James
James woke up to an empty bed, groaning as he felt around for the dark-haired boy. But he was gone. James sat up and looked around for…something. He didn’t find anything. Not a note. Not a piece of clothing. Nothing. As if last night didn’t even happen.
James ran a hand over his face, tears welling in his eyes. But, come on, what was he expecting? He couldn’t just sleep with the Regulus ‘man-whore’ Black and expected him to fall in love with him. Also, he was Sirius’ brother, even if something were to happen Sirius would never allow it.
James got out of bed and found some clean boxers and walked into the bathroom, getting ready to shower. He turned on the water letting the freezing cold water hit his skin. James wanted to scrub the feeling of last night off of his skin.
Last night.
It was incredible. Never in James’ life did he think he could have the opportunity to hook up with Regulus. I mean, yeah, James has loved him for his whole life. James loved Regulus before he became a celebrity. James had loved Regulus for so fucking long. So, when Sirius was invited to Regulus’ movie premiere and was able to bring an additional guest, James jumped at the chance. He hadn’t seen Regulus in so long.
They talked all night. They flirted. James took him back to his home and they fucked.
And that was that.
But, fuck, how stupid James was to think that it was going to mean nothing when it meant everything.
He remembers the words they exchanged last night.
“This doesn’t mean anything, alright?” Regulus panted, as James' mouth at his neck.
“Alright,” James responded.
He stepped out of the shower and checked his phone for the time.
Reg 2 Notification
James' heart fluttered.
Reg
Last night was fun. Maybe we could do it again?
I’m free tomorrow night…if you're up for it?
James felt his heart squeeze.
Me
Im free tmr.
That was all he said.
~~~
James stared at the news article on his phone.
Actor Regulus Black Spotted in New York Making Out with Actor Kingsley Shacklebolt.
James felt sick. He and Regulus were together just two nights ago. A routine that had been going on for more than James would like to admit.
“I'm so stupid,” he whispered to himself. Turning off his phone and tossing it on the bed.
It buzzed.
Regulus was calling him.
James scrambled to answer it, “Hello?”
“Hi, baby,” a voice spoke on the other line.
“Hi, Regulus,” James swallowed, unsure of what to say.
“So, I was wondering when's the next time you're free. I’ve been so lonely here in New York,” he said seductively.
James rolled his eyes, “Well, I've seen you haven’t been too alone.”
James heard Regulus laugh lightly on the other line, “Nobody fucks me like you.”
He should've just stopped it right there. Told Regulus that he couldn’t do it anymore and that they shouldn't see each other anymore. But he didn’t.
“When do you get back?”
“Tomorrow morning, but I have a few meetings to go to. Maybe you could meet me at my house at ten?” Regulus purred.
If James knew what was good for him, he would have said no, but James Potter is a weak man when it comes to Regulus.
“Sure baby, see you then. I have to go,” James spoke into the phone and hung up, not waiting for a response.
James cursed at himself, Why am I so fucking stupid?
~~~
It was one in the morning, and he laid awake in Regulus’ massive bed, the younger boy curled up against his chest. James stared at the ceiling as Regulus’ phone was blowing up. Annoyed, James reaches over to turn it off. He glances at the screen.
Benji 12 Notifications
Kingsley 3 Notifications
Gid 7 Notifications
Oh.
James felt those stupid tears flood his eyes. Carefully, James peeled Regulus limbs off of him and got out of bed. He pulled on his pants and hoodie before walking out on Regulus’ balcony.
It was a beautiful view. And maybe in another universe James could enjoy it with Regulus. He leaned against the railing, looking down at the busy street. It was one am on the weekend, of course people were out living their best lives.
James couldn’t hold it anymore. He began to sob. Not the loud, dramatic sobs, but the quiet ones. The ones that shook your whole body because you fought so hard to make sure those tears wouldn’t spill.
What were you thinking? That he would fall in love with you? Please. What about you makes you so loveable? You’ve always been too much.
I thought something would happen… I don’t know.
You’re an idiot.
The voices flooded his mind as sobs racked his body.
He felt an arm slip around his waist, “Hey baby, what are you doing?”
James felt his body tense up. How many guys did Regulus call ‘baby’? The thought made him sick.
“Are you crying?” Regulus’ voice said.
James turned his face away from him, wiping his eyes.
“If you come to bed, I can make you feel better,” Regulus whispered in his ear, his hand moving to the button on James’ jeans.
At that moment James decided that enough was enough. He tore Regulus’ hand off of him and backed away from the actor. James saw Regulus’ face shift, various emotions crossed his face. Annoyance, hurt, confusion.
“I can’t do this anymore. I can’t pretend this doesn’t mean anything when to me it means everything.”
“James, what are you talking about?” Regulus asked, folding his arms across his chest.
“This!” he gestured between the two of them, “I can’t do this. Not when I know you don’t feel the same way about me!”
James pushed past him, making his way inside the room. Hurriedly, he grabbed all of his things and began walking towards the door, before Regulus’ body blocked him from leaving.
“What the fuck is going on?” he asked bewildered.
“It’s nothing. I have to go,” James spoke quietly, looking down.
“No, fuck that. You’re not leaving until you tell me what has you acting up like this,” Regulus demanded as he pushed James back into the room.
“Because I love you!” James snapped.
Regulus’ mouth hung open as he stepped back.
“I’ve loved you for as long as I’ve known you, Regulus!” James practically yelled, “Ever since Sirius introduced you to me in high school, I knew you were it for me. But you with–with those guys. I didn’t think it’d hurt as much as it does. You expect me to pretend like it’s okay. Like I'm fine with you sleeping in another guy’s bed every single day you’re not with me. But fuck Regulus it hurts, and I’m so fucking stupid for thinking that you actually care about me.”
Regulus just stood there. His face was blank.
“Oh,” was all that he said.
James scoffed and walked out, “‘Oh’ whatever, goodbye, Regulus.”
~~~
James got in his car and drove away, vision blurred with tears. He didn’t know how long he had been driving but he pulled up to this bar on the edge to the city. He walked in and noticed how quiet it was. Sitting at the bar he asked for whiskey making small talk with the bartender.
“Is it normally this quiet on a Saturday?” he asked the red-head girl behind the counter.
“Yeah, we don’t get a lot of customers,” the fiery haired girl spoke, handing James his whiskey.
“Thanks,” he muttered before downing it and asking for another.
The girl eyed him, “Break up?”
“You could say that.”
“Me too, but there ain't no rest for the wicked so I still have to go to work” she said looking down as she handed him his second glass.
James noticed how pretty she looked. Her green eyes popped against the bright red of her hair. Freckles covered her face.
“What idiot guy decided to dump you?” he asked.
She smiled lightly, “Girl, actually.”
“Ah, so you're…” James didn’t really know what the nicest way to say it would be.
“Gay? Yeah, well bi but,” she shrugged her shoulders.
“Me too, well pan but,” James mimicked the way she shrugged her shoulders.
She laughed, “I’m Lily Evans, and you are?”
“James Potter,” he stuck out his hand.
“Nice to meet you, James Potter.”
They fell into a comfortable silence before James said, “Lilies are my favorite flowers to photograph.”
Lily beamed at him, “You’re a photographer? Wait, are you the James Potter that posts his photos on Instagram. Prongs underscore 07.”
“Yeah,” he said shyly, rubbing the back of his neck.
“No way! I love your work! My friends and I have been following you forever. Said that we’d call you for our weddings.”
James laughed, “I’ve never met anyone who actually likes my work.”
“You’ve been hanging out with the wrong group of people.”
James smiled at her. She smiled back.
“I get off of work in a few…” she said smirking at him, “And since we are both recently heart broken, what do you say we go out and party a little? You know, YOLO, or something like that.”
James couldn't’ help but laugh again, “I’d love that.”
But then his face fell, “Um this is going to sound wrong but just so you won’t expect it…umI won’t have sex with you.”
“What?” Lily asked, taken aback.
“Um fuck… well the guy I was with…only used me for sex and I really don’t want to feel like that again and… fuck this is so embarrassing. I’m so sorry. I’ll go,” James rambled.
“Woah, hey, calm down,” Lily shushed him, “I don’t want to have sex with you, alright? But I must say that guy fucked you up bad if you act like this about sex. But, hey, fuck him. Let’s go out as friends and live a little, for the plot or whatever the saying is.”
“Yeah, yeah, I’m sorry, I don't know why I even said that, but yeah, for the plot,” James said, smiling awkwardly.
“Let’s go,” Lily said, nodding towards the door.
~~~
“James!” Lily laughed as James snapped photos of her.
They were on vacation on the California coast with a few friends. Sirius, Remus, Peter, Marlene, Mary and themselves.
When James introduced Lily to his friends group the girls immediately took a liking to her. The boys had teased James about his new little girlfriend. After weeks of telling them they were just friends, they finally bought it when they caught James making out with a guy at a club.
Right now, everyone was out, doing their own thing. James and Lily had stumbled upon a meadow of common daisies. Luckily James had his camera.
“Please, just one more!”
He had made Lily pose as he snapped photos of her. He made her laugh and had taken a picture when she had her head thrown back. She took the camera from his hands and took pictures of him. She put flowers in his curly, unruly hair and took pictures of his pouting face when she wouldn’t give back the camera.
“Okay, okay, smile,” Lily had smashed her face next to James’ and turned the camera to face them. Snap! Next, she placed a kiss on his cheek as James rolled his eyes fondly. Snap! And finally, she grabbed his cheeks with one hand and squished, causing him to make fish lips. Snap!
They laughed the whole way back to the car, looking at the photos.
“I have to post them!” James said to Lily, “They are so cute!”
“James–” Lily began.
“Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,” James spoke like a little boy whose mother had just said no to eating candy before dinner.
“Alright! Jesus you can be annoying,” Lily said, rolling her eyes as they got in the car.
“But you love me,” James spoke happily.