The Biggest Sacrifice

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
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The Biggest Sacrifice
Summary
All is lost. Voldemort may have fallen but so has everyone else. Hermione is the only one still standing in the mess of Britain, an old letter from Dumbledore in one hand and a time turner in her other. His portrait explains everything she has to do, playing her like a pawn in a game that none of them were winning - and so she lets him, sending herself back thirty years.Fate plays its hand, giving her a background and a surname that will offer some protection as she figures out a way to save everyone she has ever known, plus the people she has just met, all while reliving her childhood in a new era with the future carefully clutched in her hands, threatening to expose itself and make her journey worthless.
Note
Hello and welcome to my story.For those of you who have come from the original, thank you and please enjoy; for those who are new, welcome and please enjoy. I will explain a bit for those who are probably confused as to why there are two of these stories.I began writing this story a long time ago, on and off, at the beginning I was just so happy at the response I was getting that I published even if it wasn't good. This past year it has been hard for me, due to personal and family issues, and I have read over the original story and I am disappointed in myself - so this is going to be the story that is more edited and makes more sense.I recommend reading as though it is a new story. So sit back, relax and please enjoy and leave reviews if you can as it helps me so much and lets me know what is liked and what isn't. Any feedback is great! Thank you.P.S I don't own Harry Potter.
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Accidents Happen

Six weeks after Remus’ birthday

 

“...it’s just so much – classes and preparing for exams, and then everything else we have going on…” Lily stopped as she looked around at the students passing them before she leaned into whisper. “...have you remembered anything else?” She asked as Hermione gave her an amused smile.

But behind it there was worry, she hadn’t remembered anything since she figured out about Harry, like the wall in her head had closed the holes her pushing had made, only allowing for minor things to leak through and offer some deja vu, or a blurry image – but there was nothing else and this moment was the time to be trying.

Lily was right, their teachers had began adding more and more homework, chapters to study and times for when their end of year exams would take place And as the first year of N.E.W.Ts, it was important.

Emerald eyes were searching hers as Hermione let out a nervous laugh and patted her friends arm. “Let me worry about that, and you just focus on everything else you have going on – like your potion with Belby, how is that going?”

“I think we are almost there, though maybe you could come down this evening and take a look.” Her best friends expression was hopeful as Hermione nodded her head in agreement.

It wouldn’t hurt to check over it, even if she couldn’t recall all that much, but a fresh pair of eyes could often see what was missing and Hermione was willing to give it a try, especially if they wanted to try this before the summer.

A summer that was rapidly approaching judging by the warming weather and the nearing end of the school year. Hermione was honestly looking forward to seeing her parents and spending summer relaxing and enjoying the perks that came with being an adult in her world.

“Hi.” Hermione stopped, frowning as she quickly looked to Lily before the pair of them turned to see a girl behind them, vaguely familiar in a way that came with seeing faces over the years.

Blond hair and an awkward smile, quite pretty but with a nervous energy as she looked at both girls before her, her Hufflepuff badge and colours almost bright on her robes and uniform as Hermione raised her eyebrows. “Hi?”

“Mandy.” She said softly, with a frown as she pointed to herself and Hermione frowned even deeper at the girl. She didn’t know who this girl was, it wasn’t like she spent time with Hufflepuffs enough to learn who they were, unless they were in her year which didn’t seem like it.

“Oh right...Mandy.” Lily laughed off, before sending Hermione a look that let her know she had no idea who this girl was either.

Mandy seemed to sense that too as the smile fell off her face and she looked between them, her cheeks heating up. “I was...I was the one with Remus a few weeks ago.” She whispered the words as Hermione let her mouth fall open and Lily’s eyes widened.

No wonder they had no idea who she was, they had barely seen her and when they had they had all been pissed. “Right, sorry...well what can we help you with Mandy?” Lily asked with a small grimace on her face as the girl gulped and gripped the books she was holding tightly to her stomach, a panicked expression on her face.

Hermione let her eyes drift down as the girl shifted foot to foot, there was something she clearly wanted to say, or something happening that she couldn’t quite put her finger on. “Did you want us to speak to Remus?” Hermione asked waspishly, her eyes narrowing as the girl blushed again and nodded her head.

“I...every time I try he runs away.”

“Well, not to sound rude or anything, but I don’t think he’s looking for a relationship right now.”

It did sound rude and Lily was giving her a look, but honestly she wanted to save this girl from whatever infatuation she might have with Remus that was only going to end badly. Remus was many things but he didn’t do relationships, and she knew how easily a girls heart could be broken when she thought there was something more.

But Remus wasn’t Sirius or another boy – he always made that point clear to any girl who asked him out, or any girl he might be spending the night with. Hermione just hoped one day in the future that there would be someone he could be himself with – perhaps someone who didn’t quite care.

She could almost see him with someone who had bright pink hair and an unusual sense of fashion.

“Oh no...neither am I, but I...there’s just something important I need to talk to him about and it would be great if I could do that face to face, and well you both seem close to him and I thought maybe you would understand…” Mandy spoke, gripping her books tighter to her stomach again as Hermione tried to even understand what the girl was talking about.

“Understand?” Lily asked carefully but something seemed to be dawning on her face, her eyes flickering downwards. “Are you…”

“I don’t know, but I’m late and well that’s why I wanted to speak to Remus.” Hermione felt the colour drain from her face as she looked down to the girls stomach and then back to her face.

She couldn’t have been a year younger, sixteen and getting ready for O.W.Ls, someone who had their whole life in front of them, who had had a fun night with some boy and probably thought nothing else of it until now. Hermione had never been in the girls position, but she could only imagine how freaked out the girl was now.

How freaked Remus would be when he found out. Fuck. Everything was going to go to shit and he would never do anything again. Fuck.

“Did you not use protection?” Lily asked almost gently, but there was a hint of doubt in her voice.

“Well I’m on the pill, my mum thought it was wise coming to a school full of teenagers.” Mandy laughed slightly and Hermione raised her eyebrows, progressive Muggle parents and their tablets, but at least they weren’t stupid. “But they’re not one hundred percent, and you know they don’t really teach girls the contraceptive spells nor potions and well…”

Hermione couldn’t fault her there, it was an issue she had. Lily had told her that sexual education was something taught in Muggle secondary schools, but here at Hogwarts it was something taught through older students and books it seemed. No teachers sat you down and explained how things worked, maybe some parents did but they were often left in the dark.

Even her own parents, are dear as they were to her, had never thought to teach her the means to protect herself from these sort of situations, so she had done her studying and taught herself, but other people weren’t so lucky.

“...and you can never be too sure and I think I should just talk to Remus and make sure, but it’s scary you know and...oh.” Mandy all but squeaked out as Hermione reached forward to pull her into her arms, an action that seemed to surprise all three girls.

Hermione pulled back suddenly, keeping her hands on Mandy’s shoulders and offering her a small smile. “Me and Lily have some potions to do tonight during dinner, but if you want we can drag Remus down and you can meet us there and have a talk – we’ll give you privacy but we can be near if you need us for anything.”

“Oh...that would be great, thank you.” Mandy whispered with wet eyes as Hermione nodded her head and pulled her into another quick hug before pulling away again.

Mandy nodded her head, seeming to straighten herself up and wipe her eyes before she gave them another nod and a wave before walking away, leaving Hermione and Lily staring after her in surprise and slight shock.

“What the fuck!”

 

 

 

 

“REMUS!” Hermione shouted as she ran into the Common Room, Lily hot on her heels and everyone staring, but mainly her friends who sat around a table, books out between them and actually studying.

Hermione would be impressed if this wasn’t such a pressing matter. Sirius, James and Marlene all with work before them and Remus watching over them, but she had no time and Lily didn’t seem to either as she reached for Remus and all but pulled him from the chair with strength no one seemed to know she possessed.

“What’s happening?” Sirius asked, looking at Hermione. No greeting kiss and she reached for his other hand.

“No time – you’re coming with us.” Hermione spoke, both girls pulling the werewolf towards the tunnel and shoving him in. He stared at them with wide eyes, crawling through because they had given him little choice as they followed behind him, jumping out onto the ground behind him.

“Does anyone want to say what is happening here?” He asked, pulling his hands back before the girls could grab them. “Wait – no – what’s going on?” He all but shouted as Hermione winced, maybe they weren’t handling this the best way.

“We just need you to come with us somewhere.”

“Then ask me! Why are you dragging me around?”

“Listen Remus, this is important and we can’t exactly say anything but you need to come with us so get a move on before I stun you and drag you there.” Lily snapped, her wand in her hand as Hermione raised her eyebrows and looked at her best friend.

She doubted aggression was actually needed but it seemed to work on Remus as he nodded his head and gestured for them to lead the way, Hermione moved first but Lily stayed behind Remus with a her wand pointing at his back and her eyes narrowed.

“I’m not going to run away.” He muttered, holding up his hands as he started following behind Hermione.

“We’ll see.” Lily muttered back, emerald eyes wary as Hermione looked over her shoulder and gave her a look. Probably wasn’t the best way to handle this but they knew how Remus would be if they just sprung this on him, and well it seemed like something Mandy should be talking to him about.

Which was why they stayed quiet in the face of Remus’ questions as they headed in the dungeons and towards the potions classrooms, stopping outside the one that Belby occupied most days.

“You brought me here to see Belby?” He asked, looking into the classroom where the Slytherin was hard working and not paying them any attention.

“Not exactly.” Hermione muttered with a wince before a head of blond hair caught her eye.

“Hi.” Mandy muttered as Remus turned to look at her with a frown, mouth opening and a question in his eyes as he turned back to his friends with a frown. No doubt he thought they were trying to set him up. “We need to talk.”

“Okay…?”

“Slughorn leaves one of the supply closets down the hall unlocked for myself and Belby if you want to go and talk in there.” Lily spoke, pointing down the hall towards the open door, a dim light inside and far enough away that they wouldn’t hear them.

“Yeah, that would be good.” Mandy spoke with a soft smile as she reached out for Remus’ hand and began to drag him away, light green eyes turning to look at his friends in a gesture that could only be described as ‘we’ll be talking about this later.’

Hermione didn’t doubt that. They would probably be talking in a few minutes once he found out, she just hoped he managed to keep whatever he was feeling to a minimum around Mandy, she didn’t deserve to have to deal with his anger and self loathing.

With one last look as the door shut she followed behind Lily into the classroom, smiling tensely at Belby as he looked up at her with a frown.

“Wasn’t expecting you today, Potter – not here to rush me are you?” He asked with a small smile as she moved over to stand in front of his desk, Lily moving to stand by his side and peering inside the cauldron with a smile.

“No, though Lily did mention she thought you were close so I thought I would come and check it out.” Hermione spoke as Belby shrugged his shoulders.

“Maybe, won’t know until we test it out on your friend but it feels like it’s missing something – I’ve counteracted the potions, might have even found a new use for dragons blood among other things but I don’t know.” Belby spoke as he looked over his notes before passing them to Hermione.

It was an old Muggle notebook with pages full of different notes and ideas, research on the ingredients – things they had added that ended badly and things they had thought about. So much work through what looked like nearly year – and might have been more if Lily had not been with him, since their ideas seemed more laid out and evolved until they only had one page left with quite a clear list.

  1. 17 aconite leaves

  2. The juice of two mandrake leaves

  3. Three drops of dragons blood

  4. Shift temperature unless you want the whole thing to boil over

  5. Put in the juice of two mandrake leaves.

  6. One moonstone, finely powered

  7. Stir three times clockwise (colour changes slightly – might be doing something)

  8. Two drops of Syrup of Hellebore – carefully

  9. Three Murtlap tentacles, chopped

  10. Simmer on a medium temperature until the colour shifts again

  11. Seven Sopophorous beans (add one at a time unless you want it to explode)

  12. Put on a low heat until it smells different



Figure out what comes next, Evans think we’ll have a clear sign once it is finished.

 

Hermione stared at the list with impressed smile on her face and an inkling in her head that seemed like they were almost there or at least on the right track, but Belby was right, something was missing; another step or perhaps another two.

“What do you think, Potter?” Belby asked with a smirk as Hermione placed down the list and looked back at the two.

“I think you need a binding ingredient – something to tie everything together.” Hermione spoke, looking around the room as though said ingredient would pop out. “I mean you have everything to aid, tame, heal and even connect the moon but you don’t have anything to bring it all together.” She added as she turned around to see them both staring at her.

It seemed slightly obvious and it was worrying that two of the best people at potions hadn’t been able to see that, but she didn’t voice her concern as Lily spoke. “So what do we use?”

“Something strong and potent...it’s a complex potion so nothing small will work.” Hermione reassured as she moved away to look over the ingredients they already had laid out.

“Like gold or silver?” Lily asked with a frown as Hermione thought it over. “Or a diamond?”

“No. You can’t just throw a diamond ring in there and expect it to work – this is still a potion and thus you need something that possess those metal like structures but also has other binding agents – but I think silver is the way to go.” Another inkling that she couldn’t quite name or say outloud.

“Why?”

“Its what the Muggles use to use to take down Werewolves, along with wolfsbane, also commonly known as aconite.” Lily spoke before Hermione could open her mouth, a gleam in her eyes that let Hermione know exactly what she was thinking.

“Right so -”

“An Occamy egg.” Lily spoke suddenly. “An egg made of pure silver.”

“With a baby inside.” Belby commented and Hermione couldn’t help the small smile that made it’s way to her face.

It was amusing to see a Slytherin, one that no one really spoke about through his seven years at Hogwarts, making a potion to aid werewolves, letting a Gryffindor Muggleborn help him – and now showing concern over an egg.

“Well obviously we won’t use that type but do you think it could work?” Lily asked, turning back to Hermione with a frown.

“Do you have one here?” Hermione asked as Belby shrugged his shoulders and Lily ran to the shelves beside Slughorn’s desk where he kept all his precious ingredients on display, not really to be touched nor used but simply to be looked at.

“Slughorn does but…”

“I’ll get him a new one.” Hermione commented as she moved to take the egg and bringing it over to Belby’s cautious hands with a smile. “Maybe crushing It gently before you add it would be better -” Belby nodded as he followed her advice and then looked down at the sparkling silver pieces. “ - and perhaps sprinkling it in, to avoid any splash.”

Belby nodded, a careful look on his face as he cup to pieces in his hands and gently let them drop slowly in the cauldron, all eyes watching as they slowly melted and a slight shine took over the potion, and then nothing else.

A sense of disappointment seemed to fill the room as Lily let out a small sound and Belby’s shoulders fell – but Hermione could only stare at the concoction, her hand waving the wand she didn’t even know was in her hand, almost like muscle memory, over the thick substance, before tapping the spoon and having it stir anticlockwise.

Carefully, she counted in her head – one, two, three, four, five and six. Her wand waved again, stopping the spoon from moving, and then once more over the cauldron, before a small laugh left her mouth as a thick blue smoke was emitted.

“Is that – did you just -”

“I think Hermione just finished your potion, Belby.” Lily spoke softly, an awed look on her face as she wrapped her arms around Hermione’s neck, far too tight but Hermione couldn’t help but grin and tap her arm gently.

“I can’t – wait -” Belby stuttered over his words and seemingly his legs as he reached for his notes, and pulled a pen out of his pocket, Hermione blinked in shock. Yes, the Muggle inventions would be much easier to use but she had never seen a Slytherin actually use them, nor carry one around.

Lily gently let go of her neck as Hermione moved forward to watch over the boys shoulder as he wrote.



  1. Crush an Occamy egg gently and sprinkle in

  2. Wave wand to create ripples before stirring anticlockwise SIX times, and lastly wave your wand again

  3. There should be blue smoke when finished



Owe Evans and Potter for the rest of your career.



Before Hermione could say anything, a quip or a comment, Belby had turned around and wrapped his arms around her, a small thank you whispered in her ear before she was let go of and Lily was brought into a quick hug next.

She had hardly done anything, but she couldn’t help but bask in their success, and to think she had just gone for this on a whim, and expected to have to force Belby into giving them his recipe when it was all done – but now it was done, and sat bubbling in it’s cauldron – a way to help Remus.

Hopefully into taking away that future of more grey hairs instead of sandy brown, and a face too marred with scars. Hopefully by the time he reached thirty he wouldn’t look well into his forties. Because she wasn’t going to let Remus go before he was old and had lived a life worth living.

“I can’t believe it.” Belby laughed out, slamming his book back onto his desk. “We did it – I mean we still have to test it – but we did it.”

“You did it, Belby.” Hermione spoke as Lily nodded her head in agreement and clapped her hands together.

“I might have got there in the end, but you both helped me more than you think.” He admitted with red cheeks as he rubbed the back of his neck and looked at his potion. “I designed this with the idea that it for everyday the week leading up to the full moon, one portion of this needs to be drunk, miss a day and I’m not sure it will work.” Belby explained, staring at Hermione who nodded her head.

“Doesn’t look that appealing though – maybe it will have to be mixed with something.” Lily commented as she looked down at the potion with a grimace.

“No, we don’t want to risk it, it’s probably better if we -” Hermione cut herself off as the door slammed open and Remus stormed in, hand wrapped around Mandy’s wrist as he brought her along.

She had been expecting it, and honestly she was sure it would happen sooner, but she couldn’t help the way her eyes narrowed as she zoomed in on his grip. He probably didn’t even realise how tightly he was holding onto the poor girl, but that didn’t make it alright.

Lily let out a sigh beside her and Belby frowned as he looked between the friends.

“Remus, let go of the poor girl before you rip her arm off.” Hermione spoke dryly, watching as Remus’ eyes flickered between the three of them in confusion before back to Mandy, his hand releasing quickly and his eyes going wide. “I take it your talk didn’t go well.”

Mandy scoffed, rubbing her wrist and glaring at the boy before shaking her head. “You can say that, he fainted.” She commented, turning to look at all of them nervously.

“Belby -”

“Say no more – seems like more of personal problem, I’ll owl Lily closer to the time.” The Slytherin spoke with a wary smile, he looked at his potion one last before turning to Lily. “Would you mind packing all this up?” There was hesitation there and Hermione could understand, finally completing your potion and then being kicked out wasn’t exactly a good experience.

“Sure.” Lily answered back as she moved to his desk, he gave them one last wave, closing the door softly behind him and leaving the four of them in the room.

It was quiet, the only sound being made was Lily cleaning and the slightly harsh breathing from Remus as Hermione waited, and Mandy tensed her jaw. “So -”

“I need you to make a potion.” Remus spoke at once as Hermione raised her eyebrows and Lily looked over her shoulder from where she was placing the potion, somewhere safe and away from prying eyes. “Or something to figure this out.”

Hermione blinked and frowned, there was no way Remus was talking about what she thought he was talking about. He was many things but he wouldn’t go for that option without thinking it through and making sure Mandy wanted the same thing.

Light green eyes flicked to Lily, almost begging her as he took a step forward but the redhead shook her head and waved her wand at the mess on the desk. “I don’t know what you think I can do but I am not doing that.”

Remus frowned and then his mouth opened as something seemed to dawn on him. “No – I didn’t mean that – but I need you to make something that can find out whether she is or isn’t pregnant.” He explained as Hermione let her shoulders sag in relief but Remus let out a snarl, foot tapping against the floor. “Lily! Come on!”

“Why are you shouting at me?” The redhead asked, eyes like green flames and teeth bared as Remus’ jaw clenched. “I’m not a healer, I have no idea how to make anything of the sort but heres an idea – why not go to Madam Pomfrey?” She asked raising her hands as Mandy opened her mouth to speak but Remus was quicker.

“Because of Dumbledore, you know what he will say if he finds out.” Remus hissed out as Hermione rolled her eyes and took a step forward between the two because Lily hexed him into next week. “So just go look through a book and figure it out.”

“It’s not our job to figure out Remus, and you know this.” Hermione snapped, this wasn’t her friend before her. This was someone riddled with panic and fear, lashing out because he was scared of what might happen. “And who the fuck cares if Dumbledore finds – this isn’t about you, this about Mandy – so stop shouting and calm down.” She added, even though she knew she would be next under his fire.

Hermione didn’t care, as long as it wasn’t Lily and her boiling temper or the poor girl watching in the corner like this was a tennis match, clearly uncomfortable and scared – and none of them were helping her.

“Her-”

“What do you want to do?” Hermione turned to look at Mandy, the girls mouth dropping open as she stared back in shock. Clearly not a lot of people asked what she wanted, but there was a first for everything so why not when there might be a baby growing in her belly.

“I just told you!” Remus all but shouted in her face, and for a second she swore his eyes turned gold – a hint of the wolf lingering under the skin.

It would be a long shot, but she kind of wanted to ask him if he could sense a baby there with all his extra senses, if enough time had passed for those hormones and everything else had taken place, but she knew it would only make it worse, knew it would only out him to Mandy and fray the edges of the thinning rope they were all carefully walking.

Instead she levelled him with a look, one that was cold and had had enough. “I wasn’t asking you, I was asking the girl who might be pregnant and is doing a good job at keeping it together while you are acting like a fool.” She hissed the last words to him as he frowned down at her. “Mandy, the choice is yours.”

“I – I – I think I want to go to Madam Pomfrey, not that I don’t trust you guys but...it seems she might be more familiar with what she’s doing.” Mandy muttered, avoiding Remus’ eye that turned to glare at her, but at least he kept his mouth shut.

“Of course, we can go there now – that is if you want Lily and I to come with you.” Hermione spoke gently as she moved forward.

Mandy’s eyes drifted to Remus once more, gulping slightly in a way that made Hermione feel slightly furious, he hadn’t handled this well and she would be having words about this with him later. “Yeah, that would be nice, though you might get into trouble for being out past curfew.” She mumbled.

Hermione couldn’t help but smile, what an innocent thing to say and worry about when she might have more pressing matters to deal with. “Don’t worry about it.”

 

 

 

 

Hermione had no idea how long it took a Matron or Healer to find out if someone was pregnant, whether it was a quick spell or potion, not that really mattered. She would sit here and wait until Mandy told them.

And she would use the time they had, standing outside the hospital wing to scold Remus for being such a dick to the poor girl inside.

“You know I think this is a classic example of ‘not using your wand unless you understand protection’.” Hermione spoke with a small smile, raising a single eyebrow as Remus looked her with a glare.

“In the Muggle world I think the kids say ‘Wrap it before you tap it’.” Lily added with a smirk as Hermione bit back a laugh as Remus’ face turned slightly purple, his eyes seeming greener and his mood shifting to a deep anger.

“Eloquent.”

“What is wrong with you two?” He spat out, glaring between them. “This isn’t a joke.”

“No it’s not...it’s very serious.” Hermione relented, stern faced and arms crossed. She could face off against Remus normally, during less serious arguments, but this wasn’t something that would blow over in the next few hours and they could forget about.

“Seems a bit unfair, Sirius knows how to wrap it clearly.” Lily spoke under her breath as Hermione sent a quick look her way.

“It’s more a charm but...yes he does – and I imagine he taught you the charm too but if you don’t know how to do it then I suggest looking into those Muggle things.” Hermione spat back at Remus, his whole face turning redder than Lily’s hair.

“I don’t need this right now.”

“Oh should we wait until later?” Hermione asked sarcastically before guilt settled in her stomach and something itched inside her head. “You made a mistake, Remus, deal with it.”

“I’ll deal with it when I know the results.” Remus hit back, taking a step towards her before he seemed to think better of it and stepped back. Hermione didn’t flinch either way, despite his annoyance and anger, he would never hurt her.

“And what’s going to happen then? Are you going to drag around that poor girl again? Shut yourself away from us all? You’re hardly the first person who has had a pregnancy scare, or the first person who had a child at the age of seventeen.” Hermione added, staring as his eyes seemed to turn gold in the dim light.

“No but I might be the first Werewolf to risk passing on what I am – I mean how could I even live with that – how could she.” Guilt ticked at her again as he ran his hands through his hair and a tinge of desperation was heard in his voice.

He need tough love, he always did, otherwise he would beat himself up and hide away, but this wasn’t easy for him and she knew that – so instead she settled on speaking softer, more sympathetic. “You haven’t passed anything on.”

“You don’t know that.”

“I do – because, you idiot, if your little swimmers were enough to pass on your issue then so would your saliva and blood, and then half of the school would be infected.” Hermione spoke, slightly harsh as Lily looked at her in confusion and Remus blinked.

“I haven’t slept with half of the school.” Of course he hadn’t, they could probably count on one hand the amount of people he had slept with.

“No, but we share drinks, and even though it might upset me, Sirius has slept with a few people, who have probably slept with more – none of us have turned and I have actually kissed you, granted it was a peck but I’m still here aren’t I, no furry problems.” She spoke, wincing slightly as Remus’ cheeks turned pink and Lily raised an eyebrow.

She wasn’t about to go into what had happened on the train all those years ago, when it felt like she had all but been goaded into letting loose, and Remus had been there.

“This is different, something carrying my DNA might -”

“Be nothing more than a Wizard or Witch, there is another half to you and a whole mother without your problem.” Hermione tried again, she could give him a list but he would never see it clearly because he was too caught up in his own panic.

“Hermione -”

“I get it, you’re scared, who wouldn’t be in any normal situation but so is Mandy, and she deserved a lot more respect and grace than you showed her.” She hissed out with a narrowed glare, reaching up to rub the suddenly aching scar on her head. Her eyes seemed slightly blurred, but it was a simple tiredness, nothing else.

“Hermione’s right, and whatever happens you need to be there for her.” Lily spoke, sounding slightly far away, as Hermione bit back a groan and leaned further onto the wall.

“Because it’s that easy – she shouldn’t have to do this or even live with this -”

There was almost an image in her mind, blurry and distant, what looked like two people and a shocking colour of pink that seemed so familiar and made her chest ache and her head want to push harder. She was just tired, this was nothing more.

“You’re getting bent out of shape over something we don’t even know is true yet.” Lily scoffed out as Hermione tried to focus on the real people before her.

“It doesn’t matter because I’m not doing this – I won’t let anyone go through this.” Remus snapped back, cutting his hand through the air, as Hermione rolled her eyes and pushed herself to stand up straighter, even as it brought a new wave of dizziness and an ache in her head.

“Tough shit!” “You are going through this and you are going to run away like...a coward...”

I’d never have believed this - The man who taught me to fight dementors —a coward.” Someone had said this before to Remus, someone she knew well perhaps in another life, but she hoped then it hadn’t made her as sick to remember.

“Hermione?” Someone called, she couldn’t quite know who because her ears seemed to be ringing and there was something forming before her eyes as she stumbled slightly, a warm hand catching her.

“I’m fine.”

“You’re not fine – what’s happening?” Remus then, because Lily understood now, smaller and colder hands taking over to hold her up.

“She’s just stressed – just… we need to go get James.” Lily’s voice rang out, one hand leaving to seemingly push their friend to somewhere else. “Remus...fuck...I’m going to go get James, just stay with her please.” Lily spoke, a second later Hermione was all but moved back to Remus again and the sound of shoes slapping against the floor was heard.

“Hermione?” Remus spoke softly but Hermione could feel the darkness descending upon her.

“Shit.” And then everything went black

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