1- James Decides To Kill Me For Breakfast
FOURTH YEAR: ch.1 James Decides To Kill Me For Breakfast
I woke up with a pillow thrown at my face. Thrice.
“i’m awake...i’m awake..” i said throwing the pillow back to it’s owner “finally! I still can’t get over on how you can sleep through anything man-” James said sighing like he ran a 50 miles marathon “same” Sirius laughed, and while yawning, i turned to Remus who was already dressed and leaning on his bed “You too Remus?” “He started it this time” James snickered, Remus shrug “ you looked dead” he then smiled and then tossed me my uniform “get dressed or we’re going to be late” he said with his calm voice like always “yeah fuck you” i said with my tired voice and then smiled. Half asleep I went to the bathroom to wash and after the quick shower i realized that i only took my underwear and my towel with me and basically ran my life out of that bathroom, sprinting in my room where the others were waiting for me. “woah you have some serious ass over there” James said looking at my ass while laughing “wanna see the front?” i said laughing with the others and he blushed for the embarassement but he laughed “no thanks i’m good” I covered my boxers with the towel and quickly got dressed because i could feel that Sirius was looking and itmade me blush allover “i didn’t know you had so many freckles, they’re like constellations” Sirius said smiling at me getting extreamly close and tracing the freckles together like some sort of map, with the fingers hovering close, next to my skin “well now you know. Aren’t we going to be late for breakfast?” i said about to pass out from being so flustered but i kept it on the inside “yup i’m starving” Remus said while fixing his hair “then let’s get going” James said still a bit flushed.
We basically ran through the halls and i constantly kept getting lost if only it weren’t for my friends keeping an eye on me too. It’s been three years and i still get lost, speak aboout a sense of direction. We arrived 10 minutes to the end of breakfast time so I rushed a very lemony and sweet tea and James and Sirius basically inhaled two sandwiches while Remus calmly ate a lemon scone. Then we ran again to our first class of the day. Then the hour ended and we moved on class after class. It was soon time for lunch and I was starving. “today was something else, my feet hurt” James whined, i looked at him with sympathy “I know but we don’t have any classes for the day and it’s lunch time!” I said, “talk for yourself, there are the Quidditch team tryouts, and i want to go” “me too” Sirius happily added as i shivered, “ugh, i don’t like quidditch” James turned over me with a shocked look “You. Don’t want to play quidditch.” “no..?” i said with disinterest “omg. Oh my god! You heard Sirius?” Sirius shooked his head, playfully disappointed, making fun of James “Yeah, i can’t belive this!” “it’s like my whole life crumbled in my bare hands! Elias, afer all this time!” James sobbed drammatically, i rolled my eyes “i don’t get the purpose onestly, it’s a dangerous sport-” James squealed and sighed on Siriuses shoulder while he patted his back “Yes, yes, I know” Remus smiled and shook his head “why don’t you give it a try?” “i- i don’t know..” Sirius smiled widely, with James still being the drama queen he is “ don’t worry, you’ll be fine as long as you’re with us!” I couldn’t oppose to that so i dropped my shoulders and with a tired voice i finally accepted “fiiine.” James turned like nothing happened “ let’s go!” then they proceded to drag me there all the three of them, even tho Remus wasn’t even trying to get in the tryouts. We got to the quidditch field and Sirius cursed under his breath “fuck.. Reg’s here.” James got silent and Remus put a hand on Sirius’ shoulder “hey, it’s ok, he won’t say anything here, he’ll ignore you, hopefully-” “who’s Reg?” i said confused “it’s Regulus, Sirius’ brother” James said seriously. “oh.. so there’s not good blood between you two huh?” i said trying to alleviate the atmosphere “No. Not at all.” Sirius said harshly, and i was kinda surprised, i’ve never seen him this angry since i knew him. He realized it and shook it off by taking a deep breath “heh, sorry I didn’t mean it..” he said fidgeting with his hair “it’s ok, it’s not your fault” i smiled back at him, trying to reassure him. James pulled him away towords the changing rooms “James and I are going to change into our uniforms, want to go to tryouts or not?” he said while trying not to get completly dragged by the impatient friend “ok i’ll come with you guys..” Remus looked at me funny and stopped me right before going with Sirius “wait, i thought you didn’t know how to fly on a broom-” he said confused “I never said that I don’t know how to go on a broom, i said i don’t care for flying and that i don’t particularly follow quidditch” Remus shrugged, “fair enough” then he waved and headed back to the library to go and relax a bit.
The rest of us went to get changed and then we met up on the field, then we got divided in the categories of what position we were trying to get in: Sirius as a beater, James as the seeker and I tried to get in the keeper’s line, but it was too full so Sirius dragged me along with him to try as a beater “Don’t worry you’ll be fine, you had a nice aim this morning with the pillows” he laughed and i laughed too “fine fine”. It was finally our turn and the instructor came to us and talked about the basics of flying and quidditch. He then asked who already knew how to fly on a decent level and Sirius and I raised our hands. So the instructor got us into another group where other kids already knew how to fly. Then they gave us each a broom and asked to do some basic patterns like sprinting and dropping. I went first and Sirius crossed his arms and looked at me with a cheeky look and i got all nervous and sweaty, i really didn’t know what was going on with me but i knew i had to focus. So i got on my broom and got in the air and the instructor said: Ok, now go to the bottom of the field and come back here following the up and down pattern as fast as you can.” then he blowed the whistle and i don’t know what came over me, but i just stopped thinking and i did everything an quickly as i could, i also almost fell because of a sharp turn, but i came back to where i was accidentally making all the dead leafs fly around and one got onto Sirius’ head, which was very cute and the instructor with a straight face said “hired” then i got off the broom and Sirius smiled at me and winked, I instantly became red and quickly walked away. My heart was pounding so fast and i couldn’t breathe regularly, so I sat on the bench near the croud and Sirius tried to make eye contact with Remus that was sitting on a bench not so far from me. I didn’t notice him at first but i looked at him while he was observing Sirius with a strange gaze, and Sirius was so skilled he made a better score than i did, i didn’t even have time to process the whole thing. Then he sorta runned to Remus, who was faking ignoring him, and Sirius was poking his arm so annoyingly, that the other boy closed his book and bonked it onto Sirius while laughing. Sirius was laughing too, his laugh was so ugly it was funny, and kinda cute.. it was nice seeing them like that but i felt.. cold, like, i was happy for them but i felt.. off? I tried to get rid of that nauseous feeling by watching the tryouts but it was still there.
I ignored it for the rest of the tryouts and for the rest of the day onestly. I was feeling sad, and when i’m sad, i’m very quiet, i barely speak, and if i do, i speak quietly. James noticed that I wasn’t feeling good at dinner, when i kept playing with my food instead of devouring it like i usually do, so he leaned in and he was about to speak, but i really didn’t want to talk to him, so i got up and left. The dining hall was loud, people were laughing, yelling and having fun, and I was so sad and i didn’t even knew why. I was so angry and overwhelmed with negative emotions that i went in the only place i can comfort myself in times of need: The Astronomy Tower. I fished out of my poket my pack of cigarettes, half full. In Hogwards cigarettes weren’t allowed, but i found a way to teleport a pack when i needed it, and this was the case. It was starting to get chilly, so i opened the pile of trunks that i hid under the stairs and picked my favourite blanket, then i got upstaires again and with my blanket on my shoulders i leaned on the railing. I burned the tip of the cigarette with my wand, using a spell and breathed the smoke in, letting it fill my lungs. I kept it inside until it felt like burning and then I exhaled. It felt good, i started feeling better, watching the night fall form the tall tower, admiring the lake shimmer and change colours with the sky. I lost the concept of time until i heard the bell toll 13 times. "Shit it’s one o’clock-" I threw the extinct cigarettes’ butt in the small chest that’s under the stairs, where i keep all my cig butts and threw the blanket into the trunk, making it close itself. I rushed into the halls in silence, I was almost there when Peeves popped in front of me. I knew i was screwed. “what do you want Peeves?” i silently screamed at him “ Oh, i don’t want anything young man, well, a part from seeing you in detention!” he sneared, talking with his normal voice which sounded loud in the dead silence of the hall. “will you keep your voice down?!” i hissed at him. “mmm, no” Peeves giggled, then he started bloating up and i knew that all hell would break loose very very soon, so i had to make a deal with Peeves or the entire school would rush over to where I was. “hey! Peeves, Peeves listen, i’ll give you my cigarettes. All the ones i have on me, if you don’t blow. Please Peeves. I’ll also steal your favourite potion from potion class ok? Just don’t blow!” He stopped. I calmed down and got my cigarettes out of the pocket and the ghost took them giggling, he suddently stopped smiling when he opened the pacage. “it’s only half full.” “it’s all i have on me.” I said starting to get angry again. “well, you promised me a full packet of cigs” “No i promised you all the cigs i have on me. And this is all i have Peeves.” Peeves scoffed “you are a cheater” then he left disappearing into a green fart cloud. “yuck..” i whispered in disgust, i carefully dodge the green gassy cloud and finally got in my dorm hall, with the fire crackling in the fireplace and the moon shining in from the windows, i rushed up the stairs and walked across the corridor that led into my room and i quietly opened the door and got in. The room was silent and almost dark, because of the opened window, I looked over the beds and Remus wasn’t in his bed, Sirius was sleeping with James in the boy’s bed, there were tissues around the bed and Sirius had a red nose. I guess Sirius and Remus fought again, because Sirius never cries that much, unless he’s very upset. James was gently holding him and sleeping peacefully. I was tired so i just removed my cloak, threw it on the chair next to me, removed my shoes and carefully placed them next to my bed stand, then i just plopped on the bed, and closed my eyes.