Third Year; Poem Four
Eternal Hell
by: Draco M.
I stood before the cross today
And I was in confession after
the priest told me I would be going to heaven
So long as I stop thinking like this
But why would I
I love him too much to stop
I want to have him with me
I want him
I wanted to tell the priest he was wrong
Tell him that he was more than a sin
But maybe he was right
Fags go to hell
And being one will ruin the Malfoy name
Maybe I should stop
Maybe I should be normal
I should love Pansy
She and I are to be married
But she and I do not love one another the same
She is obsessed with me
But I desperately want to feel like the normal straight man I am supposed to be
I pray nightly for forgiveness
I pray that I don't go in front of the boggart in DADA
Because I know what it'll turn into.
It'll turn into my father berating me for being a queer
I'm in eternal hell
Everyday
I face the wrath of my father when I get home
He may find this
I pray he does not
I pray I keep this secret until I pass on into the next light
I pray I will never have to face the truth of this this nightmare