Episode 1
James is crying. James is crying on the Astronomy Tower. James is crying on the Astronomy Tower with Regulus's arms holding onto him tightly. Merlin, James feels bad, he feels wrong. Here he is avoiding everything tied up in the arms of the person he feels guilty for loving, the person James loves because he doesent judge James when James has his episodes. Regulus has every right to, Merlin he really does. James took Sirius from Regulus, that is all James's fault and he doesent even feel bad about that part, he doesent feel bad for being the brother Regulus never could have been. He feels bad because this should affect him more. The very fact he took Sirius away should bring James too tears but it doesent, what brings James to tears is that he should not be crying at all, he has no reasons too, hes the groups stability but no one every warned James that the stability can sometimes wobble and the stability can fall. James has fallen now, the group doesent know, surviving off of stability that is no longer there, all taped up taking more pressure than he should.