they’re so pretty it hurts [DISCONTINUED]

Lily Evans woke up at six in the morning, every day since she was seven. It was programmed into her body, she physically couldn’t sleep in even if she wanted to. She sighed and stared at the wooden boards above her. 

What if she wasn’t here right now? What if none of this was real? What if it was a dream?

But it couldn’t be a dream or a twisted version of reality Lily had created because Lily never would have chosen this life for herself. She’d gotten this far living like this though, so she couldn’t change now. 

Lily sat up in bed and yawned, stretching her arms above her head. She slipped her feet into the fuzzy pink slippers beside her bed and pulled an emerald green jumper over her head. She shuffled towards the bathroom, rubbing sleep from her eyes as she went. She had a quick, warm shower, steam curling around her and clouding the mirror. 

There was hair in the sink again which means Marlene had another midnight identity change. With a quick way of her wand, the hair disappeared and the scissors were back in their place. Lily wiped away the fog and looked into the mirror. Her hair was a mess of curls that looked more like a birds nest and her jumper was hanging off one shoulder, water dripping down her neck and onto her collarbones. 

Lily groaned after reaching for her hairbrush. A total of fifteen minutes and twenty seven seconds later, her hair had been tamed. She reached for her toothbrush and pushed a drop of toothpaste onto the bristles. Two minutes later, her teeth were brushed and mascara was in her hand. 

Lily had a small internal debate on wether or not she should wear foundation and decided against it. This year she would make herself known. Not Lily Evans, Head Girl, Prefect, Gryffindor Golden Girl but Lils. And the first step to revealing Lils will be to not hide her features and be confident and comfortable in her own body. Without foundation, her freckles and acne scars would be on show, the small red scar on her lip would also be a little more prominent. 

She grabbed her wand and walked back into the dorm. The Gryffindor Girls uniform was laid out on the chair next to her bed. A skirt, a white shirt, a Gryffindor tie and knee high socks, her favourite Mary Jane’s propped up against the chair leg. 

Lily quickly got dressed and put her hair up in a bun, sticking her wand through it to hold it up and went to wake the other girls.

She went to Mary first. The two always let Marlene have a bit of a lie in because they know she barely got any sleep as it is. Lily shook Mary awake slowly. All Mary  did was roll around, groan and mumble about wanting five more minutes. Lily rolled her eyes and grabbed two ends of the blanket currently covering Mary. Two rugs and it was off. But there was another blanket underneath. Mary smirked slightly. 

Rolling her eyes again, Lily pulled the other one off. Mary groaned and pulled the pillow over her head. The sunlight danced across the sleepy girls features, illuminating her in gold. It fit her, Lily thought to herself. If there was one colour to describe Mary, it would be gold. Or yellow. 

“Mary, we’re going to miss breakfast if you don’t wake up.”

Mary shot up after that, running to the bathroom and tripping over stray clothes and books on the floor. She was out and refreshed in under twenty minutes, running to find her uniform and put it on. Lily went to Marlene’s bed and tried to wake her up. 

“Marlene. Marlene, seren, it’s time to wake up. Come on, seren , we’re going to miss breakfast!”

Marlene slowly lifted her head, have Lily a lazy smile and pulled her down into a hug. Somehow, Marlene had climbed practically on top of Lily, with her head on her chest. 

“I love you so much, you know that, right?” Marlene mumbled. 

Lily smiled softly, “I know, seren. I love you, too.”

Mary soon joined them. “I love you idiots as well.”

This is what Lily was grateful for, these little moments, these pockets of joy.