Why Me?
Sirius calms down, "Yeah okay" He gives in and sits back down in the sofa, laying Remus back on his chest.
"I'm just worried, I mean...hes my brother"
"I know, I know" Remus is tracing circles on Sirius's chest.
"I just...why?" The sadness is still in Sirius's voice but his eyes are full of love.
"That I don't know" Remus replies.
They're back to their cosy state where it's just them, they both love it but won't admit it.
"Remus" Sirius says after a moment of silence.
"Mhm?"
"I just want you to know, I love you" Sirius is genuine and Remus know it. By the look on both of their faces...and the fact they're both bright pink.
"It's just...I'm scared, Remus. What if it doesn't work, what if someone finds out?" Sirius is still genuine and kind.
"Sirius, I love you too, and I always will. No matter what" Remus's voice is full of love.
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On the other end there's James, lying on his bed staring at the ceiling, mind blank.
Hes scared too, he wants to take it all back and be happy again but it's too late. The moment was long gone and he could never get it back.
James could never have what Sirius and Remus have ever again, ever.
He remembers it all, the love he felt just a week ago. But he can't feel it, just memories. Lily was in the past. He shouldn't have told her about Reg, because it didn't matter, and it doesn't matter now either. Him and Reg weren't even properly together, I mean, all they had was a couple shared kisses and nights together. Him and Lily...They had....They had... He can't think of it, cogs are turning in his brain but,
Nothing.
He blames himself for everything, absolutely everything he's done he blames himself. But this wasn't his fault, it's not his fault he felt this way. But he does...
"I love you..." James says quietly, starting to tear up.
"I love you, Regulus" He repeats.
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Remus and Sirius fall asleep together, so comfy, the light of the TV barely missing directly into Sirius's eyes.
The quietness of the night is peaceful and relaxing.
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James feels the opposite, on edge and scared.
Where was Regulus?
"Why me" James is crying, tears streaming down the side of his face.
5 empty cups beside his bed and a pile of dirty clothes on the floor. The only thing left here was the flower Regulus gave him, that's all he cares for anymore
"Why me..?"