Loyal
"Crush na crush mo talaga ako love."
Tangina love daw.
Love
Ngh
There was silence on our table. Gulat kayo? Ako din ate Colet kaya wag mo akong tingnan ng ganyan. Almost 30 seconds of silence and then there was Gwen casually popping the bubble. Followed by the teasing remarks from the rest.
"Jho level up na pala?"
"Hala! Hala! Ano to ate Jho?!" sobrang oa ni Sheena, acting very surprised like some bomb just erupted somewhere near. Well a bomb just dropped!
"Jho wag kang tutunganga! Love pala ahhh" pang aasar ni ate Colet.
Jho hindi ka pinalaking ganito! I cleared my throat and sat properly, acting unaffected. Too late but so what?
"Pinagsasabi mo na naman Sevilleja? Alam kong crush na crush mo ako pero di mo naman sinabing love mo na pala ako ngayon?" I said smirking kahit ramdam ko parin ang init ng mukha ko.
That's right Jho! Lumaban ka!
I saw how her confident smirk faltered and her cheeks now with a hint of pink. That's right, di naman nila alam ang context bakit ka naglo love siguro. I can still save face!
"Papansin papansin" talaga? Wala ka ng ibang masasabi? Mahina ka pala Stacey.
"Pikon pikon pikon" pwes wala na rin akong ibang masabi. Pareho pala tayong mahina. Syempre sino ba namang di titiklop sa asawa ko? Luh!
"Parang mga bata!" natatawang sabi ni ate Colet.
"Staks upo na" natatawa paring sabi ni ate Aiah.
The table we are sitting is rectangular. 8 sitter siya, 3 each side magkaharap at tig isa naman sa other sides. Ate Colet is sitting next to me while Sheena and Gwen are seated on the opposite side. On my right is vacant at ganon din sa opposite which is katabi ni Gwen. Ate Aiah settled on the chair katabi ni Gwen. That would make only 3 chairs vacant. Isa sa tabi ko, isa adjacent ni ate, and isa sa opposite side nito.
Please wag kang umupo malapit sa akin. I looked at the side where ate Colet is seated. Baka dyan siya umupo, close naman sila.
Somehow that idea doesn't sit well with me so I cleared the things that were on top of the area near my seat. Umupo ka kung asan mo gusto.
She looked around and her eyes landed on the chair sa tabi ni ate Aiah. She shrugged and sat on it. I bit the inside of my cheeks to suppress my smile. Very good.
Now kanya kanya na sila ng pinag uusapan while I'm enjoying reading my book again. I looked up and found ate Aiah looking at me. She pouted and looked at the seat beside me. I raised my brow, trying to ask her. She stood up at lumipat sa tabi ko.
I caught Stacey's confused looks on ate Aiah's action. Our gazed briefly met pero agad naman siyang umiwas at sumagot sa tinatanong ni Sheena sa kanya.
"Jho miss ko na siya." Ate Aiah said in a whisper as she leaned closer to my ear.
Napatawa ako sa ginawa niya. Akala ko naman kung anong sasabihin.
"Jho seryoso kasi! Wag ka tumawa. Malala na to. Hindi na niya ako pinapansin ng 3 days." parang batang pagdadabog niya.
"Kawawa naman ang baby na yan" pang aasar ko sa kanya sabay hug. I know it seems like I'm brushing off her situation, pero kasi she needs to think about it on her own. Medyo matagal na din kasi silang ganyan. Hindi naman niya sinasabi yung side niya so wala rin akong idea ano ba dapat yung gusto niyang marinig mula sa akin.
"Jho PDA" si ate Colet na ngayon ay umustang nangdidire. Kala mo talaga hindi batak magpababy kay ate Maloi.
Kumulas ako sa pagkakayakap kay ate Aiah at lumipat kay ate Colet.
"Jhoanna babaero" si Gwen.
"Ate Jho, babae mo rin ako" nagtaas pa talaga ng kamay si Sheena.
"Bebe?!" oa na pala si Gwen?
"Mga baliw" natatawang sabi ko at umayos sa pagkakaupo. My gaze unconsciously shifted to Stacey who seemed so focused on her phone. Magkatagpo na yung kilay niya at nakanguso. Sobrang busy naman ata neto?
"Jho bat kasi ayaw mo magjowa, eh ang daming naghahabol sayo?" ate Colet asked casually.
"Hindi nga kasi ako interested"
"Yiiieee loyal lang yan sa crush niya" Sheena wiggled her brows as she said it with a teasing smirk. Ayan na naman siya sa crush agenda niya.
"Ay may love ka na nga pala" si ate Colet. Pag ako talaga bumawi hindi lang hiya ang aabutin niyo!
We all looked at Stacey's way, as if to see her reaction. She lifted her gaze and tilted her head, confused. And then her face suddenly lightened, a smirk slowly emerging.
Uh- ohhh
"Robles-" but before she could continue her teasing remarks, I cut her off.
"I don't do crushes, I'm not interested" you did well self, saying it straight without stuttering.
There was silence. And then sets of teasing words.
"Aweee deny pa Jho" ate Colet said, nudging my sides.
"Yiieeee hiya ka lang ate Jho ehh"
Now umiinit na naman yung tenga ko. No Jho! Act unaffected.
"Mali ka kasi Shee, sa akin loyal si Jho" ate Aiah said jokingly. Napatawa ako sa sinabi ni ate Aiah.
"Whatever" sanay na kasi ako sa mga ganyan niya. Other days, I would have answered her 'ikaw nga loyal sa 'lil sis/bff' mo'. But now I don't wanna open that topic again now that she's distracted.
The bell rang signaling the 10 minutes reminder before the next period starts. Everyone at the table started gathering their belongings but didn't stand yet. Malapit lang siguro mga buildings nila. Ate Aiah is now back on hugging me.
"Robles" napatingin ako kay Stacey.
She stood up and picked up her water bottle.
"Come with me."
"Huh?"
"I said come with me. Bingi lang?" she rolled her eyes. Duh? Nambibigla naman kasi.
"I mean baki kasi?"
"It's about the tour. Remember? Buddy system whatsoever" she said and turned her back to start walking. Luh? Attitude talaga.
"San ba kasi tayo mag uusap at kanina pa tayo naglalakad?" inis na tanong ko sa kanya. We've been walking for five minutes already and it seems like di pa kami nakakarating san niya gusto.
"Pwede naman itext na lang di ba?" I asked in a small voice.
She turned her heels back to face me with a straight face.
"Pwede naman sana, kung nagrereply ka lang" galit ba to?
"Oh, sorry. Busy lang" I said at nagpatuloy maglakad, leaving her behind. Am I guilty? I don't know pero nahihiya na ulit akong harapin siya.
"It's fine. Just respond next time." she said and caught up to me. Now we are walking side by side.
Awkward. Hanggang san ba kasi to?
"Okay. So? What do we do? According to miss MICE, tour diaries and reviews ang gagawin by pair di ba?" I said remembering the discussion.
"Miss MICE?" she said amused.
"Kahit teacher di mo tanda yung pangalan?"
"Well, kailangan ba? Not relevant" I said.
"Ahhh. Gets. So di mo matatandaan if not relevant." she said as if stating a casual fact she just learned.
"Kaya pala...." huh?
"Huh?" di ko kasi narinig. Pahina yung boses niya.
"Wala. I said i text ko nalang yung details at mga kailangan dalhin sa tour." she stopped walking and faced me. I did the same.
"Okayy?" di ko sure ano isasagot. Gulo pala nito.
"Okay" she said and continued to walk on the hallway. I looked around and saw na nasa M building na pala ako. Lucky for me I guess? Dito kasi yung klase ko ngayon. I knew I have class pero parang hirap naman tanggihan si Stacey. Talikuran ka ba naman agad, syempre susunod tayo.
Well, now I won't be worried about being too late. Kahit sanay naman akong late, sa first periods lang naman madalas.
The rest of the day, I ended up thinking about my interactions with Stacey. My reactions towards her are not normal. I haven't experienced it before. Do I know what this is? Of course I don't. At tamad akong isipin kung ano to. Kasalanan lang talaga to ng panaginip. That's right.
As I lay down to still, I'm wondering if mananaginip ba ulit ako. It's now Wednesday, 5 days after I last dreamt of my married life with Stacey. Hindi na ako nanaginip ulit ng ganon.
But I am curious though. Bakit kaya ganon yung panaginip ko. And it happened twice. Okay google ka sakin!
What does it mean when you dream about a person?
Dreaming about someone usually signifies that you are subconsciously thinking about them, processing emotions related to them, or that they represent a certain aspect of your own life or personality, reflecting your recent interactions, thoughts, or feelings towards that person; essentially, it's a way your subconscious mind is trying to make sense of your relationship with them or the qualities they embody.
Fake news! Google basher mo na ako ngayon! What do you mean I'm thinking about her? Fake news to!
Itinabi ko na yung phone ko pagkatapos mag set up ng alarm. I was about to take off my glasses and sleep when my phone vibrated.
I reached for it and smiled unconsciously on the notification.
Sevilleja buddy system
Tour details:
Tour diaries......
I opened her message and proceed to read. It is mostly consist of what we should do in the tour and the things to bring. It is an organized message, looking very formal. Very far from her last teasing chats calling me love and telling me to not ignore her message. Napanguso ako.
A funny idea came to mind and I can't help my smile. Kala mo ikaw lang marunong ahhh.
To: Sevilleja buddy system
Thank you.
Good night, love.
I closed my phone and throw it somewhere on my bed.
"Aahhhhhhh!" Gejsixbdksoskdnx
I don't do crushes. I'm not interested. So siguro hindi ko crush si Sevilleja.
Hindi ko siya crush.
Ping.
I stumbled to find my phone. My cheeks burned, my smile impossible to contain.
Sevilleja buddy system
Good night, love💕
Tang ina.
Hindi ko crush si Sevilleja.
Hindi ko lang siya crush.
I read it one last time. 'Good night love💕 '
'love 💕 '
Ngh
Love