a stone with his name written on it
"I'm ready" Sirius announce when he dressed up.
Remus looked at him realising that he's not wearing any makeup as usual, it is obvious on him that it makes him feel even more sad and uncomfortable.
"Come here Pads " He calls him from their room and Sirius follows the voice.
"yeah ?" he stares at Remus looking through Sirius's makeup box.
" Oh did you finally discovered the magic of make up ? I'm glad but we're already kind of late" Sirius chuckled and Remus rolled his eyes upon the wall. Sirius was better now. Well not really but he seems happier since his way of coping with all of this was being sarcastic and acting like nothing is wrong.
"No dumbass I'm gonna do your makeup " Remus gestured for him to sit on the bed next to him.
"What?" Sirius looked at him confused a little.
"Sit down let me show you my amazing skills"
"Since when you do makeup ? " Sirius asked amused by all of this.
"Since yesterday, Lily stopped by, she taught me " Remus sounded so proud of himself .
"I am not trying to say that you don't look absolutely stunning even without it but I know that you feel good and confident in it and if you find it hard to do it yourself I thought I could do it for you, I mean I'm not much experienced in this kind of thing but Lily actually gone in public with it so I guess it wasn't that bad"
"oh- Okay, go on " Sirius sat next to Remus who was already opening the concealer.
Remus took Sirius' face in his palm, and with his other hand worked the concealer under his eyes.
He didn't know much so he took the powder and then eyeliner.
He was really concentrated when he drew Sirius's eyeliner he was very careful, he didn't want to poke his eye and he also wanted it to come out as well as possible, he really tried and did it as carefully as possible.
Sirius wanted to cry again, it was embarrassing really but he couldn't help it.
This time it was different, these were happy tears and it was just the few of them so no damage to the makeup was done.
"Are you alright ?" Remus asks and wipe off Sirius's tears and Sirius just nods and smiles a little bit.
"It's done" Remus smiled as he let go off Sirius's face.
"Okay let me see "
"Are you sure ? I think I did pretty good job. You won't look like freak don't worry" Remus smiled and Sirius nodded, he could just look right ? It's different when he had to do the eyeliner himself and stare into his eyes for good few minutes.
Remus hand him the mirror and he looked at himself.
It was beautiful.
It was little shaky and messy but that was how Sirius liked it after all
"Thanks it's - it's really good." Sirius whispered and they both stood up, ready to leave.
Sirius hugged Remus gently before they opened the door, and Remus just held him.
"Moony?" Sirius whispered into his ear still hugging him tightly.
"I love you" Sirius said quietly. "I love you too Pads" Remus said as he stroke his back.
"Please don't ever leave me " Sirius says desperately and Remus knows what he means. He means death.
"I won't" Remus says with a gentle voice.
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"That's so absurd" James said with eyes full of tears standing in front of Regulus's grave.
"The fact that we are standing here and crying in front of a stone with his name written on it. It's so absurd and stupid that he was alive few weeks ago and now he's just fucking gone, like at all. You know I've always thought that life is so good so shiny and shit but now I see how stupid it is. That people just die and just the thought of it makes me feel sick. It's not a fucking movie that ends and then you'll go do another thing it's like the end, there's nothing else after. That is so fucking unfair" James said and cried even more and Sirius too, Remus and Lily cried too even Peter did.
They all just stand there quietly looking at the grey stone with bunch of flowers on it, they all brought black flowers except for James, he gave him white hyacinths.
Regulus liked hyacinths or maybe he didn't but he was happy when James gave them to him then on his birthday.
It was meaningless now, he couldn't see Regulus smiling because he got hi flowers, he saw a stone and his name on it.
Regulus Arcturus Black
James never really asked him what his favourite flower was.
He regretted so many things.
He regretted that he didn't ask him what his first kiss was like or what animal he liked the most or how many tattoos would he like to have if he wanted some. All these things that James would love to know but never asked because they felt not so important before.
James just hated the feeling on his chest when he saw the grave, that was it. He was there- Regulus, that was the end.