Chapter 2
Okay this was going to be a long trip. Why did Remus say yes to this again? Oh yeah, Sirius. But he most definitely didn’t think it through. It’s only been 10 minutes and James and Peter are already singing a song Remus think he has heard before but can’t quite place. Oh, and Sirius? He’s of course singing with them. And Remus is slowly dying. Not enough with the fact that they had to split into two cars so him and Lily didn’t get to complain together they also made Remus suffer by placing him in the loudest car so he couldn’t get to read or daydream about a certain someone. So, this could have gone better. Really it could. As if that wasn’t enough Sirius has to be that perfect and looks over him with that smile.
“Moony sing along, please?”
Remus knew to hold his frown still; he also knew even the slightest movement would mean Sirius got him. And fuck it was hard. “Why would I? I don’t even know the lyrics; you know this Pads.” By now his frown has turned into a more neutral smile, and he knew he had lost.
“So what? Pete doesn’t either and he’s not complaining.” This is how Remus found himself actually listening to the lyrics and recognized it from one of the vinyl the others use almost all the time. James noticed that now Sirius wasn’t singing along and looked behind the wheel with a questionable look. Sirius was going to get him actually killed. With a long sigh he started to try and sing along, and it was almost worth it. That Sirius smile came up again and Remus found himself smiling while singing in a low voice.
After almost an hour of (badly) singing they got a phone call from Mary.
“Uh hey guys, someone forgot to tank the truck yesterday so we’re gonna stop for gas.” A small ‘Well you forgot to tell me I was in charge of that!’ was heard in the background and James chuckled at that.
“Okay, just lead the way and we’ll probably just stuck up on snacks.” Peter laughed from the passenger seat.
5 minutes was what it took to get to the nearest gas station and as soon as the car was in parking gear James hurried out of the car claiming he had to pee for like 30 minutes and a following Peter walking towards the small shop. Remus found himself being alone with Sirius for the first time in almost 2 weeks and even though he had missed it with all his being he also feared these moments ever since he first discovered his crush on his fellow marauder. As they got out of the car Remus pulled a cigarette and a lighter out of his pocket. As he started to smoke Sirius came beside him, grabbed Remus’ wrist in his and took the cigarette out of his hand. Remus watched longingly as Sirius closed his eyes and took the cigeratte between his lips and he watched him inhale the smoke and after a few seconds exhale it again. Sirius slightly opened his eyes and looked up at him. Shit, he forgot it wasn’t normal to look at your best friend’s lips for that long, if it even was normal to look at your best friend’s lips at the first place. A smirk rose upon his lips and Remus felt his cheeks heating up a bit.
“How many times do you have to steal my cigs before you buy your own?” Remus got out trying to change the topic of how he had just gotten caught looking at his lips.
Sirius handed back the cigarette and lightly giggled. Before he could answer Lily was running up to them and Remus let a puff of air out when she jumped in his arm. He found himself hugging her back with one around her the other with the cigarette in his hand. What he failed to see was how Sirius moved a bit uncomfortably from side to side.
“Oh, how I missed you, you can’t believe how hard studying has been.” A cough from Sirius made her look up. “Hey Black.” She said with a smile.
“Well hello to you too Evans.” He smiled back but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. Hmm weird.
As she was about to let go to hug Sirius, they heard a loud “OI, Moony don’t steal my girl!”
They all started to laugh, and Lily walked over and kissed him. The moment Lily left Remus’ side Sirius closed the gap between them so that they were now shoulder to shoulder. And how can Remus possible move on and find a partner when Sirius clingy personality keeps him stuck in that endless hole? No wonder he had loved him for so long. Soon enough when they had gotten what they needed the car ride continued and Remus found himself enjoying himself and had forgotten every bad thing that had ever happened to him the universe had other thoughts. Because as soon as they got in the car Sirius started making love eyes at his phone and Remus thought he could just start feeling miserable again. He might as sleep if it was going to continue and he didn’t want to ruin the mood with his sulking, so sleep it was.
When he woke up, they were surrounded with tall trees, and it was starting to get dark. There was a slow song on the radio that James was humming along to lowly. Remus made eye contact with him, and he smiled. Remus smiled back tiredly and looked around him. Peter was looking at his phone with headphones that blasted so loud Remus was surprised how he was not deaf yet. And then he looked besides him and saw Sirius sleeping safe and sound with an open mouth against the window, snoring lightly. His hair was up in a messy bun with one of the hair ties Remus had bought him. At that Remus smile grew even bigger. 'Control yourself' was all that went through his head.
He took a deep breath and asked James, “Do you know when we’ll be there?"
“Uh, in about half an hour. You were asleep for quite a while.” His voice stained with the tiniest bits of concern. Remus puffed out a tiny laughter careful not to disturb Sirius. Not bothering with a reply he just looked out of the window for the rest of the trip.
The rest of the car ride went by pretty quickly. As the car stopped a few meters from a cabin, James poked to Peter as a signal. "Moony, can you wake Padfoot?" He just nodded at that not even watching if they got his silent 'yes'.
Remus gently placed a hand on Sirius' shoulder and started to shake him just the slightest. Sirius stirred only a bit and Remus sighed yet again. Should he start keeping count on his sighs? Probably. "Pads, wake up." At that his mouth slightly turned upwards if it wasn't for the fact that Remus was watching him so intensely, he wouldn't have noticed but he did. "I know you're awake Sirius." Still no answer. With a sigh he went outside and walked to the other side of the car, he clicked open Sirius' seatbelt. by now Sirius had a prober smirk on his face but still closed eyes. Remus took his arms around Sirius' waist and lifted him so he was laying over his shoulder with enough strength but not enough so he would hit the roof of the car. Sirius yelped and started giggling.
"Remus John Lupin, put me down!" He started laughing like a maniac and gently hit him, not enough for it to hurt but still with a little strength. The others saw this and all started laughing. After walking a few meters, he put him down. A permanent smile now plastered on his face. When he was finally at the ground Remus noticed how little space there was between them. His smile gone within a few seconds. Sirius seemed to notice his behavior and looked at him with a questionable look. Shit.
"Hey lovebirds help with unpacking the car instead of just looking at each other!" Marlene said. 'Damn you McKinnon' was the first thing that went through his head. He quickly realized it was for the best. What if he had kissed him and ruined their friendship? Sirius just laughed while Remus turned around and went over to the car. Of course, he would laugh, because him and Remus? They could never be together. It was clearly just some joke to Sirius. Okay, no need to get down now. With another sign he took his luggage and went into the cabin.