Family tree
She sits in the car next to her Brother, his leg keeps tapping on the floor.
_ You are nervous ?
_ No, im not.
Their mother already knows about their respective houses. Letters were sent and received for the past three months.
When Regulus opened the door of the Black Manor, Walburga's footsteps came before her.
She came closer and closer. Regina closed her eyes wishing Sirius came back with them.
_ My boy.
Regina was waiting for a hit or some other type of violence. Never in a billion years… that. What even was that ? Her mother has Regulus in a choke hold. Replace Sirius and I will give you love ?
Every child wants love. She does too, her little self is in pain. Regina’s heart reacts like a child.
_ finally a Slytherin
A knife cut would have been better than being betrayed by her need of love. She rushed up stairs, to spare herself the sights of her mother almost hugging Regulus.
Wabulga has a pure slytherin boy and a Slythen-puff girl that she doesn't even look at when she comes back home. And forgot about her Griffon d’or older son.
Her mom didn’t bet on her, it’s okay. She could be in whatever house for what she cares…
Regina isn’t a boy. She knew who she was, at a very early age.
She is a girl in a man’s world. Being a girl isn't her problem. She never felt the need to crawl a way out of the body she was born in. A chance her brother didn’t get. One day she saw Regulus scratching his skin with this nails, since Regina cut Regulus's cuticles herself. Regina is a lucky girl, when life is hard, she focuses on that. “she is a lucky girl” Regina one day you will marry a rich man her mother said.“she is a lucky girl”. Marriage is a ticket out of the black family. If she is lucky enough... Her future husband won’t be so bad. Sirius promises to kill him if he was. It’s strange to find comfort in the idea of murder. She isn’t a boy, her duty isn’t to give baby hiers to this sick family name.
Regina stops in front of the Black family tree.
Sirius is the heir of the noble house of black. He will grow old in this place. Next to someone he will pretend to be a boy instead of love. He will have kids, until he has a boy, to pass down to him his generational traumas. But he won’t be a bad dad like Walburga and Orion. Still Regina don’t wish him his life. The more she looks at the tapestry more she fears Regulus signed up for the same fate. She lost her big brother in his rebellion and her twin brother in his submission.
_ Hello ? Riggi
_ Sirius ?
_ Is something wrong ? Where are you ?
“you're not here”
_ We are at Grimmauld Place for the break. I wanted to ask you a question for a while…
_ I’m listening
_ It may be silly but..did mother and fathers love each other…ones ?
_ …No darling
_ But if not for love, why have a second child after you ? You were already here
_ To be the heir ? …When mother saw I wasn't going to be her perfect son, she wanted to make a spare for the name of Black. When she saw it was twins, she hoped for boys. The worst part is when the doctor told her right after delivery that she had two baby girls…She lost interest. They left you two in your room. She didn’t bother to remember which one of you came first.
_…
_ Regina ? You know her, nothing she says is good to take. Trust me you two are the best thing that happened to me. From the first day of your life I was here, in the room they left you. Singing you to sleep.
“it is the nicest thing you ever said to me”
_ Une histoire d’amour by Mireille Mathieu
the song => https://youtu.be/9BDoS52NPeQ
Regina hung up on him. She was about to cry. When the lyrics start playing in her head.
“restons ensemble serre moi fort, tu vois il me semble de ma vie s'endort”
(let's stay together, hold tight me, you see ? I think i am sleeping away)
“Non mon amour, tu ne dois pas, il ne faut pas, pleurer sur moiii”
(no my love, you must not, you can not, cry on meee)
Not when he doesn't sing them to sleep through painful days like this one.
Not anymore. That was the only refuge Regulus and she got as kids. She is so alone now.
“i listen to it on my earpod, now that you're gone Sirius. And Regulus plays it on the piano when he is very very sad. But i can’t tell you that.”
Regina decided that melting down on the wooden floor in front of her family tree is okay. She developed the ability to cry in complete silence. Loud or quiet Regulus finds her anyway.
He closes the door after him. But the both of them know that privacy isn’t a notion inside thoses walls.
_ Riggie ? do you hear me ?
_…
_ You need your earpods ?
_I need my brother.
“Can you get that for me ?”
Regulus holds his sister.
He should say all kinds of things. He is here. On her side, right now.
But this is too much like what his big brother would do. Regulus isn't his big brother. He can't replace him.
_ you are not alone
_ Tell me something good.
_ When she said i was… “her boy” I felt dirty.
_ good, regina answered it was all she needed to know.
_ i’m Sirius boy..Regina
_ i know
“ Ne reste pas le coeur en pleins à vivre seul.
Il te faudra voir d’autre ciel, d’autre soleil, ne pleure pas”
(Don’t stay heartbroken and alone. You must see other skyes, other suns, don’t cry)<
When will one of them realises that this song is a one by one step guide to face the absence of you'r love ones ?