No telling what tomorrow holds
Holy fucking fuck. Padfoot, his guitarist, whose name is apparently Sirius, had just texted him, and he’s fucking adorable. Looking back down at his phone he honestly just felt a little confused. When did pad- Sirius give him his phone number? And why? Stay calm.
(Remus):
Oh, um, hey
What’s up?
Also… out of curiosity how did you get my number…
Wow, that was smooth Remus, double ellipsis, an in-text stutter, and he fucking started off with “what’s up?”. Who’s the daft one now? Fuck, how did people text. He had the urge to throw his phone across the room at the sheer embarrassment of it.
(Sirius):
I texted myself really quick when I had your phone on stage
Fuckin feat too, turns out trying to slyly enter your number and then texting yourself takes wayyyy longer than expected
Remus laughed, fuck he was cute.
(Remus):
Wow, that’s impressive
(Sirius):
I know,
I must have some sirius texting skills
See what I did there (I hate myself)
I also seem to still not know your name
(Remus):
Wow your cute
Sorry! My name is Remus Lupin
Remus could not believe he just called Sirius cute. Guess when they say it’s easier to have confidence over the phone, they really mean it.
(Sirius):
Your name is Remus Lupin and you have the nerve to call me cute?!
I think not
Remus blushed like crazy, padfoot thought his name was cute. I mean sure he had heard that a lot, but not by anyone he had a bloody crush on.
(Remus):
I could say the same about your name, Sirius Black
(Sirius):
Holy fuck, you think my names cute?
You know, I’ve never been told that before
I think there’s a reason I haven’t…
I’m on to you
You’re just trying to win brownie points (￣^￣)
(Remus):
Oh bugger, you caught me
Remus smiled down at his phone, just then another message came through.
(Lyall Lupin):
Mandatory family breakfast tomorrow
Remus took a deep breath. He hated family breakfasts, any family function really. His mom was the sweetest when she wasn’t drinking, but unfortunately, she was almost always drinking. When she drank, she got vacant, zombie like. His father on the other had, now he was a real piece of work. He was all around a stereotypical manipulative asshole, and quite the homophobe.
Remus thought to message him mom just to check in.
(My boy):
Hey mama, just checking in on you
Dad messaged about breakfast in the morning
(Mama):
Hi my love, thank you for checking in, I’m good
Yes, excited to see you
Love you baby
(My boy):
Love you too, mama
From the looks of it, she was having one of her good days. That was good, it would help make breakfast more bearable. Glancing at the clock he was shocked at the time. His phone pinged.
(Sirius):
HAH! I knew it
You’re lucky I like you
Oh fuck, that was dangerous. If Remus wasn’t careful, he would get his hopes up. Better to just laugh it off and go to bed. Not to mention he was still exhausted.
(Remus):
Har har, your funny
I ought to head to bed, its late and I have a horrible day planed tomorrow
With that Remus turned on his alarm, plugged his phone in, and got up to put some boxers on. Walking into the kitchen he grabbed a glass of water, missing his phone ping. Walking back into his bedroom he climbed into bed, a horrible feeling of dread sinking in his stomach.
He woke up to the sound of his phone buzzing. Who was calling him and what did they want so early in the freaking morning. Reaching over to his nightstand he felt around until he found his phone. Swiping his thumb across the screen he put the phone to his ear.
“Where the fuck are you.” his father said in a monotone voice. Remus’ chest tightened. Glancing over to the clock on his nightstand that read 11am that tightness turned into full blown panic. Jumping out of bed he started scrambling around for clothes. “I’m so sorry dad, I must have slept through my alarm. I had work yesterday and then I went to a show with James and lily and I was just so tired-” his dad cut him off. “I’ve had enough of your fucking excuses Remus. You have made me and your mother wait for an hour and a half. The food is already fucking cold.” His dad boomed, picking up speed, “and you know I fucking hate those bloody friends of yours, such bad fucking influences, encouraging such disgusting behavior from you” he was full on yelling now, “Don’t bother showing up here, you’re not welcome.” With that, his dad hangs up.
Remus felt water pool in his eyes. Without even thinking he was already calling Lily. She answered after two rings “Hey babes! What’s up with you on this fine morning?” she practically sang. Remus heard himself sniff, the tears rolling down his face freely now, but the world was starting to spin and he couldn’t breathe. “Remus?” he heard lily say, “are you okay love?”
Remus sank down to the floor. “I missed breakfast with my parents” he got out shakily. There was muffled sound on the other line like lily was rubbing the microphone against a sheet when the sound stopped, she said, “getting dressed now, be over in ten.”
Remus heard the door unlock and some rustling by the front door, next thing he knew lily was knocking lightly on his open bedroom door. “Hey love,” she said walking into the room, “let’s take some deep breaths, okay?” She sank down onto the floor next to Remus, who had his head between his knees and was still struggling to breathe.
“Remember the coping mechanism that worked last time?” she asked, “What are four things you can hear?” Remus listened to the cars outside then the birds. He noted that the heater was on and making a slight hissing sound and the fridge had just made some new ice and was rumbling. After listing those things to lily, she smiled, “Okay, now three things you feel.” Remus listed off those, feeling significantly better.
“Need another?” Lily asked and Remus shook his head. Taking a deep breath, he recounted the events of the morning to Lily. Remus disliked his father as much as the next person, but Lily? Lily truly hated him. “What I wouldn’t give to see that man hurt, even just a little.” She said in a tone that Remus was quite honestly a little of scared of. Remus chuckled, “I know Lils, how about instead we go grab lunch?” at that lily smiled and stood up, offering him a hand. “There is this cute new place that opened up downtown” lily said excitedly. As she rambled more, he looked down to check his phone.
Clearing the 19 missed called from his father and deleting the 27 angry text messages he saw that he had a few messages from his mother.
(Mama):
You missed breakfast
I’m sorry about your father
Remus sighed. He loved his mother dearly, but their relationship was also complicated. She struggled severely with mental health when he was growing up leaving Remus’ dad to do most of the raising. She’s also struggled with addiction his whole life which is always hard.
(My boy):
Hey mama, I know I missed breakfast
I’m sorry you cooked for me and it went to waste
I love you
The messages appeared as read and Remus waited but no response came through. Sighing again he opened his thread with sirius who must have texted back last night after Remus had fallen asleep.
(Sirius):
I’m sorry you have such a shitty day planned
I agree, I am quite funny, but I really meant it,
I like you
Goodnight Remus…
I think we’re going to need some nicknames
Fuck. Remus felt conflicted. He wanted to be happy but he wasn’t sure he had the emotional energy to feel much of anything at the moment. Mad at his dad from ruining this for him he decided to come back to it later when he could feel better about it.
Following Lily out his front door he locked it behind him.
Remus had ordered a chicken caesar salad, and Lily got a BLTA burger. They were well into eating when Lily put down her food and opened her mouth to say something, immediately snapping it shut again. She had a habit of being selective with her words, which often caused her to take some time to say what she wanted. Remus smiled and waited for her to find her words.
“I think he’s going to propose” she finally said. “Oh Lils, that’s so exciting” Remus said smile widening. “I think I’m going to say yes, I really love him Re.” Lily paused before continuing, “do you- how does this make you feel?”
Remus couldn’t help himself, he burst out laughing. Of course, she was checking in on him, she though James was going to propose, and she was checking on how he felt about it.
“Lily, I love James, and quite frankly I think you are perfect for each other. You don’t need to check with me, if you want to say yes, say yes.” Lily smiled and shook her head. “I know, I know. But I just get so in my head sometimes. It’s just nice to hear someone else confirm your own thoughts.” Remus nodded in agreement.
Lily picked her food back up, and for the rest of lunch they chatted about what a possible wedding would look like.
Back at home and feeling in a better mood he decided to revisit a rather exciting text…. Now just to think up what to say. Maybe start simple? He shouldn’t panic, he could do this. Opening his phone, he found that Sirius had texted more.
(Sirius):
I hadn’t meant to scare you off,
But it is true, I do like you, and am quite interested in you
I mean fuck, who wouldn’t be
Remus blushed. Was Sirius sure he had the right person? Did he know he was talking to Remus? I mean yeah, Remus knew he was attractive generally speaking but he didn’t think of himself as much of a catch.
(Remus):
You… you do know you’re talking to me, right?
As in Remus…
As in dorky, clumsy Remus who’s phone you took a picture on
(Sirius):
Yep! That would be the one
The incredibly hot, sexy, and beautiful Remus
who’s phone I took a picture on
Remus’ face was on fire. Sirius Black, Padfoot, had just called him hot, sexy, and beautiful. He was most definitely going to die of a heart attack his heart was beating so fast.
(Sirius):
Who I’d really like to go on a date with
If he would like that
(Remus):
He- I mean I, I would like that
(Sirius):
Good, how does Friday sound?
Friday, that was three days away. Holy heck was this really happening? Remus pinched himself. He was really about to agree to go on a date with padfoot.
(Remus):
Sounds wonderful
(Sirius):
Perfect,
Now back to this topic of nicknames…
(Remus):
Funny that you mention that
Me and James actually called you padfoot when we didn’t know your name
It’s on the back of your guitar
(Sirius):
Oh, that’s really quite wonderful
Hmm, what shall I call you
(Remus):
I don’t know if this helps but James has called me moony for forever
(Sirius):
Oh my gods
That is the cutest thing I think I’ve ever heard,
Aside from Remus that is
Your name has already been changed in my phone, it had to be done
You’ll have to tell me the story behind ‘moony’ sometime
(Moony):
You are such a dork
Of course I’ll tell you, it’s not very interesting though
(Padfoot):
Oh, I’m quite positive its riveting
Remus felt giddy. He had a date planned with Sirius Black, he had a date planned with Padfoot. Setting his phone down on his kitchen counter he set about prepping dinner. For the rest of the night, he couldn’t wipe the smile off his face.