and Theo groaned out in pleasure, now finally being closer to what he wanted. Draco slowly moved his hand up and down Theos shaft and he was continuously moaning. I shifted again in my seat, my knickers completely soaked and my heart beating fast, I felt so hot. I wanted nothing more than to join in. Draco continued to pump up and down, collecting the precum that was leaking out of the top and bringing it down over his member, it was making filthy noises echoing around in the room. As he did that, he grabbed the hilt of what was in Theos ass and moved that in and out at the same time.

 

"Fuck, that feels so good, please let me cum sir!" Theo was begging now. Draco smiled and vanished his blindfold. Theo locked eyes with Draco instantly smiling, his cheeks were flushed and he was panting.

 

"Last a little longer for me baby. I know you can do it for me." Theo scrunched his eyes shut throwing his head back again, sweat covering his brow. He looked back up breathing deeply.

 

"Yes, sir." He managed to strangle out as Draco continued to pleasure him.

 

"Colour" Draco asked.

 

"Still yellow sir. But I don't know if I can.."

 

"Okay baby, okay. I'll take care of you. Last for as long as you can, but I'm going to suck you and you're going to cum in my mouth when you want, okay?" Theo grinned and nodded to Draco.

 

"Yes sir, please!" Draco bought his head down then and began to suck on Theos cock, bobbing up and down, working his hand in tandem with his mouth. Theo's eyes were squeezed shut, trying to last for as long as he could as per Dracos request. It didn't take long though before Theo was screaming Dracos name, cumming as he did so. As soon as Theo was finished, he thanked Draco who swallowed down Theos release and came up to untie his hands instantly from the headboard. Draco covered Theo with the duvet and got up to get something from the bathroom. At a closer look it was some sort of lotion? He rubbed it over Theos body where he had brought the crop down and then recovered him with the duvet kissing him on the forehead. He led with him on the bed for a minute by his head smoothing his hair, whispering in his ear. I couldn't hear what he was saying though. After a couple of minutes of this, Theo nodded to Draco who got up and walked around to the other side of the bed taking a seat opposite me. Theo was led on his side facing me, listening in to our conversation.

 

"Questions?" He asked. He knew me so well. I let out a small laugh and nodded.

 

"Just a few.. what was that?" I said gesturing to their whole interaction they just had.

 

"Aftercare. It's important that after any sort of d/s play like that, that I ensure my sub feels safe, comfortable, and is okay about everything we just did. The lotion is to help with the sting of the hits, and I just make sure he knows I love him, and that he did really well." That makes sense.

 

"And what's the difference between a safe word, and the traffic light system? I think I picked up along the way what the traffic light system was, but still not sure on the difference between them?"

 

"Theos safe word, if at any point he says it, the play will stop straight away, and we go straight into aftercare. The traffic light system, we don't really use much anymore, hence the safe word, but it was just good for you to see. After I do something, I ask for the colour he feels is associated with that action. Green means it was good, I can continue to do it, yellow means you don't want to stop, but you are reaching your limit, and red, is usually the same as the safe word. Everything stops" I was nodding it all now becoming clear.

 

"Have you ever used your safe word?" I asked Theo. He shook his head smiling.

 

"Not yet" He winked then at me and Draco shook his head. I had one more question though.

 

"One more question... why didn't you.. get to...you know..?" I really had to get used to saying words regarding sex out loud. Draco huffed out a laugh and leaned forward placing his forearms on his knees.

 

"Why didn't I cum?" I blushed and nodded. "I had an amazing time doing what I just did. It gives me pleasure, to give him pleasure. For me it was more about control, being able to use my feelings in, for lack of a better word, a constructive way." I nodded then sat back in the chair my mind reeling with everything I just saw. It was so sexy. The thought that Draco just knew exactly what Theo wanted, and what he could handle.The fact Theo knew Draco needed this and gave himself to him to use how he wanted.

 

"I want to try it" They both snapped their heads toward me, Theo sitting up in the bed smiling. "Did I say that out loud?" I hate it when I do that. I buried my head in my hands and internally cursed myself.

 

"Hey, what did I say about hiding that beautiful face of yours?" Theo protested. Draco laughed and took my hands in his bringing them back down.

 

"Well as I promised you, I will give you anything you want darling. If you really want to explore it, that's fine with us. But there's a lot of discussion to be had prior. I need to know how far you want to take it, what you want from it, why you want to do it, we would both need to confirm rules for you to follow if you want to take it that far. So, think about all of that, and when you are ready to talk more about it, then tell me. Maybe even talk to Theo to get more of his perspective on it too. Seeing it, and being turned on by it, are very different to experiencing it." Theo looked to me then and grinned.

 

"I will make a perfect brat of you yet sweetheart." I remember them vaguely going over that before, but never really knew what it was."You technically have already managed to successfully get a reaction out of Draco with the little stunt you pulled yesterday, but that riled me up too, so not quite the same, I was still proud though." Draco nodded.

 

"Oh yes, if we had this down already you'd have woke with much worse than a few love bites this morning darling, trust me. You'd have even received punishment for returning with another mans phone number this morning as well." I shivered at that thought. I'd love to know what he would have done.

 

"But that wasn't even my fault! He just gave it to me what was I supposed..." Draco laughed darkly and Theo raised his eyebrows and patted Draco on the back.

 

"Yep, you're going to have a good time taming that one Dray." He flopped back down onto the bed looking up at the ceiling. I continued to stare at Draco my eyebrow raised challenging him. I would be sure to get all the tips from Theo to make his job hard as I could. It wasn't like me to just take things lying down.

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