Chapter 1
James Potter found himself once again at the astronomy tower. The tears streamed over his face as he looked up into the clear night sky, searching for the stars he knew.
It weren't many, but the few he was familiar with, he would never be able to forget. Luckily, the boy managed to focus on naming them enough to be distracted from the never stopping voices in his head. After a while, his breathing went back to normal, and the tears stopped.
The Gryffindor decided to stay on the tower a bit longer until he felt the tiredness wash over him, and he stumbled back to his dorm. As soon as his head hit the pillow, he drifted into a light sleep.
Deep inside, James was aware that this wasn't the first and certainly wouldn't be the last time the voices got too loud and everything too much, but still, he was going to do everything to avoid anyone noticing that something was wrong with him. He would just have to fix himself in time.
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Breakfast was going normal, James finally had an appetite and ate much more than usual. This was why Sirius jokingly said:" If you're going to keep eating this much, we need to roll you to class." He faked a smile and gave a short reply to the boy opposite of him.
He wouldn't admit it, but it felt like Sirius punched him in the face. Suddenly, he was way too aware of the fact, how much he had eaten, and had the urge to throw up. Without anyone noticing, he stopped eating and started picking on his food instead.
"Why did you eat so much? You are nothing without your looks.", and other things were cycling inside the brown haired boys head like mantras. Forcing a smile on his face, he joked with his friends until he told his friends that he would get a book he had forgotten in the dorm.
As soon as he closed the door to the great hall behind him, he started running to one of the place he knew nobody would be looking for him. The second floor girls bathroom.