september 1st 1974.
September 1st 1974. 11:14am
If fourth year sucks I am becoming a drop out. I'm on the train there right now and I haven't seen Lily Evans. This year is the year I get the girl, I swear on it. I have the confidence to ask her out - in fact I had before, except she said she's not ready for a relationship and to ask another time. It's been 9 months now.
Sirius told me we might see more of his little brother Regulus though, he didn't specify why. I didn't ask. Regulus hates me and honestly I'm not sure why. I've only been kind to him, to try to welcome him into my life but he doesn't want it. I know how his parents are but I would never do anything like that to him. I want to make it better. Mum bought Sirius his textbooks for his classes because she knew his mother would never do that for him. I wish he could come live with us, offering him support is so difficult. Is that too selfish? I don't know what it's like in that situation but he seems to take comfort in what I say.
Moony has a full moon coming up later, he's resting and if he wakes up I might just drug him to sleep. No, I'm joking. I love my friends but Remus needs the rest, he always ends up sleeping for far too long than is healthy after a full moon or if it's a really bad one then he doesn't sleep because of the pain of his injuries. I think Sirius stayed up with him last time that happened.
Me, pads and wormtail chipped in to buy him literally 6 bars of his favourite chocolate and I'm pretty sure he's holding one as he sleeps. Last week, I started thinking about why he likes chocolate so much but I genuinely couldn't figure it out. Maybe it's something to do with his lycanthropy or Oh my god. Chocolate poisons wolves.
Chocolate.
Poisons.
Wolves.
Does he know this? Is that why he eats it, to get rid of the werewolf? Or is it a side effect of his body or something trying to get rid of the werewolf. Why are all my friends borderline depressed? If I could take all their pain I probably would, it couldn't get much worse for me, surely?
Anyway, fourth year. This year is going to be Gryffindor's year for the house cup (if I don't get kicked off for not catching up on my homework again) UM. They can't kick me off. I'm the captain, the best they've got. I don't like to boast but I'm going to because is it really boasting if its the truth?
I have to take astronomy, charms, defence against the dark arts, herbology, history of magic, potions and transfiguration. AND minnie is my teacher. I need my timetable right this second if I have no classes with any of the others then we will get it changed. There's no way they'll separate us because we are just too cool.
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11:39am
I just saw Regulus walk past. His freckles have never been more prominent, but he scowled at me. Sirius went to go talk to him, I don't know what they're saying. It's not my business. Moony and Padfoot seem closer recently, Wormtail noticed too. I'm really hoping I can talk to Peter about it without the others at some point because I know Sirius is the most bisexual man to ever exist even if he hasn't said it and Remus has come out as fully gay. So MAYBE. There's absolutely no way they're a thing. It'd be crazy if they were, the drama could be insane. I don't want drama really, I just want to pull silly pranks with my friends.
Pete just woke up and we are coming round to Hogwarts now so I think I'm gonna leave it there. Hopefully I can keep up with this diary.