Chapter 5
NOVEMBER 3
7TH YEAR
Remus lupin is seating alone at the night of sirius’s birthday in the astronomy tower while looking at the brightest star.
”Happy Birthday” he said quietly while tears kept pouring from his face.
”I’m sorry-I’m so sorry sirius” remus sobbed
”please come back sirius-please..” he begged sirius, he begged the universe, he begged everything, everyone to bring him back
”Come on sirius it’s your birthday have some fun!”
”I’m coming!” Sirius replied while staring at the moon that seems to be not as bright as before,
he closed the curtain.
GRADUATION DAY 1978
“Are you ready james?” Peter asked
“I’m so nervous I think i’m gonna puke” james said before standing up
”You’ll be fine, you’ve been inlove with lily since first year I’m sure you’ll do great” remus assured james
After The Ceremony
”WOOH WE GRADUATED!!” marlene yelled
”HELL YEAH!!” Others screamed while mary and peter cheered them on
Remus should be happy right? I mean they already graduated he should be happy but there is still something someone missing.
”Guys have you seen james?” He heard lily ask
”he’s by the lake I can come with you” peter said while winking at marlene
Marlene took the sign she then send a thumbs up to james by the window grinning happily.
Remus and the other’s went down by the lake and there it is Lily and James laughing while hugging each other they’re engaged.
Merlin remus would trade anything just so sirius could be here james’ brother should’ve been here.
At Jame's and Lily's Wedding,The party was fun and everyone was having a good time.
remus saw james sitting down so he followed him
”you okay mate?” Remus asked concern about his friend
James wiped off his tears
”I am but I really wished he was here remus, he was supposed to be my best man yet he’s nowhere to be found” James said
Sirius being gone at James' wedding was by far the most saddest thing that has ever happened to them. Remus knew how much the two used to talk about how Sirius was definitely gonna be the best man at James' imaginary wedding with Lily Evans yet somehow it came true just not sirius being the best man. Remus tried to refuse james when he asked him to be his best man but james insisted that he wants remus to be his best man as his brother is not there.
James was the happiest man alive when he was married to Lily Evans but remus knows that behind his smiles and laughter that night was longing and sadness for sirius. Their life without him was surely harder it was like sirius was the air that they breathed.
Ever since sirius left remus often spends his time writing, sirius was the one who suggested it for him to try, writing his emotions or what he was thinking helps him forget about all his problems in the world and just be stuck on his own little world with words.
When they found our Lily is pregnant. All of them were so happy especially james he was all over the moon when they announced it.
"I'm gonna be a father moony!" James yelled
Remus laughed at him if sirius was here how would he react will he cry? Remus asked himself
He excused himself and went on to get a fresh air as he cannot stop thinking about sirius, he found peter there.
"Peter?" Remus asked
"Oh remus are you here for fresh air too?"
"Yeah It's a bit overwhelming in there" remus answered
"I get ya mate, I can't believe james would be a father" peter said
"Yeah it's unbelievable"
"How do you think sirius would react if he were here?" Peter asked him
"Please do not speak of him" remus said with spite in his voice
Even if he loves sirius he just cannot talk about him yet.
He loves him so much that it hurts just to think of him, Remus can't stop thinking is he alive? is he alright? is he dead? is her safe?
Remus knows there is a war coming even if dumbledore tries to hide it from them remus is just hoping his beloved star is safe.
"Regulus" regulus heard someone call for him
"What the fuck?" regulus said shocked
"Suprise?"