There’s nothing he could do
When Regulus woke up the only thing he could feel was this unbelievable pain in his hole body. It was worse than everything he had felt before. If Regulus would have been able to he would have screamed, but he couldn’t. He couldn’t even move.
His breath was shaking, everything was spinning. Where was he? What was happening? Regulus could feel hot tears running down his cheeks. Everything just hurt so much. Was he going to die? He let out a single, small sob, that was it. Not one sound escaped him after that.
Regulus just laid on the ground without moving just silently crying and waiting for the pain to go away.
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Regulus didn’t know how long he had been laying on the ground before he was finally able to move again.
The room had stopped spinning and was able to control his breath properly. But to Regulus’s dismiss his memory’s came back too.
He really got the dark mark.
There was nothing he could do about it.
The only thing that Regulus could thinking of was: Why me? Why had his life to be so miserable? Did he really deserve all that?
Then another thing came into his mind.
James.
His wonderful boyfriend, who was doing so much for him. He lied to his friends so they wouldn’t find out that the two of them were meeting every night.
Regulus let out a deep sight as he slowly lifted himself up. He had been lying on the ground for at least two hours now. His head still hurt but nothing that regulus couldn’t deal with.
What should he do now? The mark on his forearm really hurt. Like really a lot. But he didn’t wanted to look at it. He already felt disgusting enough.
Regulus laid down on his bed and closed his eyes.
Oh how he hated his life.
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Regulus sat in the dining room with his parents. They were all quiet. He wasn’t supposed to be talking except he was asked something.
School would start again in a few days. It was the first time that regulus wasn’t sure if he would rather be in school than at home.
Normally he would be happy. He liked school. He would be excited to see James.
But this wasn’t normal at all. He was so scared. He couldn’t lose James.
But it was not like he would have liked to stay at home. Regulus had assumed his parents would be proud of him but they showed no sympathy at all.
Regulus honestly would have liked to just be dead.
All this shit would be over. And who beside James would really miss him? His weird friend group where he wasn’t even sure if they were his friends? Well Pandora was, maybe she would care a little.
But that was it. Two people that cared about him. Amazing.
After dinner regulus had made his way up to his room to start packing his suitcase . He didn’t know anything else to do.
While he was packing he thought, much to his dismiss, about Sirius.
He had always packed just the night before .
Thinking of him made regulus sad. And he hated himself for that. Sirius didn’t love you! He knew that so why would he care about him?
Regulus closed his suitcase and took a deep breath.
He got this, right