woke up
☆Sirius☆
When Sirius first opened his eyes he thought he was dead.
You can't blame him, he was sure of dying, he felt his soul leaving his body.
So, when he heard someone enter his room and scream "mom come here, he is awake!" He was definitely confused.
And when everything came in his mind he was just scared.
Because now he was back with is family and was going to die, or worse have to stay with them, at their condition, and the punishment will be rough.
But then a boy arround his age, jumping up and down with another woman behind him entered the room.
And now he was more confused then before, because who the fuck are those.
"I'm glad you're awake" She said.
And he understud.
The woman who kept him company on his death bed, was never his sister, but this woman who looks nothing like her.
He is a bit disappointed, he has to admit, but thinking abuot it he is glad they have the same voice, because, if he has to be honest, dieing with the idea of being with his sister for the last time, even if it's not true, is how he wants to die anyway.
It wasn't a question, so he says nothing, because he still is at his parent accampament and he knows everything he will say will be thrown back at him.
the woman seemed to understand that and didn't talk any further, instead she continued to cearch his terrorized face for God knows what.
"Welcome to our accampent, you don't have to be scared, no one will hurt you." said the boy with a big smile.
Sirius was unsure about it, it sounded pretty much like something not true, but he asked anyway.
"where are my parents? if i have to die let me die fast and without to much pain please."Sirius said with an annoyed tone.
"What? I don't know what yor're thalking abut kiddo, for what I know we aren't missing any child, why do you say that?" Answer the woman.
"Isn't that my parents accampament?" Sirius was a bit concerned, is she playng stupid?
"I don't think so, i think i would know if you were my son. But, if you want, when you get out of the hospital, you can stay at my place instead of the orfanage."
"Oh-" Sirius woice cracked, a twist of tension he didn't know he had loosened. "Y-yes, if i don't bother you i could acept the offer and stay with you until i don't settle up by my self, your majesty." Sirius continued lowering his head.
And she chuckled. That confused Sirius even more, what was so fun about it he doesn't understand.
"You don't have to worry, and please don't call me 'your majesty' i'm not that important. I don't know where you spent the last few years but this isn't a monarchy, and it isn't only me who did it, the real 'boss' here is Dumbledore but he doesn't have any child so I assumed i would be the only one that could have lost one, and as you see the only one that i have is still here with me." she sayd pointing a finger to the guy behind her.
"he'll show you around when you'll feel a little better, for now stay still and relax, tomorrow you'll be relised and as I see you will stay at our house, but again James will explain better later." Sirius started to think things weren't too bad after all. Then she continued "now your diagnosis" and by the look on her face that she was obviusly trying to hide Sirius knew it won't be pretty.
"You have been stabbed in the abdomen, but the wound itself wasn't that bad. The problem is that it has infected with sepsi, wich is a rare complication of a taint, the consequences of which can be very serious and fatal." She paused, trying to understand if it was too much for Sirius, and than continued "We found you just in time, otherwise you would have died."
So Sirius was right about dieing, well a point to him for that.
Sirius decided to ignore all the other thing that she is saying about being almost dead, and sepsi, and what he should do to avoid it in favor of looking around to understand where he is.
Until she says "You've been in a coma for two weeks, we thought that you would have never woken up" and on the last part her voice was oozing with relife, like she was about to loose her actual son. But Sirius starts panicking, because he lost track of the days, if it is like he is thinking...
"what day is it" Sirius interrupts her.
"sorry, what?"
"what day is it" he insisted, because he need to know.
"oh, today? today it's the 30th of June, why?"
Sirius was right, he skipped his sister birthday, and mind him, he knew he wouldn't have been with her on that day, but he tought he would have mourn all day long missing his sister. Even if he hates her he feels like he couldn't miss her birthday.
It was also her 15th birthday, that means that from now oh their mother will be cearcing for her husband, and Sirius remember how she was so pissed every time their mother used to bring it up, he never understud why precisely, maybe it was because she wanted to chose who to stay with or something. But he knows that on her birthday his sister cried, and maybe if he was there he wouldn't fell so guilty about it. Or maybe she was happy, or didn't want him with her, lately she was totally a different person so, who knows.
But still he wanted to at least be awake for her birthday, but now he can't do nothing about it.
"Why are you crying?" the boy that he assumes being James asks.
Sirius forgot about him being there, and he also didn't notice he was crying again.
It is the second time he cries without noticing since he ran away, what is happening to him, boys don't cry, especially heirs. Well maybe at this point he isn't a heir anymore, he doesn't think his family is still wanting him as an heir after he ran away, maybe for this reason they're searching for his sister husband even harder and that make Sirius feel even more guilty.
His parent always saw his sister as a sort of object that was usefull only for convenience marriage and kids. This always siked Sirius out. Not that they didn't try to do it with him too.
Once they tried to convince him to marry his cousin, the only difference is that Sirius has the right to say no, his sister doesn't, she have to do what she is told.
Sirius never liked that.
He tried to stood out for her in the start, but then he saw that she didn't care and one day he stopped.
He doesn't know WHEN actually, maybe I was when his parent made her clean his whole room because she should get used to it for being a good wife, and when Sirius started screaming at them she just told him to stop, or when they looked her in her room for days as always and she just didn't complain as much as Sirius did.
He remember when she was little, 6 or 7, before the apocalypse, and one night, before their parents were bak from work, she came straight to Sirius room shouting" Sirius look, I look just like you" after cutting her hair really short.
Sirius never get actually why she did that, because he did never have his hair THIS short, but he remember trying to fix it, already thinking about what his parents will do to her when they will see it.
While he did that she was crying like she never did before asking why he didn't like her hair like this, they looked more alike. And it wasn't like he didn't like them, he did, a lot, they suited her more, looked less out of place, but, for some reason he didn't tell her that, he just kept thinking about what their parents would do.
Then he heard the door and his mind searched for a way of taking her out of truble.
When they came to the bathroom door where Sirius and his sister were he put on his best smile and said "Look mom, she looks just like me, doesn't she?" And he can't remember anything more.
Just the burn of the scars that were left after his punishment.
Then his sister came back to him, asking why he did that, and why he didn't like her new hair. And again, instead of answering with what he really thought he just sayd "Because you look like a boy, and you are a girl."
And in that moment he saw a light in her eyes expire to not light up ever again. Even to this days he doesn't know what it was. Maybe she doesn't even remember about that but Sirius doese, he remember it as the first time he hurt his sister, to be then followed by a lot of other to this days.
He wiped his tears off "Sorry, sorry, i don't know why i'm crying, i won't do it anymore, i swear."
"Don't worry is normal, you are stressed and have just woke up from a coma, ther is no reason to not cry" told him the woman with a calm look on her face.
She was reassuring unlike his mother, maybe Sirius could like her if she is who she makes up to be.
"We are going away to let you relax and sleep if you need, so you can process things out, see you tomorrow." She said while turning away and going out the door while her son, still smiling waved at him.
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As he expected Sirius didn't relax at all.
Too much thoughts running in his head and the wires attached to his arms and chest didn't allow him to sit up confortably enough.
Instead of sleeping he stayed up thinking about all that appened, and were he might be.
He was still doing that, while looking out the window, when a curly haired head peeked through the door. "Oh, you're awake, I was just coming to check on you before heading home, are you feeling any better?" He sayd walking to Sirius bed and sitting on the chair beside it.
"A bit."
"Sorry if i have been a bit rude earlier, i didn't mean it."
"No, you weren't, sorry if I started randomly crying, i usually don't do it."
"I think is normal in your situation to start crying. Anyway, we didn't introduce ourseves, my name is James Fleamont Potter." A big smile appeared on his face while he stretched out hand, waiting for an handshake.
"Sirius Orion" he answered with a less opened smile shaking his hand.
"Sirius Orion what? you have to have a surname." James asked with an interrogative and suspicious look on his face.
"no, i don't, is that a problem?" Sirius looked into his eyes with a challenging face.
They were still at that, looking into each other eyes ad challenging one the other to say something when James broke into another bright smile.
"Well no, you can take mine if you want. You can be a Potter, seeing that you stay at my house it's worth it that you thake also the family name, in that way you can officially be family."
'Family' what an ipocrit word, it always had a bitter taste on Sirius mouth, always being called family from those who abused him just so people would say what a beautiflu son they had while he suffered from the scars they leaved.
"Sirius Orion Potter, it doesn't sound that bad, doesn't it?" Continued James, a bit unsure when Sirius didn't answer.
"Sirius Orion Potter" Repeated Sirius, wispering, testing how the name sounded and how it tasted sweet in his mouth. "Yes, it could go." Sirius softly smiled.
"WONDERFUL!" Exclamed James, jumping up.
"Sorry" James sat down blushing when Sirius chuckled. "i got exited."
"Anyway, what do I have to do to stay here?" Sirius didn't expect something bad anymore, they sounded trustworthy, but in the mean time he doesn't know what good is.
"Oh, nothing bad, you just need to help the comunity, and you get paid" answered confidently James. "I kow that we are minor and shouldn't work, but life isn't the same after the apocalypse and help is always needed, so, people over thirteen need to work to stay here."
Sirius was surprised, they only needed to do that?! He was thinking of things way worse.
James, seeing his surprised look continued "I know it may sound concerning, but for people under twenty aren't required hard works, just helping out."
"No, is not that i was concerned, but I just thought of something way worse" Sirius was a bit embarassed now. "So, what work can i do?"
"I usually help at the orphanage but when it's needed I help my mom here at the hospital as today, but is not required for us as a job, just assist when there are a lot of patient. Otherwise you can help in the bakery, or to the carpenter, or at the tailor or jobs like that, while for job like helping in the ospital, on an everyday bases, or help the engeniers and the farmacist you should take a test or something like that, i don't know, i've never attended. You have till monday to decide, I think, so it should be about two days." James explained.
"I want to work with you at the orphanage" The answer was embarrassingly immediate
"You already decided? You can take more time, you know?"
"Yes but I want to work there, I like kids." to be onest Sirius just wanted someone to take care of, and take his sister off his mind, so little kid should be the right opion.
"Oh, cool, then i'll bring you the paper tommorow so you can sing up, I guess I should head home now." Replied James while getting up.
the woman from that morning entered the room "Here you are, come on we have to go home, your dad is wating for us- Oh, Sirius, you're awake, what a plasure."
She extended her hand for a handshake while saying "Sorry i didn't introduce myself this morning, my name is Effie and I'm the mother of this thing right here." She smiled and while James started complaining Sirius laughed for the first time again in years.
And it felt strange, because it wasn't a big joke or something, but Sirius felt so lightheded and warm, that it just came natural.
"Come on now James, we have to go and set up Sirius's room so tomorrow he can come to our house with no problem. Bye Sirius, see you tomorrow, rest well." and like that they were out of the room and Sirius felt both warm and cold at the same thime, but he was sure, that this night he would actually sleep like he didn't do since his mother stopped loving him.