uni

-1994-
~(Yuri)~
It was my first day of 6th grade at a new school in a new state and I don't think I will survive here.
"Hello class because it is all your first day of middle school lets do some ice breaker so your name and a fun fact about yourself"
"Hi, I'm sara and I have three brother"
"Hey, I'm josh and I went to France this summer"
ice breakers are always boring and useless until
"Hi, I'm charley and my favorite candy is m&m's"
charley had the brightest smile I have ever seen, and I finally feel like my life can turn around because I think I have met the happiest person in this world, and I hope to God to hold this high because I feel as if when I fall down from it, I will crash and break into a million pieces.
"Your turn" said the kids next to me, oh god I have already made a foul out of myself because I can't not be a mess.
" Oh, hello I'm Yuri and I just moved here"
" that's interesting I hope you like it here Yuri" said the teacher but I could care less because the high is falling down and reality is setting that I will never have the chance to live this stupid fantasy of mine and I'm fine with that but it is just a terrible reminder that I will always be singled out maybe not in public but I will always know that I will be different from the person next to me. and while ever person is not the same, I so wish I was because I am too different to ever matter in this world.
I zoned out the rest of class because I bet none of it mattered really it was just the first day of rundown and to be honest, I zoned out really in every class until lunch because it was all the same. when we got to lunch, I didn't know where to sit and I had no friends, so I sat on the far end of the lunchroom in the corner. I didn't even get lunch which I should have but it was fine. I spotted charley with his friends because of course he had friends, who wouldn't be friends with him, and it's not that he was popular and mean to everyone he just had some close friends it looks like but even those who are not his friend he is nice to, he is nice to everyone and I just as if I'm going to explode because as far as I know I will have to endear this pinning for charley for the rest of school until college when I get to leave and never turn back, but until than I hope to just forget this all and stay by myself because the more I pay attention to him the more I sink into my soul and wish to have never moved here.
I got home from school and was greeted by my parents berating me with questions, but it was fine because I truly didn't have a lot to talk about, so I wasn't lying about not doing anything at school. my parents did also do their usual health check on me like I was going to die.
I went to my room after dinner because I was tired and I tried to go to sleep but of course I couldn't last the rest of the day without charley infiltrating my mind, I barley know the kid but felt like I wanted to know everything about him. I really did try to go to bed but after an hour of no sleep I just gave up and watched TV to get my mind off things and finally went to bed officially at an egregious hour of the night but at least the day was over.
~BYE~