Chapter 12
That night after James had kissed him, Regulus had gone right back to his dorm, and once again continued to scream into his pillow for about ten minutes.
Regulus had been so surprised, not just surprised he had been incredibly confused actually. Of course after their little situation in the broom closet, things had sort of changed between them, but he had never in a million years expected James to kiss him. He had wanted him to of course, he had wanted it so badly. He was once again sort of angry at himself for how easily he had caved. He had melted completely, the second James touched him. The way he had held him so gently, and thought for so long before taking the chance and finally kissing him. This was one of the many reasons why Regulus liked him. No matter how much of a player he might seem to be, he was always so polite and sweet in literally every situation.
When his lips were finally on his, Regulus had felt like he might pass out. The anticipation had been so intense that once he kissed him, Regulus was already out of breath.
Unfortunately, regardless of how much Regulus enjoyed kissing him, he was over thinking. He couldn't get out of his head how James had once told him that kissing didn't really matter much to him. He had kissed Evan back just to be polite. This made Regulus feel like he had just done it as a sort of experiment to himself, or simply just to get a reaction out of him. He felt so deeply that it couldn't possibly have mattered as much to James as it did to Regulus.
“Reg, please. I promise I'm not just making it up in my head. He looked at me from across the room and smiled, he bloody smiled. Merlin he really does fancy me” Evan was once again rambling on about his idiotic plan, which Regulus was surprised was still going “Sure” Regulus said, smiling to himself. Even though he had so many doubts about him, he knew that James had wanted to kiss him, so he felt very happy at that moment. Knowing that Evan had no idea, made the whole thing so much more fun. Of course Regulus wasn't just doing it out of spite, he knew that Evan didn't actually have any feelings for James “His eyes, that's it. Of course the rest of him is bloody perfect as well but merlin his eyes” Evan had laid back dramatically against the couch where Barty was sitting “I'm out, this is getting ridiculous” Barty got up, this time not even bothering to hide how upset it made him “What why?” Evan traced after him, clueless as always.
Regulus sat on the edge of his bed, debating whether or not to go to the astronomy tower. He had been overthinking once again, and had come to the conclusion that James just thought he was easy. This could be the only possible explanation for kissing him. He wasn't just going to let him take advantage of him, but god it was hard not to go. He wanted so badly to once again just cave in, and let James do basically anything he wanted. He got up, feeling defeated and started walking to the astronomy tower.
And of course, there he was, a huge smile plastered on his face as he watched Regulus walk in. He hated Evan for talking so much, because now all he could think about was how right he had been about James's eyes. They were mesmerising, so beautifully brown, it made Regulus dizzy, as he sat beside him “For a second I thought you weren't coming” He smiled “So did I” Regulus mumbled “What?” he asked “Nothing”
“I wanted to talk to you about something, so I'm really glad you came actually” James turned slightly to face him more “About what?” Regulus sighed “Well, I just wanted to make sure that we were okay after the other night. I was thinking that I might have come on a bit too strong and you felt obligated to kiss me back somehow. If that is the case then I am incredibly sorry, and we can just forget about it if you'd like” Regulus stared at him, shocked at what had just come out of his mouth “No. That is not the case James” he simply said, not wanting to give him anymore than that. He sighed relieved “Good, because to be honest I really don't wish to forget about it. I haven't stopped thinking about it actually” he confessed, shocking Regulus once more “Me neither” Regulus said, then opened his book, and simply just started to read.
Regulus was drunk, he felt his entire body sort of buzzing. He was currently sitting at a couch in the Slytherin common room, watching his friends dance, as loud music filled his ears. Of course he was looking at one person in particular. James was clearly drunk as well, dancing with his brother. Even after their talk about the kiss, Regulus still wasn't sure about any of it. He still felt like James was the type of person to just kiss someone and then completely forget like it didn't matter to him. Though he had told Regulus it wasn't the case this time, he just couldn't find it in himself to believe him.
He was drunk, which meant thinking before acting, wasn't really something he was able to do at the moment. He got up, grabbed James, took his hand and led him down to the cave where they had been just a few weeks before “Everything alright?” James chuckled, leaning against the railing “No, it's not actually” Regulus confessed, making his face fall “What's wrong?” James was of course immediately concerned “The last time you and I stood here. You told me that snogging did not equal fun. You seemed sort of careless about who you kiss, and even admitted that you didn't actually wanna kiss Evan but did it anyway to be polite. So it's natural that I feel a bit like our kiss might be the same to you” Regulus explained, making James look confused “It's quite the opposite actually” James smiled “It is?” Regulus asked “Yes. I had wanted to kiss you for a week, but held back, scared that it might ruin something. Or just because I wasn't sure what it would mean. But I kissed you because I care so deeply about you Regulus, more than anyone else to be honest. It wasn't just a kiss to me, it meant a lot more than that, and I really hope it did to you too” James confessed, leaving Regulus once again sort of baffled. James Potter had just confessed that cared deeply about him. How the actual fuck was he supposed to feel about that? “I am glad to hear that, and I did mean more to me as well” he confessed, looking up at James. James chuckled, taking a step closer, pulling Regulus in by his waist. He lifted his chin lightly, and Regulus stood on his tiptoes, seeing as James was a couple inches taller “Good, do you mind if I do it again?” he asked, smiling like an idiot “Not at all” Regulus sighed comfortably, and James finally put his lips on his again, making him feel as if he was on a cloud.
James was happy. He had finally figured out all of his confusing feelings about Regulus, and now knew that he in fact fancied him. A lot actually. He knew that Regulus was going to come to him with a lot more doubts than he already had, but he would happily make him forget every single one if he had to “You alright Potter?” Dorcas asked him, sitting beside him on the couch “I'm more than alright actually” He chuckled. He was staring directly at where Barty and Regulus were sitting and talking. Not taking his eyes off of him for even a second “And why is that?” she chuckled, making him sigh “He is bloody perfect that's why. I mean how can a person be allowed to walk around, looking as gorgeous as him?” he had turned to look at her “Oh you have fallen hard Potter. But it's nice to see you finally figured it out” she smiled “Finally?” he asked her “Potter I noticed the way you looked at him weeks ago, it's not really news to me” she laughed “Oh” James sat up, looking back at Regulus “Relax, I won't tell anyone, but you're terrible at hiding it my friend”