Week 8
Jane had a rough night, she dreamed more of the baby from months ago, it seemed bigger and now was literally calling to her, though within the dream it was a fetus, so by all logic that shouldn't have been possible but dreams often did not care about logic.
jane was in the waiting room of the local clinic, apparently it had been brought out by someone named Dr.Richards, after the old owner a Dr.alma had passed.
which meant jane was going in to this appointment completely blind, jane couldn't help but notice the clinic was still extremely busy, every chair was filled with a woman holding maternity magazines, the music festival must of been really good, jane thought to herself.
she then picked up a maternity magazine and flipped through, she should of brought an actual book she thought, she would of used her phone but there were absolutely no cell bars at the clinic, so she had to take what she could get, she then saw a doctor that looked like he woke up on the wrong side of the bed, "nurse, get this line moving, I want everyone of these woman to get an ultrasound and then get out of my sight".
He said in a sneer, his voice reminded jane a bit of a doctor she once saw in a TV show, she remembered she hated that doctor, god this was going to be a nightmare, the nurse tried to say "but dr.richards, not all of them actually need ...." "who's the doctor here, me or you?", the doctor snapped back at the nurse, jane was feeling really bad for that poor nurse.
"You are Dr.richards", the nurse replied with a sight, "right, and that means I outrank you, ultrasounds now". The man walked into the back, presumably wait on patients, Jane decided she'd just go through with the ultrasound anyway to ease this poor woman's burden of dealing with that blowhard, it took a few hours still but finally when she was at of actually reading the magazine for the 5th time.
the nurse from earlier called, "Jane Ecco, we're ready for you", jane followed her into the back hallway, "please, tell me.i don't have to deal with Dr.dick today:. The nurse sighed, and said fortunately not, he thinks doing prenatal work is beneath him, I see in the file your a trans woman, no baby stuff for you then".
Jane laughed a pain laughed, the nurse was trying to make light but it still hurt, even if unintentional, she then heard a door open, and Dr.Richards lean out, and said "for the hell of it do her too, I did say every woman, she counts too" Jane was a bit confused on him now, so he was a jerk but not a transphobe, "but dr.richards, I really don't think".
The nurse tried to protest, "ah ah ah, outranked". Dr.richards interrupted, and then closed the door to the patient room he was in, Jane couldn't help but feel this man was rather childish, "it's fine, ill.do it, I've been having stomach issues anyway I lt really can't hurt to see what may be going on that way". The nurse looked exhausted at that, jane couldn't blame her.
they then did all the basics, tempature, blood pressure, height weight, and then the Nurse led her to a backroom, jane then said "I've been wondering a couple things before we start, what's your name? I would of looked at your name tag but your not wearing one, and why are you doing receptionist work if your a nurse?"
"It's nurse Jordan, and we're a small building and staff so some of us have to work double positions, please lift up your shirt, and im going to warn you now this is going to be cold" nurse Jordan warned her, and then put the gel around janes stomach and abdomen, and put the transducer on her.
they both heard it before they saw it, "that sound shouldn't be there, let me see if I cant find the source of..." nurse Jordan was about to say, and then they saw it a tiny little ball the size of a raspberry with arms and legs to its side, jane couldn't belive what she was seeing, that shouldn't have been possible, "what the fuck is that?" Jane shouted without realizing.
"you said you were a trans woman, are you sure you didn't forget to write down any medical condition we should of known about? and that is a baby, your baby", nurse Jordan said, "absolutely sure, I actually had an ultrasound for stomach issues when I was little, and that wasn't there before, I haven't had any period symptoms before starting HRT".
Jane replied, "actually hold on, there's something not quite right with this, I'm seeing Colors on the ultrasound as well, at first I thought it was around the lining of the uterus, but no those colors are the uterus which means the machine can see through it, which also shouldn't be possible, for good news the baby looks healthy and on track on what it should for 8 weeks".
Nurse Jordan explained. Jane couldn't tear her eyes off the screen, all she ever wanted was being given to her, but she also felt sick, she hadn't asked or consented to this, she desperately wanted a child, but she hadn't wanted one like this, she wanted to wait till science advanced enough where it was a choice for her.
not something an unknown universal forced upon her, she felt violated in a way, but also relived to know what was going on, she also still desperately wanted the child itself, this was a chance to do what many trans woman would kill for, then she remembered the dream she had the first week she got here, wait did she consent to this? Did that even count?.
She didn't know touching the northern lights baby would do this to her, She then Decided if this baby had any type of father and that, they'd be out of the picture, and then decided she'd see this baby to term, after all it wasnt like the baby itself had any say in the matter, nurse Jordan turned to her.
then asked, "did you perhaps fall asleep directly under the northern lights?, I originally chalked it up to superstition, but the idea around here is that they great the deepest desire of those who do, or sometimes teach them a much needed lesson, that's the only explanation I have for this, and I'd understand if you made a choice to end it here".
Jane took a minute to think, and said "I did fall asleep under the northern lights, and I'm going to see this baby be born" nurse Jordan nodded in support, and wiped off the gel of janes stomach, before saying, "alright, then we're going to need to do some blood work as well, and I'll also need you to fill these up, I know it's gross but it's important".
Nurse Jordan then handed her two cups, Jane entered the bathroom to do as instructed and then it hit her, she saw visions of the future, of taking care of a little life that would depend on her for everything, a little one she'd care for the rest of her life, it was daunting, but also exciting, she really hoped she could move past the how, the little one deserved that much.
she then realized she was going to need soooo much stuff, and had very little time to prepare, she also needed to let Mabel and Rachel know the situation so they'd give her maternity leave when it was time, so much stuff to do. Jane did her business and handed it to nurse Jordan and then followed her to do blood work. After everything was done, jane finally headed home, she had a lot to do and think about.