Chapter 2
Severus startled awake by the feeling of something tugging at her… down there. She gasped when that tugging became soft nipping on her folds, and she covered her mouth with her hands when a treacherous moan abandoned her the moment something wet caressed her insides. Soon, hands joined that wet thing inside her and she was reduced to a sobbing mess, it didn't matter how much she tried to control herself, moans and gasps and little mewls left her throat unauthorized; not even her hands could soften the sounds she was making. Out of their own free will, her hands snapped to her sides like rubber bands and clenched the bedsheets when she felt a particularly well placed suck on her clit, and she felt something wet slip out of her the moment those fingers and the wet thing returned to her insides. She wasn't capable of containing the sob that left her, or the way her breathing quickened and the way her eyes clenched shut or the stars she saw behind her eyelids.
She felt dizzy… drunk with that feeling that was starting to scare her.
"You okay, love?" someone whispered in her ear. Severus could only make out a red courtain of hair and freckles framing green eyes, but she didn't recognize the person immediately. She was feeling satiated and drowsy, she wanted to go back to sleep, but the thing above her stole a kiss from her that snapped her out of that comfortable haze. Severus couldn't stop herself from moaning when hands caressed her over her clothes, or when the mouth above hers coerced her to return the kiss. Severus pushed weakly against the chest of the person above her and then everything that had happened the night before came rushing back to her.
She pushed harder, making Lily fall from the bed and she scooted back on it until she hit the wall, feeling her face flush with blood out of embarrassment when she felt the cold morning air hit directly on her privates. She managed to tug a bedshit to cover herself with.
"Are you looking for these?" asked Lily with a raised eyebrow, holding Severus' knickers and skirt on her hand. Severus was sure that if any more blood rushed to her head, she'd be nosebleeding soon.
"Give them back." she ordered, glaring at the Gryffindor girl for good measure.
"Come on, Sev, don't be a killjoy." said Lily, pouting but raising from the floor and walking predatorily towards Severus. "We were having lots of fun, weren't we?" she asked with obvious lust. When Severus reached her hand to take her clothes, Lily just threw them away, across the room. "You taste amazing, love…" she whispered, and captured Severus's face to steal a kiss from her.
"We… We shouldn't have done that…" said Severus after Lily let her go. She saw how the girl's eyes darkened and her jaw clenched. Lily cornered her against the wall, managing to slot herself between her parted thighs. Severine tried to close her knees, but Lily's hands stopped them and she came even closer.
"Don't you ever say that again." she whispered darkly, raising a hand to touch Severus' cheek. "I know I still need to prove myself to you, but what happened yesterday was not a mistake. I have wanted you for so long, Sev… Please, don't push me away…" said Lily. Their faces were too close that if she inclined her head in just this way she could kiss Severus, so she did. Of course she noticed that it was as if Severus were hypnotized every time Lily was this close to her, so she took that advantage and slipped one of her hands down the bedsheet to play with Severus while the other kept her head in place as she kissed her to her heart's content.
The soft moans and gasps that Severus couldn't control were music to Lily's ears. She wanted to pin Severus down and make love to her body until she learnt of every beauty mark, every crevice, every scar the girl posessed…, she wanted to know what made Severus scream in pleasure and what made her go wild… She wanted to hold her down and push herself deep within her until Sev screamed Lily's name… Maybe, if she could be stealthy enough, she could make Narcissa Black tell her how she made herself spring a cock out of nowhere. She thought about it during the night. If she had a cock, she could keep Severus on it, bouncing up and down, chasing her own pleasure. Or take her from behind, or make Severus hold her own legs to her chest while Lily worked her cock inside, pistoning this and that way to find her sweet spot and make her cum on her cock alone…
Her hand worked faster, her fingers felt like they were being sucked inside Severus by the clenching of her walls and Lily moaned into the kiss, bringing her other hand down to push her skirt up and her own knickers out of the way. She started rubbing herself, how she wished she could give herself a cock to wet it with Severus' juices and push inside. Lily pushed her own fingers inside herself and moaned again into the kiss. Se soon felt hesitant hands around her shoulders, so she opened her eyes to see Severus trying to find purchase in her. Their kiss was momentarily forgotten. Lily nearly came just by watching Severus hesitantly rub one of her nipples over her shirt…
She needed to see Severus pleasure herself, but that would be for another ocassion. Lily kissed down Severus' cheeks, her jaw, until she reached that delicate column of white, transluscent skin that was Severus' throat, she nipped and kissed and licked the skin there, traveling up and down on it until she reached Severus' earlobe and tugged it into her mouth. Severus came. Lily, upon realization hit that she had just found one of Severus' erogenous zones, came too. So hard that she shook with the force of it, involuntarily pushing her fingers deeper into Severus, making her shudder and moan Lily's name again.
It was addictive.
By the time Lily managed to drag herself away from Severus, both were starving. Lily rose on shaky legs and fetched her wand, then summoned Severus' knickers and skirt and proceeded to dress her. Severus felt embarrased, but Lily was not going to waste any opportunity to touch that soft skin.
Neither spoke when Lily took down the wards, or when Lily dragged Severus to the kitchens, or when the elves brought them their food. Neither spoke even after they finished their meal and arrived to the main hall of the castle, right where their paths were supposed to separate.
"I know you're not sleeping in your dorm, so, where are you staying?" said Lily, taking Severus' hand in hers and pulling her closer when the other girl started to back away from her.
"I… uh…" Severus was not one to stutter. Things must be really awkward if she didn't want to tell Lily, but she waited patiently, not allowing Severus to walk away from her. Severus hid her face behind her long, dark courtain of hair. "Madame Pomfrey is allowing me to sleep in a makeshift room in the infirmary in exchange for some potions…" she managed to hear. Lily only raised an eyebrow.
"Well… let's go there." Severus hesitated, but after realizing that Lily would not budge, she nodded and started walking towards the hospital wing.
When they arrived, Madame Pomfrey looked at the girls in surprise, and raised a questioning eyebrow when she saw how Lily's hold tightened around Severus' hand. Lily only smiled at the mediwitch and allowed Severus to tug her further into the wing, only muttering a good morning to the older witch.
They stopped in front of what Lily assumed was a closet. And she was right. Once Severus opened the door, she realized that the 'makeshift room' was barely bigger than a cupboard. There was a small cot shoved against one of the walls and Severus' battered trunk shoved against the other, there was barely any space to move inside and there were no windows at all… Lily felt her anger burn hot anew towards Narcissa Black.
"How long have you been living here?" she asked, careful that her voice didn't betray her anger. She saw Severus shuffle her feet in embarrasment and mumble something that she didn't hear. "Sorry?" she asked, making Severus huff at having to repeat herself.
"The whole year… the memory you saw… It was during the first week of classes. Narcissa kicked me out and Greengrass threw my trunk outside to 'deliver the message'." Lily felt her rage burn hotter.
"Did you tell Slughorn about it? Does Madame Pomfrey know?" Lily asked. Severus only shook her head in the negative. Lily frowned. "Why not?"
"What would they be able to do against them? Punish them?" Severus scoffed. "Slughorn at best pretends I don't exist, at worst pits me against the whole house. If I said the reason why they kicked me out, no one would believe me and Narcissa would make sure to finish what her dear cousin failed to do…" Severus sat heavily on the cot, making room for Lily to take a seat too.
Lily would make sure to put Black and Greengrass in their places, but first she found she needed to feed her gossipy side.
"What I don't understand is why Narcissa and Emily Greengrass were fucking… I mean… Isn't Black engaged to Malfoy?" Lily thought that Severus blushing at the mention of the F word was cute, but now was not the time…
"Narcissa doesn't love Lucius, and Lucius doesn't love her either, but they are engaged since they were little. Narcissa is in love with Emily and Emily reciprocates, but neither of them are heirs to their families. If Narcissa was the heir of the Blacks and their marriage contract were different, she could easily break the engagement to Lucius and take Emily as her consort, or the other way around. The magic in the marriage contract is binding. They can't break it, but I guess they can take concubines. At least that's what Lucius has told me when he wants to talk about his relationship with Narcissa." Severus shrugged. "He's always been nice to me and he says that he trusts me… He really doesn't want to marry her, and he's told me that if he could, he'd break the engagement and take the woman he loves as his wife, but she's not a pureblood so he would need to produce an heir with Narcissa before he can even think of wooing this woman he loves."
For a moment, Lily felt like they were in the old times, where they used to gossip about everything and everyone, until that last bit made sense in her brain. So that's why Malfoy always seemed to be around Severus… why he was always gifting her sweets or things she needed, or just nice things that seemed to have no meaning… Lily looked around the tiny room and noticed that in one of the corners was a small shelf. There were some pictures there, placed in small frames. She reached out for them.
The first one was the only picture Severus had of her mother. Eileen was sitting on an armchair with her Hogwarts uniform, the green and silver tie around her neck was the same Severus used to this day. Severus took the picture from her hands and smiled sadly at it, Eileen smiled shyly back at her. The next picture was of Lily and her when they got their Hogwarts letters. Lily's dad had taken it with his muggle camera. The last one was a wizard picture, one that held Severus, Lucius and some other people from Slytherin. Lily hated it and wanted to burn it.
In the picture, Lucius was standing next to Severus, but he was not looking at the camera like the rest of them. He was looking at Severus with his stupid ice blue eyes full of love for Sev, his smile was tender and sweet… then he turned around and sneered at Lily while reaching out an arm and placing it around Severus' shoulders.
Now Lily understood why Malfoy had never liked her. Well, he would have to live with his insipid fiancé and the knowledge that Lily would soon be marrying Severus. But, something that intrigued her also was… was Severus really that oblivious? Didn't she know that the woman Malfoy was talking about was Severus herself? Well, Lily wasn't going to be the one to open her eyes, that's for sure…
"Hm… what a mess is the pureblood society…" Lily muttered for Severus' ears only. Severus only shrugged again.
"It's either marrying who you're told to, or end up like my mother…" Severus ran a delicate finger around the frame of Eileen's picture. "Last year I found out that she was set to marry Orion Black. Their contract was binding so the only thing my mother thought of to circumvent it was run away with the worst kind of muggle and get pregnant."
"How did you find out about it?" Lily asked, trying not to flinch at Severus' self deprecating tone.
"Orion Black came to the school after… after the 'prank' Black.. Sirius… pulled… The kind of contract my mother had to fulfill is the kind that binds the bloodlines. If Eileen and Orion didn't marry, then their heirs would have to marry." Severus let that information sink in. "If my mother had eloped with another pureblood, I would have been married off to Sirius Black the moment I turned 18." Lily saw a shiver run down Severus' spine. "Thankfully, the Blacks are too strict regarding the purity of their blood, and since I'm the last person alive to carry the blood of the Prince family, and a mudblood at that, Orion declared the contract void, since there is no suitable pureblood scion of the House of Prince to fulfill it."
Lily was thankful for life's small mercies.
They spent the remainder of the morning reacquainting with each other and Lily managed to get some valuable information, like the fact that Malfoy had offered Severus a place to stay after graduation, he had also offered to pay for her mastery in potions in the continent if no one in Britain wanted to accept her. Lily knew, from Severus' longing face, that she wanted to accept, but she hadn't said a word because she was sure that she would have to repay Malfoy one way or another. Severine thought that, at best, she would have to lend her services as Potions Master to Malfoy's cause, and Severine wasn't all that sure she wanted to go down that path. Lily knew that, most likely, Malfoy would try to use it as leverage to tie Severus to him if he ever came clean with his feelings and Severus rejected him.
Lily offered her an alternative.
"Why don't you come live with me?" Severus looked at her like she was mad. "I won't be going back to my parents' house if that's what you're thinking. Ive been accepted as an intern while I apprentice for a mastery in an apothecary in London. I signed the contract last month and received my first pay, I already rented a flat in Diagon Alley and I can support you while you find something yourself… If things don't work out, I can always bring you up to my superiors, I'm sure they would love to pick your brain for an adequate amount of money…" She saw Severus' eyes shine with hope and, for just a moment, Lily thought that everything had worked out fine, until Severus narrowed her eyes and turned to look at her. Of course. Severus didn't trust her anymore.
"What would you want in return?" Severus mumbled. She and Lily weren't friends anymore, so there must be something Lily wanted…
'You, everyday, sitting on my face' That's what Lily wanted to say, but she knew Severus would just push her away, and for all that Severus could be a vicious little shit, she was the biggest prude to ever walk the earth. She still didn't know how Severus hadn't cursed her for touching her like that.
"You know I would never ask for anything in return, Sev. We are friends, and now we are a couple…" she saw Severus' eyes widen in surprise… wait… "Don't tell me you thought I just took you and wouldn't be taking responsibility?" Lily narrowed her eyes when Severus didn't respond. "Severus… I…"
"I thought it had just been a whim on your part… you're dating Potter, after all…" she saw how Severus deflated and casted her eyes down trying to hide from her. Well, yes, it had been a whim on Lily's part, but a whim that had been there for a long time and Lily suspected would be there long after… but to think that she and Potter… ughh…
"Why would you think I'm dating Potter…?" she asked, making sure to show the disgust in the inflections of her voice. "That pig is as unattractive as al fly. Sure he's handsome and rich, but all the money in the world and all his good looks could never make up for the shit of a person he is. Besides…" Lily scooted closer to Severus and placed a hand behind her to support her weight while she leaned in in front of Severus, raising her other hand to brush her dark hair back and lift her chin to make those dark eyes look at her. "Wasn't yesterday and today's morning enough to show you who I really want? Hm?" she asked, leaning in and placing a soft kiss on Severus' lips.
Severus sighed, as if releasing the tension, and Lily smiled. "I'm not going anywhere without you, Sev, so you've got two choices. Either you come with me willingly, or I drag you with me. I won't let you go." She kissed Severus in earnest, not giving her time to think of anything else.
When she released Severus, the girl touched her lips delicately. Lily just looked at her and could practically see the cogs in her brain working. "Do you…" Severus cleared her throat. "Do you really want me?" she shyly asked.
"Yes." Lily didn't hesitate to answer. "I want you. I love you, Sev… And I'd like for us to have a future together. I will be here for as long as you want me." she smiled a besotted smile to Severus, who hesitantly raised one of her hands and put it on Lily's cheek, caressing her.
Severus took a deep breath and nodded, more to herself than at Lily. "I… I accept… but… will your parents be okay? I know your mom doesn't like me…" Severus said. Lily only shrugged.
"Honestly, what they think doesn't matter much to me. My mom will surely have a fit, but if she can't accept us then it's her loss. I won't give you up just to spare her fucking sensibilities, love. And my dad… well… I suspect he's always known, even before I did, that I love you… He's always asking how you are and if I'm being nice to you." Lily's eyes turned sad, so Severus leaned in and kissed her cheek. Lily internally grinned to herself, things would go the way she wanted, after all. "It was hell these two past years, pretending that I didn't care for you and not knowing how you were… It was torture every time I thought of you and knew that I had lost you due to my own stupidity…" Severus then kissed her soflty on the lips. "I'm sorry for how I acted towards you, love… I'm really sorry that I never did more to protect you." Of course Lily was sorry, she wished she could turn back time and kick herself for how stupid she had been, but she needed to wrap Severus around her fingers, a little bit of showing her most pityful persona wouldn't be amiss…
"I… I forgive you… I also want to apologize for…" Severus swallowed with difficulty. "for calling you… that word…" She was ashamed, Lily could tell. It didn't matter anymore, all Lily wanted to do was pin her down and eat her out again. Control, Evans! Now's not the time!
"There's nothing to forgive, baby." Lily kissed her again. "So, it's all set. We'll move in together once we graduate."
They spent the rest of the day together. They went to Hogsmeade and then returned for dinner, surprising everyone when Lily pulled Severus into her by the waist and almost hoised her to make her sit at Gryffindor table next to her, kissing her whenever possible, letting everyone know that Severus was hers and she was off limits for everyone else. Of course Lily didn't miss how the headmaster frowned when he saw them together, or the way Potter's face contorted in heartbreak when Lily told severus, a little bit too loud, that she loved her.
After dinner, Lily accompanied Severus to her cupboard… How she hated leaving her there, but for the moment she couldn't do anything. The girls in her dormitory had always been mean to Sev and Lily really didn't want to curse them lest she gets herself exposed. After making sure that Severus was safely tucked in her 'room', Lily marched towards the dungeons.
She wandered the corridors with the excuse of her patrolling duties when she found Narcissa and Emily making out in a classroom. She ordered Greengrass to her common room but requested to speak with Narcissa.
"And why should I obey a mudblood, mudblood?" Asked Greengrass in her most petulant voice. She honestly didn't know what Black saw in her, the girl was an idiot and she wasn't even pretty. Her eyes were small and a shade of green that reminder Lily of mucus, her nose was too wide near her eyes and too small at the end, and her lips were so thin Lily doubted Narcissa could even kiss her properly. But the Blacks had always been a weird lot…
"Because this mudblood can turn your little affair with miss Black into a big problem for you both…" she replied. She saw that Narcissa wasn't peeved by her threat, but Greengrass stiffened. Maybe she had more to lose than Black… Interesting… The ugly girl just huffed and left, not even sparing Black a glance; the blonde only looked at her retreating back in surprise.
Lily managed to cast an Imperio on the tall girl, careful that Greengrass didn't see. She waited until the other's steps couldn't be heard and then casted a privacy ward around them. This was the first time Lily casted the curse, and it felt like electricity running through her veins, she could order Black to throw herself from the astronomy tower and she'd obey, no questions asked… But Lily wasn't interested in fragmenting her soul… She looked into Narcissa Black's vacant blue eyes and, once she was sure that the spell took hold, spoke.
"Tell me what spell you use to give yourself a cock… and explain to me how it works." Lily knew this was not a priority, but she wanted it out of the way before she started with the real orders.
"It's a spell that's been in my family for generations." Spoke Narcissa, devoid of all emotion. "Women in my family used to use it in times of war, when men were scarce. It changes the anatomy of the woman completely for as long as the person wants the spell active… a few minutes, to a few days… The womb mutates into male functional organs, the vagina transfigures into a real penis, but that's the only thing affected. After the spell is released, the body returns to normal. It isn't harmful for the body so it is possible to keep it active during prolonged periods of time." Narcissa then lifted her skirt and pulled her undergarments down, just enough to show Lily the chant and how it worked. Lily's eyes grew big with amusement when she saw how Narcissa's vagina shifted and testicles dropped, and how her clit enlarged and in its place was now a soft penis.
"Figures you'd be blonde all over…" muttered Lily. She confirmed two things then. One, she really, really needed to test this spell on herself, she wanted Severus bouncing on her cock as soon as possible; and two, she wasn't attracted to men, but she wasn't attracted to all women either, only Severus could do it for her. Good. She had no plans to part from Severus anytime soon.
"You can return yourself to normal." Lily ordered, and Narcissa showed her how to terminate the spell.
"You will terminate you liaison with Emily Greengrass. She doesn't love you anyway. You will marry Lucius Malfoy, you will make him fall in love with you and you will fall in love with him in return. You will also convince him to stop pursuing Severus Snape and to quit that madness of the Death Eaters. It will only bring you and your family grief in the long run." said Lily. Narcissa only nodded like a dumb puppet.
"Fine. You will endeavor to become a better person and treat purebloods, half-bloods and muggleborns as your equals, and you'll do everything in your power to subtly try to change the views of your peers as well…" Lily doubted for a second, but then went on. "You will also gift Severus Snape with an appropriate apology gift for treating her like dirt. It will be expensive, something that Severus can use to either better her economic situation or keep as a heirloom, and you will also extend to her a recommendation letter for a potions mastership in the name of the House of Black, noting Severus' capabilities in the subject." Narcissa nodded again. "Very well. You won't remember that this meeting happened, but you will heed my words, or you won't like what will happen if you don't."
Lily released the spell and Narcissa fell to the ground, dizzy.
"Are you okay?" asked Lily in a worried tone. "I was patrolling the corridors and saw you fall…" she said when Narcissa turned to look at her in confusion. The blonde girl only nodded. "Do you need me to help you to the hospital wing?"
Narcissa shook her head in the negative. "I'm probably just tired. It's been an awful week…" Lily helped her stand, both women were of the same hight, but Lily found that she was slightly broader than Narcissa. Both standing at 1.78 m tall, it was easy for Lily to put her arm around the oher girl and guide her to her common room.
"Thank you… for helping me, Evans." whispered Narcissa, still dazed and confused. She had never been particularly nice to the mud-… muggleborn girl, but she had never been outright nasty towards her… and she could recognize that Evans was one of the strongest witches she knew, she was also kind and intelligent… maybe not all mud-… muggleborns were like they made her believe…
Lily only nodded. She waited until the door to the Slytherin common room opened and Narcissa got inside, then left in search of Severus. She was pleased with herself, and how she so wanted to share that pleasure with her…