Severus Reckones A Drink
That, before i felt stopping, mid air, right at the half of the length of the tower, then i started moving, still downwards, but slowly. What was.. going on?! I didn’t want to be saved! I didn’t want to live, why, why, why was this happening! I get down on the ground and i turn to face the person that saved me against my will and to my surprised i was run over by a hug. “What the hell was going on inside that empty head of yours!!” it was...Severus? “I- i can’t.. what?” he was hugging me. Weird.. he never hugged me, like ever. “Stupid, stupid boy! Are you okay? Are you hurt?” he said, serching my body for any evidence of me getting hurt and i realized that the wind pulled down my sleeves, so i kept them like that. “n-no i’m not hurt, don’t.. it’s okay Severus” he still kept looking until i grasped him firmly by his shoulders and i noticed that he was crying, or at least trying not to, and I don’t know what came over me, but i broke down and i hugged him tightly, my body shaken by sobs as much as his was. We were just standing there crying our emotions out and hugging tightly.
Someone might even think that someone close to us was dead, they wouldn’t be that wrong.. After a while we decided to go to Hogsmade, and i knew how to get there without getting caught, because before the last summer vacations, Mooney, Prongs, Padfoot and i (Feathers) made a map that kept track of everyone in hogwards and showed in real time where they were, every second of every minute of every day. We also found out that there are a lot of secret passages all around the castle and we explored them. While trying to get that memory out of my head, Severus and I finally made it to Hogsmade and we went to the Three Broomsticks. He was sweating for the anxiety but i knew what to do: i knew the owner and he would always let me and my friends buy a couple of pints of butterbeer, even tho we weren’t really allowed to drink them. I sat and spoke to the owner, and got two freshly poured pints of butterbeer for me and Severus to enjoy, he did decline the beer, so i got him his favourite bubble juice, which he gladly accepted. We stayed in silence for a while but then to my surprise Sev spoke “I couldn’t reach you for a really long while, i’ve been sending letters to the infermery but i never got a reply.. I thought you were mad at me and didn’t want to be friends with me anymore..” my eyes shot open, he’s been trying to reach me? “What letters? I never recived any letters” “They told me you came down with the flu, the muggle illness, and that they put you in the private section of the infermery to not spread it to the whole school” my mind was racing, what the hell was going on? Teahcers lying about where i am, and saying stuff about getting the flu? They really want to cover up the mess that i made huh? “but.. then i saw you falling down the astronomy tower and i absolutely lost it, i barely managed to catch you! What were you thinking!” he wacked me a couple of times on the shoulder and he started sniffling again, sign that he was very very worried. I’ve never seen him cry more than two minutes tops in a whole year.. Now i feel really sorry, but if the teachers didn’t say anything about my “condition” to anyone then i shouldn’t say it..
We start drinking our drinks in silence, but then i feel his foot edging twoards mine and i felt his touch, ever so gentle. I slowly looked at him and he was red in his cheeks and on the top of the ears and fingers too. It was easy to see blush on him, Severus was as pale as bone. I wondered why he was blushing but i did enjoy the warmth of his hands. Then he noticed my scars and his eyes widened in shock for a moment and thoughts started racing my head, but then catching me completly by surprise: he brought my hand in his hand, next to his lips, and started gently kissing the palm of my hands, then the top of it, then he kissed me in my most sensitive spot: the inner wrist, and there, my heart skipped a beat. I felt my face get hotter and hotter and my chest getting tighter and more uncomfortable. That was the most absurde thing i’d ever expect from Severus, never in my life. Then he kisses my knuckles and lets down my wrist on the wooden table and i am still shocked. He lookes at me and he realizes what he did and he starts apologizing for acting so impulsively, and as usual when he apologizes, his long hair start covering his eyes like a pair of thick black blinds, and his eyes are always moving. But i took this hand and smiled at him saying that it was fine and that i actually liked it, and it made me feel better, so he finally stopped apologizing and he drank his juice, embarassed and flustered and i felt.. calm, spreading into my body, or maybe it was the butterbeer, but i really just wanted to drink and relax.
We finished our drinks and we headed outside, i was a bit tipsy cause it’s been a while since i last drank that much sugar in one sitting so Severus offered me his elbow and we walked back in the safe path of the forest enjoying our little stroll, smoking a cigarette from my half used pack and then getting rid of the smell with a perfume Sev made. We got to the castle and parted ways and.. i felt that Sev hesitated a bit when he left my hand, like he wanted to stay a little more, but then he disappeared into the shadows. I made my way to my room, in pilot drive, cause i didn’t want to think about meeting the guys. When i got to the dormitory, the dayroom was empty which was weird. I went up the stairs, more slowly than the usual, then i got to my room and after taking a really deep breath (Maybe more than one) i knock on the door.