Living in hell
(PLEASE READ THIS TW BEFORE CONTINUING TO READ!!!!! TW: SA (sexual assault) )
Severus approaches Regulus in his dorm "oh Rilynn" Severus called as he walked in, Regulus looked up from his book as Severus walked in, he looked Severus up and down then went back to reading again.
"It's not very ladylike to ignore a man when he calls for you." Severus scoffed as he spoke walking closer to Regulus to which Regulus ignored him and continues to read.
"Of course you're ignoring me, freak." Severus pulled the book out of Regulus' hands and looked at it "You're so antisocial. You wouldn't be like this if you were just normal"
Regulus froze for a moment listening to those words, he stood up and shoved Severus and took his book back, he began to walk out of the room when Severus grabbed Regulus and pushed him against a wall. "Maybe this will fix you." Severus began to kiss Regulus who kneed him in the chest before running away, he ran into the bathroom and washed his face.
Regulus looked at himself in the mirror, his reflection looking back at him, his eyes filled with tears, "I'm a freak..." He began to sob looking at himself, he turned the hot water on and began to wash his mouth, scrubbing at it repeatedly as he cried
Remus walked into the bathroom stopping at the door as he heard the sobs and the water running, he stayed still listening in being careful not to make a sound.
"I'm just a freak... A FREAK..." Regulus cried harder as he continued to scrub his mouth "I'm not a girl... I'm not... I'm not.. My name is Regulus Arcturus Black... Not Rilynn Black... I'm not her" He turned the tap off and sunk down to the floor crying
Remus teared up hearing those words come from Regulus, he walked towards Regulus and kneeled down in front of him "Reggie, what happened, talk to me" Remus placed his wand down and put his arms around Regulus to hug him, Regulus pushed him away in a panic "DONT TOUCH ME!" His eye wide with fear as he cried and yelled
Remus came to the realisation of what had happened, his eyes brimmed with tears as he looked at Regulus "stay here Reggie, don't go anywhere" Remus stood up and ran out the bathroom, he ran down the corridor, up the stairs, he ran into the Gryffindor common room "Where is Sirius, it's an emergency!"
Sirius came into the common room after hearing his name shouted, he looked at Remus "Moony are you okay? Whats going on? What happened?" he watched Remus' heavy breaths and the tears in his eyes "Remus what happened"
Remus shook his head slowly "It's Reggie... Something happened to your brother.." Remus croaked, the thought of what he witnessed from Regulus' reaction to a hug pained him, he didn't know what else to do other than to get Sirius.
Sirius ran over to Remus "What happened. Where is Reggie. Remus tell me now." Sirius' voice was panicked, he didn't know what was going on, he worried for his brother, he placed his hands on Remus' shoulders "Remus you need to tell me"
"I think someone ... done something to him ... something bad Sirius ... he doesn't want to be touched...he's scared to be touched..." Remus looked at Sirius as he spoke "He's in the bathroom..."
Sirius felt his heart drop as he heard those words leave Remus' mouth, his arms dropped down by his side as he ran out of the Gryffindor common room and sprinted to the bathroom where he found his brother sat on the floor unable to breath properly and crying, repeating the same words three words 'I need fixing'. Sirius felt his heart break as he looked at his little brother, he was clutching his chest where his heart is and rubbing at his mouth while repeating the words
"Reggie, talk to me what happened to you, who done this..." Sirius spoke up keeping a distance from his brother, he sat on the floor facing Regulus, who couldn't calm himself down as he shook his head not wanting to talk about it as he cried
"You don't have to tell me until you're ready, I'll be here for as long as it takes" he takes his wand out of his pocket and points it at the door "Colloportus" the door locks as he says those words "I won't let anyone come in"
Regulus looked at his brother as he cried "I'm broken Sirius.. I need fixing.. I'm a freak I'm not normal" He sobbed out the words as Sirius listened, "I was born a girl, why couldn't I have just stayed happy like that, why have I got to be so fucked up, no one will ever see me as a boy..."
Sirius' eyes brimmed with tears as he heard his brother speak "You're not broken Reggie, You've always been a boy, and you'll grow into a man, one that no one will ever fuck with, you're a boy and always have been, forget what anyone else says"
Regulus shook his head as he cried "I don't want to be like this anymore Sirius, I want to be normal, like you, you're perfect! You're everything mother and father could've wanted!" He sobbed
"I'm gay" Sirius spoke as Regulus looked up at him "I'm not perfect, People wouldn't see me as normal if they knew, Mother and Father don't know either, I understand to an extent how it feels to not be 'normal' Reggie, but why should it matter? You are happy as who you are and you have been able to live your life so far being who you are, and that takes courage, more than what i'll ever have"
Regulus sniffled as he smiled slightly at his brother "I never knew you were gay" he laughed slightly as he wiped his tears away, Sirius rolled his eyes and laughed slightly to "Well I never made a habit of telling people now did I" Sirius smiled "Can I hug you?" Regulus nodded as his brother hugged him softly
"You can come chill in my dorm room for a bit, Remus and James will probably join us, I won't tell them anything, Remus might already know though, but I promise not to tell James" He smiled as he helped Regulus up to his feet "That would be nice, your friends are fun" Regulus smiled softly as he wiped the last of his tears away "Well they're definitely something, especially prongs, I think he's loosing his marbles" Sirius laughed to which Regulus gave him a light push "Oh be nice"
Sirius rolled his eyes and laughed more as he unlocked the door and brought Regulus up to his dorm.