two people who talk to each other with little benefits
"Hey Reggie ! How was the party after we left ?" Evan looked at Regulus standing zooned out between the door.
"Reg ?"
"Yeah ? Sorry I- I zooned out" Regulus said and continue to sit on his bed. He was still replaying all of it in his head.
Somehow he couldn't hold it inside his mind
"So how was -" Barty began but was very quickly interrupted.
"I kissed James" Regulus spilled out , Evan and Barty looked at him shocked. They weren't actually shocked because of the kiss but more likely becaue t was Regulus who kissed James.
"Did you really ?" Barty asked amused.
"No I mean he kissed me but still -" Now their faces kind of rested because that was actually believable.
"Didn't you say that he was scared of you ?" Evan asked confused looking at Regulus with a disbelief.
"I told him it was fine and then he kissed me "
"Oh he went right into the point" Barty giggled, but Regulus looked a bit uncertain about it.
"Is that a bad thing ?" Regulus asked as he tucked into one of his blankets.
"I mean it was definitely brave but he's a Gryffindor after all " Barty said jokingly.
"I don't know what to do " Regulus gasped.
"Go to sleep it's almost morning dumbass " Evan said and lay back to bed.
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"Hi is James here ?" Regulus asked the next morning in when he came to James's dorm.
"He's still in bed you should wake him up before the breakfast ends or don't he'll survive it " Peter said on the way out of their dorm.
"Don't do anything unholy !" Peter shouted and Regulus just rolled his eyes. Peter was probably the only one who wasn't completely blind and noticed that something was happening between him and James.
After a while James woke up, he found sleeping Regulus curled up next to him. They weren't even that close. Regulus was on the very edge of the bed, tucked in James's red blanket.
He wasn't sleeping though, he was very awake watching him .
"Where did you come from I thought you left ? Was I dreaming ? Oh my god don't tell me I was dreaming " James panicked but Regulus just laughed slightly.
"No James I came back "
"Oh you missed me " James said sarcastically but so preciously at once.
"I wanted to talk" Regulus said not so jokingly.
"I just wanna make some things clear okay ? What happened last night was- well it was very nice but I hope you know that I don't wanna date you or anything- just for you to know I am not dating person"
"You're not a dating person ? - As you don't do friends ?" James smiled.
"No James I mean it I'm sorry if you had any intensions but I don't wanna date anyone"
"Okay I don't think I wanna date you either" James said with high pidged voice.
"Don't you ?"
"No, not at all I just want to talk to you, spend time with you, -occasionally kiss you" James smirked.
"James " Regulus laughed lightly.
"Can we do that then ? Not doting - call it friends with benefits or if you still feel like you don't do friends-" James imitated him "We could call it two people who talk to each other with little benefits " James finished and Regulus burst out laughing.
"James that's terrible idea "
"I know so are we doing it ?"
"just friends will be fine " I won't Regulus thought and the fact that James even suggested thing like that made Regulus's hearth melt.
He feared that it meant nothing and that he will be the one who will want to forget it.
"Are you sure that you don't want to come to our house for summer holidays ? Like I told you my parents wouldn't mind at all, I think that they always wanted to get to know you, Sirius told them a lot about you " James asked after a while.
"You know I can't James, I can't just not come for two months" Regulus gasped, he was tired of James trying to find solution to this problem. Regulus did not want him to give him any suggestions like that. He knew it was impossible to not come, his parents would be furious about it and if they found out that he is with the Potters they would do something horrible. They have stolen them one son already.-
"Maybe you can say you want to stay here during summer for studying or whatever, how would they know you're gone ?" James suggested.
"No" Regulus replied shortly and annoyed.
"I'm sorry I- of course you don't have to go with us I just thought you would wanted but it's okay when you don't" Regulus regretted his previous reaction, he was also glad that James stopped with naming every possible way how to make the perfect plan for running away.
"James it's not about that I just can't leave not for two fucking months and not forever, Sirius left now I have to stay. You just have to -have to understand that it would have terrible consequences" Regulus explained gently.
"Okay I'm sorry- I just - you could leave too Regulus you don't have to suffer in there"
"I'm not suffering it's-it's not beautiful place to live in but they won't do anything to me as long as I'm behaving according to their ideas. I can't leave, they won't let me because they have noone else to be the heir. Sirius may threw the responsibility he carried at me but I can't threw it at anyone so please stop persuading me to go with you because this is not my choice okay?"
"But you could maybe-" James started and didn't even finish and Regulus started getting up annoyed and James grabbed him by his arm gently so Regulus can get out anytime he wants.
"No James just stop ! I-I can't talk about this shit anymore. You don't even know how much I'd wanted to leave but I won't. I won't risk all the shit that could happened" Regulus shouted a little louder than he should, his eyes are full of tears now but he just turns away and wiped the tears away. "okay, okay I'm sorry I won't say another word" James said with apologetic look on his face.
Regulus sat back down not crying anymore. Him and Sirius never really cried since Walburga used to curse them every single time they cried as children.
Sometimes Regulus wants to cry and he can't hide the unbearable urge to let the tears out but he usually holds it.
This time he didn't, maybe it was because it was too emotional for him, maybe because he felt like that for too long.
"I'm sorry - I didn't meant to let the tears out" Regulus whispered and hide his face in his palms sitting on the edge of the bed.
"It's fine, It's okay, there's nothing wrong with that" James says gently, he knew what that was about, Sirius does that to.
James saw Sirius cry just twice. When the prank happened Sirius happened to be crying after the first conversation with Moony after that night and when Sirius appeared in front of his house beaten up, bleeding from tens of different wounds and cuts.
"I haven't cried in fucking six months now, what the fuck is wrong with me " Regulus struggled to catch his breath as his tears were running down his cheeks again.
"Hey you're fine. Crying is fine, it doesn't make you weak ,it makes you human Reg" James whispered.
"It quite literally makes me weak and pathetic James"
"It doesn't though, we all cry , I cry a lot actually guess I'm pretty weak person then"
"Yeah you probably are " Regulus whispered softly.
They were both silent for a little while.
"I should go " Regulus whispered determined that James will beg him to stay .
"Okay" James said instead.
"You won't beg me to stay ? Regulus asked and smiled desperately.
"Only if you want me to "
Regulus didn't say anything he just nodded.
"Will you stay then ? Please ?" James asks.
"Yeah"
"I'm sorry that was weird" Regulus laughed a little embarrassed.
"Just a little " James agrees.
"Do you wanna talk about it ? About anything ?" James asks
"Do I ever ?"
"no"
"So no " Regulus smiled and got under the blanket .
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