Parties
“Regulus come on, it won't be that bad” Remus was trying to convince him to go to the stupid beginning of the year party.
Regulus hated parities, they were loud and obnoxious. He would much rather read or write poetry.
“No I’m not going for your boyfriend” regulus mumbled walking into the loo to brush his teeth.
“Ok first of all. He is not my boyfriend-“
“but you want him to be.” Regulus said, picking up his toothbrush.
Remus stayed silent and gave Regulus a look of disappointment, but his cheeks were pink so it's a win.
Regulus did think of going to the party, he knew that Remus didn’t want to be alone there. But he really did not want to witness them making out.
Later that night when Remus was getting ready regulus thought of the hockey player, the one with dimples and a soft smile. He was probably going to be there. Screw it he’s going.
“Remus I’m coming to your stupid party.” Regulus said and Remus practically jumped with confusion.
“what changed your mind?” He asked, pulling on his brown jumper.
Regulus just looked at him “nothing, if you keep asking I won’t come at all”
regulus showed up in a green jumper with some dark denim and a leather jacket. He looked fine.
They walked in there and it was a mess. The lights were messing with his eyes, and everyone was drinking and dancing.
then he saw 3 people jumping on the table, it was a blonde girl. The hockey player and- Oh shit. Long black hair, leather jacket, makeup. Fuck it was Sirius. Sirius black, his brother.
Regulus quickly got out of view of Sirius. He was panicking he felt like he couldn’t breathe, Remus didn’t notice that regulus had left him. So now he was alone, he started rubbing his hand across his chest to help calm down, he closed his eyes when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
He opened his eyes that were blurred by tears to see James. James had found him. He swallowed hard trying to keep calm.
“Regulus, are you ok?” James asked, he looked worried.
Regulus tried to choke out a ‘I’m fine’ but nothing came out.
“Hey, it’s ok. I’m gonna get you out of the party for now”
James stood up and helping Regulus to his feet, he swung Regulus's arm over his shoulder. James gripped his waist, making it harder for regulus to breathe. James’s hands were dangerously close to Regulus's lower waist.
James took him to a bathroom, but there was no one there, which was weird but I guess no one goes to this one.
Regulus was still playing with his fingers and rubbing his chest. James looked at him and took his hands in his.
“just breathe” James mumbled then showing an example, like he needed one. But James but James inhaled deep with his shoulders and then exhaled. Regulus stopped breathing completely, he’s pretty sure that his face is very very red and his palms are sweaty.
James huffs a small laugh and smiles at regulus. “Are you sure you're ok?” He says not letting go of his hands.
Regulus mumbles a mhm.
Regulus tries to stand up, but is immediately sat back down by James’s big hands.
”whoa there” he says pushing his shoulders down.
“I’m fine James” he spat out James raised an eyebrow at him but still looked just as warming as he did earlier.
“No you’re not regulus, you can keep telling me you are but you’re not” James was staring right into regulus’s eyes now and it was driving him nuts.
“You don’t even know me. How would you know if I’m okay or not?” Regulus huffed tilting his head for James to answer the question.
“I might not know you now, but I want to know you. I want to be your friend regulus, can’t you tell”James said just as soft as he always was. And Regulus didn’t know how to respond to him.
“I have enough friends” regulus pushes out of him because as much as he doesn’t want to be friends with James. It’s kind of impossible not to be like a magnet to him, and no one’s immune to it.
“Hey reg! Oh thank Merlin, I was looking bloody everywhere for you”
it was Remus, he quickly forgot he had come with Remus when he was spending all his time with James.
Remus looked at James for a second and furrowed his eyebrows.
“Hi I’m James” he said smiling and holding out a hand for Remus to shake, he did shake it obviously.
“Yeah I know, I’m Remus” he says giving a smirk. Remus looks flushed but not by James, something happened. And regulus knew it.
James started walking off but then he stopped in his tracks and turned around quickly.
“hey regulus, be careful ok?” James had said with a softer smile and voice. Regulus felt his cheeks heat up fast he felt-
“so. Want to tell me why you were with James potter” Remus says, raising his left eyebrow.
“Want to tell me why your face is pink Like a bubblegum wrapper?” Regulus says in a heavy sarcastic tone. “and what’s so special about him?” Regulus continues.
“Who?”
“James?”
“Ah, well since you live under a rock I’ll explain. James has a reputation for pranks and jokes at his old schools. he’s also super fit and on the hockey team, every girl and guy wants him or ‘needs him’ but he never talks to them. James is also incredibly rich”
Regulus has never been so confused in his life. “Wait- so why do you know all this?”
“Like I said, you live under a rock.”
“Shut up.” Regulus snaps, he feels a bit lightheaded “Can we go back to the dorms?”
“Yeah, is everything ok?”
“Fine. I’m just tired”
just as they were about to leave he saw James again and he was talking to some dark blonde bloke, regulus got shivers and felt his blood boiling.
***
“Jamesssss” James looked over and saw Peter with a beer in his hands.
Peter was definitely wasted, you could tell by his walk. Peter was one of his best friends, they grew up together way before Sirius jumped in the picture. Peter was shy and kind, he was softer than James but also had a very sarcastic attitude when it came down to things. He knew Peter would never betray him, we’ll expect for that one time on Halloween, Peter sold James and Lily out for skipping class. It was a one time thing and Peter said he regretted it in the end. James obviously forgave him though.
“Hey Pete, what’s up?” James asked, swooping the beer from Peter’s hand and replacing it with a cup of water.
“Sirius wants you to dance with him, he requested a ABBA song” Peter said, trailing off to look at Sirius who was talking to the DJ.
He sprinted over to Sirius and gave him a wink before jumping on the stage with a microphone on it.
James loved karaoke, so did Sirius. Now they were on a stage together, James was drunk but Sirius was completely gone.
James got excited when he heard the bringing of ‘Lay all your love on me’ suddenly he sees those grey eyes looking at him. James’s breath hitches. He feels the world stop completely, now it’s just him and Regulus looking at each other.
He feels like he could stare at Regulus forever, his pale shimmering skin, his light grey eyes. All of the folds in his face, the way his lips slightly part when he’s happy. His smile that lights up his whole face. His perfect hair that falls over his face perfectly. his slim structure, that makes him look so angelic.
James is woken from his trance by Sirius singing loudly, he jerks his head to look at Sirius. James looks back to regulus and just as before he was gone. He feels like his chest is fluttering, he smiles a bit to himself.
Then his eyes widened with confusion. Why was regulus making his chest flutter? The only one capable of doing that was Lily. Lily who he met when he was just 11 years old. Lily who is fierce and brave but also soft and kind. For some reason, James still feels hollow because she studies an art curriculum, and is at another college. But he doesn’t feel hollow like he did before, now when he thinks of Lily he thinks of a dear friend not the one he was in love with. What was Regulus doing to him?
James did karaoke with Sirius, but he couldn’t stop thinking about Regulus and how he was making James go crazy.