Chapter 7
„But like…he literally said, and I quote: I don’t want you to date anyone“
„Albus was drunk, he properly haven’t realised what he said“
„But even so, so one says something like that without a reason“ Scorpius head hurt for days—he doesn’t know what Albus meant by that.
That night, he had a weird feeling about his best friend—he seemed mad. He felt a connection—like Albus just told him he likes him back. Which is stupid because Scorpius knows his best friend is straight.
„Don’t break your head because of it, Alright“ Eudora sad quietly as they walked done the hall to their next classroom. „You‘ll get hurt if you keep thinking like this“
„I‘m already getting hurt. I fall for a straight boy“
„I fell for a gay one. Ironic, innit?“
As they entered the classroom, Albus was no where around—again. He’s been laying in bed since Halloween. „Is he alright?“ Eudora asked. „is he sick? He haven’t been in the great hall either“
„I honestly don’t know. I always leave before Albus gets out of bed“ Scorpius keeps looking at the door—waiting for the Professor to enter or maybe even Albus. „I‘ll check to see if he’s alright“ he stood up form the chair and was about to leave
„But-„
„Just say I don’t feel well“ and so he left running down the corridors to see what’s up with his best friend
<3
And as Scorpius expected, Albus was laying in bed—blanked over his face. His breathing was slowly and Scorpius assumed he was asleep
He sat down besides him and put his hand on Albus forehead—he was burning
„What are yo doing?“ Albus mumbled and Scorpius took his hand back
„Are you sick?“
„I don’t get sick“
„You‘ve been laying in bed for three days now“
„I‘m lazy“
„I‘ll get Madam Pomfrey“
„Don’t!“ Albus grabbed his wrist but still kept his eyes close—Scorpius could feel by his grip how weak he is. „Stay“
„You have fever, Albus“ he sat back down while Albus hand was now sliding down between his fingers.
„I know, just—stay here for a bit“ The room went quiet. Scorpius did what his best friend told him.
He lade down besides him in the bed and Albus took his hand as tight as he could. His fingers where between Scorpius fingers and he could feel the heat of his fever
Scorpius didn’t care that he might get sick too—he just felt the comfortable closeness he has to his best friend now—and he might gets his hope up, that maybe Albus likes him back after all
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„He does have a fever“ madam Pomfrey went to her office and then came back with a potion „that might help“
„What is that?“
„Pepperup Potion, made it myself. That will help to sink his fever and in a few days he’s gonna feel better“ she explained and handed Albus the potion. „He needs to stay here for one or two night“
„Alright, one question. How do you make that potion, I never heard of it“
„Well, that’s because you don’t learn that kind of potion here. I went to healing School in London years ago“ Scorpius nod by every word she said. „You seem to be very interested“
„I am. I want to be a healer one day“
„You know, I have a class next year in that subject. Would you like to come?“
„I‘d love to“ Scorpius wants to be a healer since always—and when his mother got sick, he wanted to be a healer even more.
Scorpius hated to know that he can’t help his mother—he had to see her slowly dying and every time he thinks about it—he wants to break down.
„How long do i have to stay here?“ Albus asked tired form his bed. His face was covered under his blanked again
„Until you feel better, Honey“ Pomfrey said. „I‘ll write to his parents and I’ll keep you updated about next years class, I’m still discussing it with Mcgonagall“
„That would be great“ Pomfrey left Scorpius and Albus alone.
Looking at his best friend like that kinda breaks his heart. He lade his hand on Albus cheek and watched him sleep. His breath was slower that usual. His brown thick hair was covering up his face, and Scorpius is being honest when he said, that even tho Albus is heavily sick and probably feeling like dying inside—he never looked more adorable than right now in this moment
<3
Scorpius hated Miss Summersnows—Eda‘s office. She insisted that they‘ll call her by her first name. She smile as bright as usual and you could see her Yellow teeth brighten the room. „So, Scorpius, how are you?“
„I‘m fine“ his voice was toneless and Eda could feel that he does not want to be here
„Well I hope so. I heard Albus is sick?“
„Yes, he has high fever since Halloween“ he said. „he probably just drank to much alco—water“ he corrected himself
„You don’t have to lie here“ she said and laughers lightly
„Alright…he was drunk, I brought him to bed and since that he didn’t came out“ Scorpius voice was quiet. „And he was talking…such nonsense, it’s really confusing“
„What was he say?“ Scorpius saw in her face that she was really focused on what he was saying—even tho he was mostly talking to himself, no one has ever listen to him that much
„May I ask…what does it mean when your best friend tells your, he doesn’t want you to date anyone?“ he kinda felt embarrassed for asking that—but he really want to know —he needs to know or he might go crazy
„Well…maybe because he scared that you might replace him with someone else“ she said. „There could be many reason actually. Maybe he’s just a jealous person or maybe he likes you“
„He likes me?“
„I don’t know, maybe. I don’t wanna say anything about Albus- or your sexual preferences, but that’s one of the first things that came To my mind“ she said. „But I don’t wanna tell you any lies. I really don’t know“
„Albus is straight“ he said. „and so am I“
„I don’t judge, that’s not my job“
„I like—yes, I think guys are hot sometimes and yes, I often Imagined how it would be to be with a guy and I also think Albus is attractive and I wouldn’t say no…but I don’t think I’m gay“
Eda tried to hide her smile—Scorpius knew all he said didn’t made any sense. He really didn’t
he knows he likes guys, but he likes girls too—he was obsessed with Rose for like 3 years. He can’t be gay
His hands were on Albus waist and he pulled him on his sweater to kiss him deeply—his sweet lips went down to his neck and jakes hands were moving around his whole body
„What are we?“ Albus asked
Jake stoped kissing his neck and looked at his face. „What do you mean?“
„What are we?“ he repeated. „Why are we doing this?“
„Because it’s fun“
„Yes of course…but, i never made out with a guy before“
„I make out with guys all the time“ he said and Albus removed his hands slowly from his body. „Is that a problem?“
that actually hurts Albus feelings. They‘ve been doing that for over a year now and beside Albus—he makes out with other guys. He realised that it doesn’t mean anything to him.
„No problem“ Albus said
„Good“ Jake puts his lips back to Albus and they’re keep going
Albus woke up from a strong headache and saw that he was in the hospital wing—he awoke from a dreamless sleep and hoped to see his best friend right besides him—he wasn’t. Albus was completely alone. It was dark outside—maybe in the middle of the night. Albus fever didn’t got any better to his luck. He was still in his pyjamas and his cloak was laying on a chair.
He stood up and looked for his phone wich was fully charged. With wobbly legs he went outside were the cold hit him. It took five rings until that beautiful voice echoed from the phone.
„I hope you‘re only calling me at 3 am because you‘re Horny“ he wisperst. Albus laughed.
„I just missed your voice“ his voice sounded raspy and his lungs hurtled terribly
„Are you sick?“
„Just a Little. How are you?“
„Tired, as I said it’s 3 am“
„Sorry“
„It’s alright“ on Jakes side of the phone call—it sounded like he’s going into another room. „is everything okay?“
„Was someone with you?“ Albus asked—its not commend for someone just Switch the room when they were alone anyway
„Yeah—just a guy i‘ve been seeing“ Oh.
„oh, okay“ his disappointment was not to ignore
„That‘s not a problem, innit?“
„No, of course not—yeah, I‘ve been seeing a lot of guys too, you know“
„That’s good for you“
„I know“ The long silence between them was uncomfortable—Albus was exited to talk to him, but after finding out he was just sleeping with someone else—he hoped he can get of that phone call as fast as possible
„So, ahm…I kinda need to go. I‘m off the School property and if they find me here, then-„
„It’s alright, I need to go too“ Jake said.
„see you in December?“ Albus closed his eyes after Jake asked that
„Sure“ he forced himself not to sound like he’s about to sob
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The next few days, Albus spent in the hospital wing—with Scorpius as his regular visitier. They didn’t even talk or anything—sometimes Scorpius just sat on the bed besides him and did his homework or read a book. And Albus really enjoyed his company—he always does. Watching Scorpius reading has something relaxing—his blond hair shimmering in the sun and watching his fingers slide over the page—Albus could watch him all day.
Five days later, Albus was allowed to go back to his dormitory—except that he’s not allowed to leave his bed
„This is so stupid, I’m feeling a lot better“ he said while sounding like there’s no air coming out of his nose
„You heard Pomfrey. Stay in bed until you‘re completely healthy“ Albus grounded and let himself fall into his pillows. Scorpius throws his blanked over his face. „Nighty night“ He changed himself into his pyjamas and lade down on his own bed.
Scorpius saw the red note book he got from Eda on his night stand. Without thinking about it, he got himself a Feder and the book—he opened the first page
I lose control sometimes—I feel like I’m a dream—a nightmare. Nothings real and something is right behind me and i’m about to die
now This is stupid, but the panic is real—it feels like my heart is taking a race and is about to lose. I tried to stop it—to control it, but nothing works I wait for the day I might really die because of it—because my heart is loosing so much it might just—stop
He close the book. „Albus, You‘re up?“
„Hm?“
„I have a question“
Albus grounder. „What?“
„On Halloween—when I brought you to the dorm, you said that you don’t want me to date anyone“ Scorpius said and Albus sat himself up. „What did you mean by that?“
„I don’t know, mate. I was drunk and I can barely remember“ he said. „I think I didn’t mean anything by that“ Scorpius nicked „Or maybe you don’t need anyone else than me“ he said
Scorpius chuckled „Yea…maybe“
Albus lade back down and you heard him slowly breathing and he was about to fall asleep
Maybe Scorpius doesn’t want anyone else than Albus