Chapter 1
Lily felt the knot tie itself in the middle of her chest as she walked away from her parents towards platform 9 and 3/4.
This knot was not because she would miss home though of course she would.
Well her parents anyways. Her mother had kissed her on the cheek and told her to make them proud as she always does. Her father a man of few words wished her good luck and pulled her in a bear of a hug.
Petunia hadn't come. She hadn't even wished her goodbye at home.
Actually that wasn't entirely true as they left the house she yelled down the stairs
" Good riddance you're finally taking that freak do us a favour Lil and stay away!"
Lily tried not to dwell on this too much.
Through she felt the urge to dwell an awful lot lately.
Which brings us back to the knot in her chest.
This would be her first year entering Hogwarts without a friend.
For the past four terms she had sev with her.
Severus Snape, a small pale boy with longish black hair and a permanently sullen expression. Had been Lily's best and only friend for the past 8 years.
He was the only other young non-muggle in their small town and the two became fast friends.
Severus never made her feel like a freak like she was different.
He would listen to her talk about Petunia and how horrible she could be.
And she would listen to Sev talk about his parents.
About how his mum was ill and his dad was always angry.
No one ever listened to them the way they did each other.
She missed this more than anything now.
But it was also the reason it had hurt so much.
When Severus had used that word against her it was as if she had been hit with a curse.
**FLASHBACK**
START OF SUMMER
"You can't hurt people sev not with magic not when they can't defend themselves."
Lily cried.
"The stupid git deserved it," Sev spat.
"He called mother lazy for not getting out of bed as if she isn't a few months away from death!"
"And that's horrible but you knocked him out Severus, he passed out from the pain."
Lily said growing increasingly concerned by his lack of empathy
"And with my luck he will wake back up"
His tone grew more solemn.
"What about the ministry you broke the law!"
"Oh shut up Lily. I don't even understand why they would care about that stupid muggle. He's as pathetic as the rest of them"! The anger returned as quickly as it faded.
"You don't mean that Sev not truly that's not you. That's all those horrid Slytherin boys talking, Mulciber an-" Before Lily could finish Snape fired up defensively
"I'm a Slytherin do you forget" he shot
"Yes I know b-" She was interrupted again
"What would you know anyways. You think you are so clever sometimes Lily don't forget what you are. Mudblood."
Just like that Lily could feel her pulsing heart drop and sink down her chest.
She knew that word.
Oh did she know that word.
It was yelled at her by Slytherins and gossiped about in corridors.
She had confined in Snape before about how it felt.
How she never felt enough because of how she was born.
He knew more than anyone what it meant to her.
*PRESENT DAY**
Despite the tightness in her chest she walked through the wall onto the platform.
To join her classmates on the train.