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-2000-
~(Charley)~
It was the camping trip my senior year and it was just a normal day of bullying ever since high school started, I have been the butt of the joke and though I had friends in middle school they all dropped me when they realized I was gay. I have no intent on anyone ever finding out, but they did somehow, maybe a good guess because I feel as if you saw me walking down the street you would instantly know.

We got our groups assignments and oh course I was with the worst people. There was a name I didn’t recognize but I bet it will be the same out jokes and another early night with maybe a little crying because why not.

When we got to site, we all set up there was four of use and two tents so two to a tent, honestly, I expected there to be three to a tent and me alone because sleeping in the same tent with me would give them AIDS of something. But when we got there the two people, I knew made jokes but the others person didn’t I think it is because he doesn’t know me but still why didn’t he join in.

“Hey, can I sleep here with you” I was snapped out of my thoughts to see Emilio the new kid.

“Sure, if you really want to” and he got into the tent. We all went down for bed after setting up because it had been and long day and for one of the first times in high school someone decided to talk to me.

“So, what kind of music do you like”

I was caught off guard thinking this was some sick prank to catch me of something, but I wasn’t he was honestly talking to me without any intent of make a full of me.

“I don’t really know maybe Alanis Morissette”

“she’s cool and mostly listen to stuff like Pearl Jam if you want to listen with me that would be fine”

“Okay” for the rest of the night we just sat in our tent and listened to music and for the first time in a while I was at peace.

When I woke up, we were on opposite sides of the tent because we must have fallen asleep listening to music. As the trip went on, we must hung out because he didn’t really have any friends because he was new, and I didn’t because everyone hated me. We ending to riding home on the bus together and that trip marked both the best time of my life and the worst.

-2001-

I was hoping for Emilio’s sake that no one would notice. We have been dating for about 3 months in secret since after the trip and they were the best 3 months of my life.

Things were bliss we would hang out in the alley behind school and at his house because his parents were actually pretty progressive and let us hang out together in his room. And that went on for a good while until about a month before graduation when my whole life fell apart.

The only people who didn’t think of me as an abomination were Emilio and my parents and that day, I lost both. I had brought Emilio over to my house because I didn’t think my parents would be home and it’s not like they caught use kissing if anything like that, but they had come home, and we were on the couch. I should have just ran out the house and into the woods when Emilio said

“Hello, there is something me and Charley would like to tell you”

“What” I was in shock why would he say that

“it’s fine we should tell them”

“What should you tell us," said my father
At that moment I felt as if I could not move, so I didn’t I just sat there and watch my life fall apart.

“Me and Charley have been in a relationship for 3 months now”

“What do you mean by relationship” said my mother trying to act stupid because we all knew what he meant

“a romantic one” he said it like it was something so minuscule like it’s not a big deal to tell someone’s parents something like that

“get out” said my father in the stern tone he always talked in

To my surprise he did with hurry because right now it looked like he was the most confident person in this world.

“Honey that not true right” said my mother trying to comfort me because I think she could tell I was shell shocked

“No none of it please trust me mom” I had tears rolling down my cheek and I was acting like a bumbling foul, and I hoped to God my mother could not tell I was lying out my ass.

“Go to your room” my father said not like he hated me completely but like he was more than ferrous at me.

I went to my room and just cried myself to sleep as I listened to my parents fight endlessly on what to do about their son being a pervert.

When I woke up in the morning it was like nothing had ever happened and we never once talked out it since that day I hated Emilio with everything in my soul but I still loved him and I don’t know how and told him I hated him and never loved him but only half of that was true and I just wish so much that I was someone else because not once in my life have I felt proud of myself and I saw a future in something so stupid and I destroyed it completely by writing that stupid letter.

~BYE~