Expectations and Desire

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
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Expectations and Desire
Summary
I can do this. Count the steps Hermione. 1.. 2.. 3.. I count my steps, head down as I walk through the Hogwarts Express corridor to find a compartment. Free of people. Free of conversation. Free of the sympathised looks I had become so tired of.
Note
I love reading dreomione fics and thought I’d try posting my own!Trigger warning: contains mental health; depression, anxiety, eating disorders please don’t read if this upsets/triggers you!Slow burn, eventual sexual content!I hope you enjoy! Let me know what you think, it would mean the world 😌
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Chapter 14

“No we can’t just up and leave her there on her own. You know how much she’s been struggling with us gone just on the weekends and evenings. Every time we saw her on a Sunday she’d be so tired. I’m worried Theo. She’s losing more weight and I don’t want..”

 

“I know, love. But we can’t watch her 24/7. Plus you know better than anyone you can’t force someone to take help. They have to want it. I’m worried too but she’s clearly stressed about us going back to school as well. I don’t know what the solution is. She seems to eat and sleep relatively well when she’s with us.”

 

“Well maybe just one of us can…”

 

I sat up in the bed and saw Theo and Draco sat in the armchairs holding coffees whispering between each other. They both turned toward me and smiled.

 

“Morning sweetheart, sleep well?” Theo asked. I stood up out of bed and felt the ache between my legs again. I paused for a second and walked to Theo climbing into his lap resting my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around me holding me there.

 

“I was sleeping very well until I heard you two whispering. If you’re going to wake me up at least have the decency to get me a coffee” I said sleepily into Theo. I heard his laugh rumbling in his chest and Draco passed me his cup.

 

“Okay, make sure Hermione gets coffee in the morning. Theo please don’t let me forget. I don’t want to lose my head tomorrow” Draco teased. I took a sip of coffee and made a face handing it back to him.

 

“What’s wrong with it?”

 

“It has milk and sugar in it. What’s the matter with you?” Draco rolled his eyes and picked up Theo’s mug instead handing that to me.

 

“Theo change that, tell me to make sure Hermione gets black coffee in the morning.” I smiled and sipped on Theo’s coffee. That’s better.

 

“What were you two whispering about just now that woke me up out of my extremely relaxing sleep?” They exchanged a look before Theo answered.

 

"Just about what the plan was for today. Draco has a couple of meetings to attend this morning but I was thinking whilst he did that we'd stay here, I'll make you some breakfast. Sound good?" I pouted then about the fact that Draco had to go to meetings. Otherwise it was perfect. "Speaking of which Dray, you should probably get going, your first one starts soon." Draco nodded and stood up noticing my pouted out lip.

 

"If you don't put that lip away, I'll bite it." Draco said his eyes darkening. I smiled then and drank some more coffee. "I'll be done around 11 darling. Then we have the rest of the day planned." He kissed me on the head and made his way to the closet to get ready.

 

"Wait, what time is it?" I usually wake up before 7, did his meetings start that early?

 

"9:10" Draco shouted from the closet. My eyes widened and I hopped up out of Theos lap.

 

"Hermione, what's wrong?" Theo looked me up and down as if looking for a physical injury. “Are you okay?” I shook my head.

 

"No, sorry, yes, fine. Nothings wrong. I just.. I slept through the night. I woke up after 7am. That hasn't happened for at least... 3 years?" I admitted still surprised.

 

He let out a sigh of relief and brought his hand up to his chest. "Hermione you almost gave me a bloody heart attack." I shrugged apologetically. "But that's great sweetheart. I'm glad you slept well."

 

We made our way downstairs and Draco kissed us both goodbye at the door leaving to go to his meetings. He looked so good. He was wearing a pair of black trousers, a white shirt underneath a grey jumper, with the collar of the shirt sticking out over the top.

 

"Right, I'm gonna make breakfast, you go get ready and meet me down here when your dressed." Theo instructed.

 

"Attire?" I asked to make sure I was dressed appropriately.

 

"Hmm, smart casual." I nodded and headed up. I had a body shower and rummaged through my suitcase. I dressed in a pair of denim skinny jeans, a white bodysuit that was high necked but the sleeves cut off at the shoulders and a nude blazer jacket, paired with a pair of nude heels. This should do just fine. I left my hair down but used my wand to style it so it wasn't a massive frizzball and made the curls more defined. I put light makeup on and decided that should be enough primping. I made my way downstairs and Theo was plating up some pancakes. He had put a couple on my plate with some berries and yoghurt. I sat on the stool to the island and he had already put a mug of black coffee by my plate.

 

"This looks great Theo. Who taught you how to cook?" I asked as he took his seat next to me.

 

"You look great! Well after my Mother died, my Father hired maids to raise me. He didn't want much to do with me. I had this maid growing up, she was an amazing cook. I spent loads of time with her in the kicthen and she'd teach me how to cook all sorts of stuff. She was great because if my Father found out she was allowing me to cook with her, let’s just say he wouldn't approve. So she was putting a lot on the line by doing it. It was like our little secret. She died a few years ago though. But she’s one of the reasons I wanted our first business endeavour to be a restaurant." He smiled at me and I took his hand in mine and gave it a squeeze. I let go to take a bite of the panckaes.

 

"Well, she most definitley passed her skills on. These taste so good." He grinned and tucked into his plate. We finished up eating and I cleared away the plates while Theo got ready. I was sat on the sofa flicking through a magazine when he came downstairs wearing a pair of light brown trousers with a white shirt that was tucked in and a green blazor with matching brown shoes and belt.

 

"You look practically edible." I admitted as he walked down the stairs.

 

"She's not lying" Draco appeared from the corridor and kissed me on the top of my head.

 

"Meetings go okay?" Theo asked. Draco nodded.

 

"I'll tell you later. I don't want to bore Hermione with our business talk. Ready to go?"

 

We spent the whole day shopping in muggle London. Theo and Draco practically forced me to buy something from every shop we went in. It's not like we were in my usual shopping places, we were in stores like Chanel, Dior, YSL, Louis Vuitton. It was absolutley outrageous the amount of money they spent on me and themselves. I started off refusing to pick anything saying it was too expensive but they threatened if I didn't choose anything then they'd buy the most expensive thing in the store for me. Slytherins. I got multiple bags, a few pairs of shoes and a coat. They even paid extra to have it taken to the flat so we didn't have to carry it around. Outrageous. We went out for lunch as well. It was about 4pm now and they were taking me to a different place for a few drinks before we headed back to the flat.

 

On our way there we walked past a pharmacy that had a poster of a pregnant lady in the window. I looked at it and stopped walking abruptly. Protection. We didn't use any. Nothing. No contraception spell. No condom. I wasn't on the pill. Fuck fuck fuck. Theo and Draco turned around a bit further down the path after finally noticing I wasn't with them any longer. I tried my best to plaster on a smile and not freak them out too much.

 

"Hermione, everything alright?" Draco asked holding my arm. I nodded and took a deep breathe.

 

"Fine. Yes, all good. Um, do you mind if I just pop in here quickly? I won't be very long?" They both looked at eachohter then back to me confused looks on their faces.

 

"Why? What do you need? You’re kind of scaring me.” I gestured them toward the wall so the people around wouldn't overhear.

 

"Draco, last night we didn't use.. we didn't do any.." I sighed frustrated they weren't getting what I was trying to say. "Draco we didn't use any protection. I didn't do a contraceptive charm and I'm not using any other form of contraception." Both of their eyes widened then finally understanding. Draco, if it was possible, went even paler. "So, wait here, and I will be right back." They both nodded still in shock and I ran in asking the lady behind the counter for the morning after pill. She weighed me, took my blood pressure, and handed me an information leaflet with all the side effects that I shoved into my bag. She gave me the pill to take then and there. I expressed my appreciation and went back outside. Neither of them had moved a muscle, they were both still leaning against the wall their faces hadn't changed either, still as shocked as before. I stood in front of them both and they looked at me.

 

"It's all sorted, nothing to worry about. Okay?" Draco snapped out of his trance.

 

"How? What did you get?" He was looking at my hands confused I didn't actually leave with anything.

 

"It's a muggle thing. If any girl is... in the position we are, then you just ask for the morning after pill. They take your information do a few tests and give it to you to take there. It delays the release of an egg, as to not get pregnant. So, as I said, it's all sorted. Okay?" I asked again hoping it would ease their worries. They both let out a sigh of relief and I laughed easing the tension. "You should have seen your faces!" They both pushed off the wall and shook their heads walking on in front me as I teased them for their reactions.

 

"Well what did you expect? I don't think I could manage both of you, our business, AND a child. I don't know the first thing about babies! I mean maybe one day but not yet!”Theo said.

 

We walked into a private establishment and the concierge knew them both by name, well, their Mothers maiden names again. They said they have multiple business meetings here which makes sense I guess. We were guided to a private table and were brought over some wine. I could get used to this way of life for sure.

 

"Enjoyed your day so far sweetheart?" Theo asked sipping at his wine grinning over the glass.

 

"I have but I don't know if I should be extremely grateful for everything you bought me, or extremely angry that you literally forced me into choosing it! It wasn’t necessary, really.“

 

"You can be both" Draco shrugged. I hummed and drank some of the wine. I wasn't even going to think about how much this bottle cost. “You better get used to it darling because this, is just the beginning”

 

“I’ll toast to that” I said clinking all of our glasses together. "Where are the bathrooms in here?" I asked gathering up my bag. They pointed them out just past the bar and I made my way there having to leave the private area to do so. As I was on my way back I bumped into a man who moved purposefully standing directly in front of me. I looked up to see who had forced their way into my path and internally cringed. Why me?

 

"Granger? What are you doing here?!" Cormac McLaggen was grinning down at me. Fuck sakes. He was still just as slimy as I remember.

 

"Oh. Hi Cormac. Just here with some people having drinks." Please leave me alone.

 

"This is amazing I haven't seen you in forever!" Theres a reason for that. "Come on, come and have a drink with me" He was pulling my arm gently toward his table where three other guys were sitting who I had never seen before. I could smell the alcohol on him, he was drunk. "Guys, this is my good friend Granger" Good friend? They all nodded toward me looking me up and down. Ew.

 

"Anyway Cormac, this has been great but I really should get back to.." I was about to say who I was with but he inturrupted me.

 

"Aww come on Granger! Stay and have a drink with us! We need to have a catch up! I've been thinking about you a lot lately. How about you come back to my place? We can finish what we started at Slughorns party?" He was smoothing his finger up and down my arm. Finish what?! I tried to take a step back but he grasped his hand round my arm again, this time squeezing tight.

 

“Let go of my arm.”

 

“Aw come on Granger stay with me, I can show you a good time!”

 

"McLaggen. If you would be so kind as to release my girlfriends arm from your grasp." Draco. Cormac let go of my arm and I walked back quickly to stand next to Draco. He was stood his hands clasped in front of him seemingly, cool as a cucumber. Theo appeared then at my other side. Cormac threw his head back then laughing out loud. His other three friends sat at the table were just watching on.

 

"Your girl..? You have got to be kidding me! Seriously Granger? This guy? Well, can't say I'm surprised that you're a death eater whore now." I laughed at the irony. He wanted to sleep with me a couple of seconds ago.

 

 

Draco stepped forward fist clenched and punched him square in the nose then stepped back next to me assuming his original stance. Cormac doubled over, his hand covering his nose, small blood droplets falling to the floor. One of his friends made to get up.

 

“I really, wouldn’t do that if I were you.” Theo stepped in front of me and Draco and the other guy sat back down. I hardly recognised his voice, dark, serious, threatening.

 

 

I stepped forward and bent down to McLaggens ear to talk into it whilst he was protesting in pain.

 

"You know, it's funny. You wanted to sleep with me not two seconds ago, and now I'm a death eater whore? Go fuck yourself McLaggen." I stood back up and started to walk back but turned around. "And for the record, I only took you to Slughorns party to make someone jealous. I'd never want to sleep with someone whose dick was as small as his brain. Girls talk McLaggen. And best believe I will tell every single girl I know about our little encounter. Good luck getting laid ever again." I turned on my heel and walked away, his friends all started ohing and covering their mouths at my statement. I made my way back to the safety of our private table, Theo and Draco following me. They both sat down but before I did I told a staff member he had assaulted me and they had him removed. I sat back down and took a sip of my wine casually. Theo and Draco were both staring at me.

 

"What?"

 

"Just two things. First, that was by far, the sexiest thing I think I have ever seen you do. And two, who told you McLaggens dick was small?!" Theo asked holding back tears of laughter.

 

"Oh, Padma Patil, I overheard her talking with some other girls in the bathroom about it. Said he was bad in bed too, that he was selfish, shocking, I know" I said sarcastically. “Ugh I can’t believe I ever dated him. He hasn’t changed one bit”

 

“I can’t believe you used him to make someone jealous! Not so innocent after all are we?” Theo said wiggling his brows. “Do girls really talk? About that stuff?”

 

“Oh yeah, we talk about everything. And I mean, everything. With all of my eavesdropping, I could tell you who of the boys in our year are worth sleeping with, the sizes of their dicks and if they make women cum or not.” Theo looked thoroughly impressed.

 

“You know I need to ask now. Was our very own Slytherin Prince on the good list?” Draco choked on his wine looking shocked Theo would even ask. “What? You were a little bit of a slut babe, I’m not judging though”

 

Draco rolled his eyes. “I haven’t heard that nickname in years. And also, of course I was on the good list, right darling?”

 

 

“Yes you were, Draco was on the good list. He was known for being very considerate, good size and not selfish, no fakers with you, Blaise was on the good list too, if you care to know apparently also a decent size and no faked orgasms.” Theo audibly gasped and Draco burst out laughing.

 

 

“No way! Blaise never told us who he slept with! Although I did see his dick once, and I was quite impressed..” me and Theo stared at him for him to go on. “Not like that, we shared a dorm, these things were unavoidable! Please tell me who was on the bad list?” Draco pleaded.

 

 

“Well McLaggen, obviously. Crabb and Goyle were on there and I was shocked with this one actually but Dean Thomas was on the bad list. Apparently he had good size but pretty much everyone faked it with him. Didn’t really know where things were…” Theo and Draco were both in fits of laughter “I wish I knew what the guys said about the girls in our year.”

 

“No sweetheart, you really really don’t. Men are disgusting. And before you say we’re men, we are gentlemen who do not discuss things of that nature with every single person we see. It’s just not the done thing.” I smiled at that thankful for them being so considerate of women. I guess being Pureblood wasn’t all bad.

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