saviour complex

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
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saviour complex
Summary
Lily Evans is sick, sick of feeling like an outsider, sick of the pressure to prove she's more than her blood status and sick of herself. She wanted to be good enough to be accepted. James Potter has been totally infatuated with Lily Evans since he saw her during their first year at Hogwarts. He would love to watch her doing the things that made her Lily like how she would try to make conversation with house elves or comfort homesick first years or would carry a book everywhere. He noticed when she started staring off into the distance more than usual or tapped her fingers around her wrist anxiously. He watched her slowly fade. James has to fix this because isn't that what he does?
Note
TW: homophobia, depression, dissociation, panic attacks, anorexia, eating disorders, PTSD, abuse , harassment.☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ To see how characters are imagined @floraisasleep on pinterest
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chapter 7

James couldn't get Lily Evans off his mind since seeing her on the train. Her burnt Amber hair and emerald green eyes.
The little brush strokes of freckles that were littered across her cute slightly upturned nose. In their fourth year, Mary Mcdonald did Lily's makeup for Hogsmead.
And of course, she looked beautiful as usual with bold eyeshadow highlighting the colour of her eyes. But James had hated the powder she wore ..it covered those freckles.

"Prooongs! Snap out of it"

"Ow!"James exclaimed as Sirius's bread roll hit his head.

 

"What was that for?" He complained

"Looking like you on your 3rd shot of fire whiskey," Sirius said rolling his eyes.

"We were asking you a very important question " he continued

"Do go on" James said with sarcastic enthusiasm.

"Which is greaser Mulciber's pimply forehead or Snape's unwashed hair"
He asked James dramatically.

Pete giggled

"Snape hair no doubt you could do a Sunday fry up with all that oil," James said confidently

Remus sighed as if he was above the stupidity.
The conversation continued to scheming the upcoming pranks.

And halfway through Remus explaining how they could use a sticktacling charm to glue the Slytherins to the staircase James got distracted. He watched Lily make her way over to a Newly sorted Gryffindor.
James noticed how scared the little girl looked when her friend got sorted into Slytherin.
He doesn't blame her. Her mate was most likely on the fast track to becoming a Jr death eater after that.

Lily sat herself down by the scared first year and started talking to her.
James felt his chest swell
How could anyone be so consistently kind?

 

He walked over to them.

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