Narcissa left the room, her voice hoarse from screaming, her eyes dry of tears, her pale face red from crying and her hair that was usually kept so well was messy and all over her face.
Narcissa ran all the way to her room where she left her wand, she didn't know exactly what she was going to do when she would get to it but she still ran so fast not noticing the steps of a man running behind her.
"cissy stop! Just wait one second!" He caught up to her. Red face and an expression on his face that seemed like a mixture of shock and anger.
"What the bloody hell has gotten into you? How dare you yell like that in the presence of our-" he saw her eyes and stopped his speech suddenly the anger on his face was replaced with worry, "did you know that woman? Her husband?”
narcissa felt her tears starting to flow again
“Who was she for you cissy? Bella said she was a half- blood married to a blood traitor…what does some blood traitor and his wife have to do with you?" Narcissa didn't bother answering what felt like a million questions and just grabbed her wand when she finally realized what she truly intended to do with it.
Shetried to take a deep breath but her voice crouched as she said gently "I am not doing this anymore Lucius" and aimed her wand to her heart.
"No! Narcissa, are you crazy? What the fuck is wrong with you?" she doesnt think she has ever heard this kind of worry in his voice before…maybe he actually did care about her…what a pity.
"I lost everyone that ever mattered to me, Lucius!" She blurred out, her voice trembling and shaking.
“What was that?” he asked.
"first Meda left, she abandoned me in that house with a father that never wanted me and a sister that cared more about the great cause then about her family. then Reg went and fuckin disappeared into thin air, i wouldnt be surprised if walburga fucking killed him in that house, he was a good person you know? But obviously good people dont make it in this fucked up idea of a family tree and now…”she took a deep breath
“now I lost alice”
Narcissa started laughing “i lost the one person who saw me and loved me and knew me better then anyone but still stayed…”it was obvious that her thoughts were starting to drift, “i got more time with her than i had ever imagined but not enough, never enough evenn though in the end it was me who broke her heart and left…it wasn't even bella’s fault… if i stayed i could have protected her but it still doesn't matter” she was coming back to her senses.
“it was Bellatrix!” this time she shouted as if she was trying to convince herself “The fuckin psycho whore torchured the love of my life, the most loving and gentle and beautiful being that ever walked this earth until she lost her mind! I'm alone, Lucius!"
No worry was visible in his expression anymore just the first shock on his face from hearing his quiet and obedient wife speaking this way but it quickly turned to Something darkening in Lucius' gaze "I'm here cissy, do I not matter? Who am I to you?"
The room went silent,
Narcissa still holding her wand aimed to her heart.
Tears were still running out of her blue eyes that now seemed like the eyes of a corpse, dead inside.
"You were the man I was forced to marry, you were the reason I had to make her leave me and marry him. You were the man who suited my family's standards best, you Lucius Malfoy were never even close to being as close to me as her. you were never the person I wanted to wake up next to every morning,your eyes were the pair i was cursed to fine looking for hers, you were never the person that I wanted to lay next to every night, you never brought light to my eyes and warmth to my body, you never loved or was loved by me like she was."
Lucius still seemed surprised but he also seemed on the verge of tears "alright then, what about the baby? You might not want to be but you are the mother of my child Narcissa Malfoy " his words felt like venom running through her veins as he emphasized the last name that felt so wrong, her wand dropped on the floor. “What about draco? Would you abandon him like Meda and Reg abandoned you?” he said it with a mocking tone but there was sorrow in his eyes.
Lucius was a noble man, he would not cry in front of people,he knew she would not dare to hurt herself after his words left his mouth and so he would not show weakness, he left the room.
Narcissa was left alone in the room,
She fell to the floor,
She will not leave her baby in this world alone, not with a father with eyes as cold as ice and no emotional capacity whatsoever, she is cold hearted, now more than ever but not completely heartless yet.
Closing her eyes narcissa said “I'm so sorry my lovely but you will have to wait for me a little longer;