Week 9
Jane had been staring into the cup of tea that had been placed in front of her, nurse Jordan had given her a list of things she wasnt allowed to have now and coffee was on there, nurse had said because it was as an unusual pregnancy as it is.
Best not to take chances, along with coffee was also a seires of fish and obviously no alcohol, the she kept going back and forth if she'd actually be able to do this, she felt sure back in the doctors office.
there was so much stuff she had to take into consideration, she needed to find a second job along with the one she did for Rachel and Mabel, they paid ok.
But not enough for a mother and a baby, god that was so to surreal to her. She was going to be a mother, the idea had her head spinning. Did she even have the necessary skills to be a mom?, what were the necessary skills?.
She had so many problems, genetics wise, she'd guess it would be only hers, which meant the kid was likely to be a girl, she didnt even want to think of the implications a boy might of meant?.
God she didn't want to pass those problems to a kid, was it selfish of her to be going through with this?,She felt a tap on her shoulder and heard Rachel's say.
"hun you ok?, I know that look your having an anxiety about something, wanna tell me what it is?. Must be especially vexing if it's got you stuck staring into your cup of tea for 45 minuts".
Jane winced on that, she had gone past her 30 minute lunch break, oops. She had yet to tell Rachel and Mable the situation, how was she even supposed to have that conversation?.
"not really, I found out some news I'm really not sure how to feel about". Jane replied. "Good news or bad news?" Rachel asked. Jane sighed. Then replied "Both, kinda?".
Rachel got a sort of stern look on her face, before saying, "alright enough beating around the bush, ya gotta tell me what the news actually is, or I can't help you". Rachel had a point there Jane thought.
"I don't think your going to belive it, I certainly didn't at first, but there's no denying what I saw either, or these". Jane pulled out pictures of the ultrasound from a week ago. Rachel looked at her confused. "
You got someone pregnant?, who?. I haven't ever seen you look at someone like you'd want to sleep with them". Rachel said, then Jane Groaned out.
"Look again, those aren't normal ultrasounds, if you look closely you can see flecks of color which shouldn't be able to appear on ultrasounds, the baby is mine". Rachel's face seem even more confused now, "I know that it's your baby, but that doesn't tell me who the mother is". Rachel said.
Jane just face palmed, before finally realizing she'd have to be blunt, and nearly, "I'm the mother, I'm pregnant!". Rachel sat for a second face in shock, then said "jane you said your a trans woman, how can you be pregnant?, that doesn't make any sense?.
Jane could tell she was trying to understand but failing.
"I only have one explanation, and well here's the bad news, and this Is going to sound silly but I think it was an aurora borealis incident like the ones Mabel was talking about, that's the bad part". Rachel took a breath, it didnt seem like she was going to belive jane despite the evidence.
Though it seemed she was going to indulge jane anyway, "ok why is it the bad part?" Rachel asked, jane frowned then said.
"because i technically never got asked if i wanted this, it was just decided for me, its completely messed up, and I'm very not much happy of the how it happened, but I'm happy with the aftermath?." Jane took a breath and continued.
"This is an amazing opportunity but it feels tainted I guess, like if I was just asked in a way I could of clearly said yes or no, then I guess I would of been completely fine with it"
Rachel then gave Jane a sad look that Jane couldn't quite place. And put a hand on janes, and said "You should of gotten a choice, it's not fair you didn't. And me and Mable will help you in anyway you say you need, we're here for you".
Jane could tell there was some disbelief in Rachel's voice, almost as if she were placating her out of pity for something, but with how crazy it sounded she couldn't really blame her. Jane decided not to push it further. "Thank you". Jane replied.
Jane went back to her shift, but noticed Rachel was watching her with a look of worry every time she went to the restroom, the worry seemed to deepen every time she did, which was a lot.
apparently even at that little the baby decided it wanted to push on her bladder every time it got, jane was unsure how accurate that thought of hers was, but figured if other pregnant woman could say it even if wasn't quite true as of yet, she could too.
The other more unpleasant part of the day was working with a headache and stuffed nose.
She was more exhausted by the end of the day as well, Mabel had found her passed out in the breakroom after shift, and jane had unfortunately ended up snapping her and then quickly ushering a teared filled apology.
She hoped Rachel wouldn't be too mad at her for that.
Jane then headed back to the clinic, apparently nurse Jordan wanted to keep an eye on her and the baby on weekly basis now, due to the unusual circumstances of the pregnancy.
Jane was thankful nurse Jordan still seemed to be handing most of the procedure, she wouldn't have known what she'd have done if doctor dick, the name she was going to keep calling him in her head, came anywhere near her.
The baby was now a size of a cherry, and kinda looked like a lima bean. It felt like it was growing fast, jane considered now might be time to consider a list of names.
She didn't have anyone to brain storm about this with, so she'd have to do it on her own. She knew one name that was right out, aurora, she didn't want to be reminded of the how her baby came to be.
She supposed she still had about 7 months left to figure it out.