Just kissing
James and Regulus were not friends, their actions proved otherwise . They spends so much time together, just talking and walking around the castle. James was the one chasing Regulus, it was never Regulus who started the conversation. It was always James, he didn't really mind.
Sirius was jealous a little bit, of both of them. He was jealous of James for having this kind of relationship with his brother, and he was jealous of Regulus too because lately all James did was talking to Regulus and laughing with regulus and spending time with Regulus and when he wasn't with him he was talking about him.
Remus actually found it hilarious, he could sense the tension between the two of them but James denies it all the time so does Sirius, it is absolutely
unacceptable for Sirius to think that James would ever was in some kind of situationship with his little brother.
They have been talking like that for like two months now and they both got pretty used to it so it wasn't just James chasing Regulus now.
At some point Regulus started doing the little things back. He joined James when he saw him in the library or went to say hi whenever he noticed James walking by. And since James was eating breakfast's at the slytherin's table because Sirius and Remus are always having breakfast so late and Regulus happened to be an early person as James and No one from the Slytherins had a problem with James's company, they actually appreciated it since James is the funniest person existing, Regulus sat with James on some dinners. Usually when Sirius wasn't around, but he couldn't just avoid him forever.
It made James so happy when Regulus joined him for the first time, he was sitting there alone without Sirius or Remus or Peter so Regulus was keeping him company. And he had been doing it automatically since then.
They never talked about the being friends thing again so they were probably just people who talk to each other, spend time together , laugh together , eat together and study together. Not friends though.
Barty and Evan seemed to like James, they talked few times.
They actually are Regulus's friends, he might not call them friends but they are. They truly don't talk much but they care for each other.
James liked them too, especially because they adore him so much so they became friends too.
"Have you guys saw Regulus ?" James asked and Barty nodded. " He left a minute ago he headed to his room" Barty said.
"oh I'll just go find him " James said and Evan giggled a little and James noticed him.
"What ?" he asked and Evan and Barty looked at each other. " nothing, nothing You guys are cute " Barty acknowledged and James just smiled.
"You too guys " James said nicely and teasingly and left them.
"Oh we're cute " Barty smiled .
Barty and Evan were always a bit tensed. They were fixed on each other since the very beginning of Hogwarts. It was always the two of them. There was something going on between Evan and Barty. Something new. They kissed, and then they kept kissing everywhere they went. No one else knew. Well regulus probably did, they shared a bed most of the nights. It was never more than the kisses.
Until one night when Barty tried to do more, Evan stopped him but Barty didn't probably think much of it.
Evan was asexual though. He figured it like a year ago. He knew before but, he thought that it will pass somehow. The feeling of not wanting anything more.
Regulus knew that Evan was asexual, even though Regulus was not much of an sharing person, Evan told him one night when he got really drunk and kissed Barty for the first time. They never talked about it after but Regulus assured him it was okay, that was the first time when he told someone and it opened his eyes a little bit more. He didn't felt weird about it anymore, he learn something new about himself and accepted it. And now it's the time for the others to understand.
Regulus was their friend. They haven't really talked much but they have so much memories together.
Paradoxically Regulus was even more quiet when he was drunk. Regulus would have to be really, like really drunk to start dancing and singing on the table. If it is even possible to get him to this position.
With James he looks happier and with more of life inside of him. It looks like James was some kind of the other half of him, the happy side of him and the talkative side of him .
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James went to the dorms and went to Regulus's room, he knocked. " come in James it's unlocked " Regulus said behind the door.
"How did you know it was me ?" James asked curiously as he sat on the bed next to Regulus.
" I know how everyone's knocks sounds like " he said simply.
" You thought I was Barty when I first came here to see if you were fine " James said
"yeah you woke me up I was half asleep " Regulus laughed a bit
"right." James said
"What's wrong ?" Regulus asked when he saw the look on James's face.
" What ?"
" You look sad " Regulus looked at him, as much as he hates eye contact with James it seems to be easy. He could look into his eyes forever. Sometimes it is still a little bit tensed so he has to stop looking at him.
"I'm just tired " James said and Regulus kept looking at him. It was so easy with James. Everything was so easy with James.
"Take a rest, I won't bother you " Regulus said and stood up from the bed.
"no, no, no come back " James murmured sleepily and Regulus did.
He sad oh the other half of the bed and James closed his eyes.
"Can you read me something in French ?" James asked and Regulus seemed surprised a little, he didn't know that James really liked it. They haven't talked about it since the night.
"yeah" he said and took one of his books on the shelf and started reading.
James loved listening to him but he was so tired that he fall asleep not even after two minutes, Regulus watched him sleeping for a while.
He adored him so much, his positivity, his smile, his ability to communicate and his big heart he shared with everyone.
Regulus knew that he and James were something more than friends, in fact they weren't exactly friends.
They never agreed to be friends, Regulus didn't know if he can call James his friend when he told him few months ago that he doesn't do friends, now it would be a bit embarrassing wouldn't it ?
It was quite funny because in Regulus's mind he saw James as someone really close to him but he couldn't name what was the relationship between the two of them. He knew that he saw something more in him. All these things he adores on him, would he adore him like that as a friend ? He wouldn't probably. Well there is obviously no possibility in something more than friendship because James is not into blokes. At least he never mentioned otherwise.
But Regulus knew how much James likes him. He has never had this kind of person in his life.
The kind of person who smiles every time they sees you, who makes sure that you're alright on your bad days and the good days make even better.
The kind of person you can talk to about everything. Sirius was the closest to this person but people come and go and he left but after all James will leave too eventually.
Regulus told James practically everything about his family. About all of the shit that has happened in that house and James listened to every second of it even though he knew almost everything from Sirius.
Regulus cried a lot lately, which was weird since he was happier.
He cried over every break he had to go home. He tried not to show it in front of James, he knew that James would just try to give him solution. But that was not what Regulus wanted, solution. What a stupid thing. The solution would be some stupid dangerous idea like Regulus running away and staying with the Potters. It feels like a dream but the reality would have been a nightmare. What would his parents do if they found out it was James's work, and that the Potters basically steal both of their sons.
Regulus happened to be also really tired. He lay down next to James slowly so he wouldn't wake him up.
Something inside him was telling him to Snuggle into James' arms and fall asleep. But how would that look to James, not as good as it sounds huh.
He still wanted to steal at least a piece of James, a piece of his attention, a piece of his body and his love.
He lay right next to him, so close that he could hear his heartbeat. And then he fall asleep.
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"Do you think that we can go to our room or they are doing something with a need of privacy ?" Barty asked laughing.
"Well I would rather not go in there, we can stay here" Evan suggested staying in the common room, they didn't mind that Snape or Mulciber with Avery could pass by. Regulus was the only one who hated them. The others more likely didn't care.
They sat there for a while, Evan was reading and Barty was watching him curiously.
"What ?" Evan noticed Barty's staring and Barty smiled.
"You look nice " he whispered and Evan smiled at him.
"I know " He said sarcastically, Barty loved Evan's messed up personality, he was funny but also pretty boring not bad boring just annoyed with everything sometimes. Barty loved that par too.
They stared at each other for a little longer and then Barty came closer, he kissed him and it was hell good but then the door from one of the rooms went open and Evan jumped out of the sofa.
It was just Pandora but he kept on acting like nothing happened.
She just went by and left again.
" What was it ?" Barty asked
"nothing what ?"
"Oh you don't want to kiss me in front of anyone right , you're embarrassed" Barty said sadly but he was kinda annoyed and mad.
"No, I just don't want any rumours to be going around here" Evan explained but it didn't seem to satisfy Barty.
"Well what's bad about rumours when they are true ?"
"Everyone would assume that we are dating "
"That's bad ?" Barty sounded so offended for no reason and it made Evan so mad.
"Well It's not truth"
"Well I want to kiss you and you want to kiss me , we like each other that sounds like dating to me" Barty didn't even know why did he said that. It was truth , that was how he felt about it but he didn't really thought about how would it sound when he said it out loud. He never thinks before talking.
"I don't feel what you do Barty - I just don't - I can't " Evan whispered and Barty stepped back a little.
"So why did you kissed me then ? Don't kiss anyone when you don't want to be kissed gosh" Barty gasped, he wasn't angry, he was sad and annoyed with the fact that they have kissed but it was nothing.
"I liked kissing you Barty - I wouldn't kiss you if I didn't " Evan said.
"So what's the problem ? I don't get it then, why can't we just be us ? Why can't we just be boyfriends ?" Barty looked almost desperately into Evan's eyes, they were too gorgeous to look elsewhere.
"It's not that easy Barry" The words slipped through his mouth almost accidentally but not entirely accident.
"Did you just called me Barry ?" Barty smiled teasingly and Evan hid his face in his palms smiling too.
"No I did not, you overheard something" Evan answered giggling.
"Oh I definitely heard it right " They both laughed, it was so incredible how they could turn so intense moment into funny one. That's so magical about their friendship, no matter what happens they can always just stop the conversation and leave it for other time. They have the whole life to deal with it so why wouldn't they leave it for tomorrow.
Barty knew that Evan said the name Barry on purpose, he knew Barty would stop with it so the unbearable conversation about their situation will stop.
Barty never intended to make Evan feel bad about anything of it so he just let it slide for now.
"Can we talk tomorrow about all of this ?" Barty asked after a while being serious again.
" yes" Evan said , he was too afraid of Barty's reaction to all of this shit he's dealing with but he was so glad for this pause so he could rethink about it again.
"Can I like do things like - ?"
"you can kiss me Barty " Evan said smiling, he really liked kissing Barty it was something intimate they shared. It was just theirs and it was pure and precious.
" No I meant like - a hug maybe ? Could I - could I hug you ?" the question felt unreal because suddenly it is not supposed to be a request right ? This should be automatic, hugging, kissing , having sex ,touching , just all of it. People usually just take what they want and don't care about others thoughts about it.
"It is okay if I can't you know - you can say no - that's kinda the purpose of the question." Barty smiled softly and Evan came closer and hugged him. Barty hold his head in one of his hands and the other was on Evan's back. The last thing he wanted to do was to make Evan uncomfortable so he came nowhere close to his waist, he didn't know if Evan would be okay with it or not, it didn't matter because holding him in his arms was enough.