Chapter 1
Saturday, 17th October 1975
He had a headache, couldn't sleep, couldn't focus on any of his assignments, and his whole body hurt.
Remus lay back down on Evan's bed, groaning and pinching the bridge of his nose.
"You okay?" Evan asked, comming out of the bathroom and laying down on his bed aswell.
"Fine." Remus sighed. "Can't focus."
He stifled a groan as the sun came shining right into his eyes. The light didn't help with his already throbbing head. It was October for merlins sake, why was it suddenly so light out?
"Well, you've got what, four more days until you have to hand it in?"
Remus sighed again. "I just wanted to get potions out of the way."
Evan shoved the parchment off of the bed. "When's the next full moon again?"
"Three days." Remus said, "Why?"
Evan scoffed. "Explains your mood then."
"I am not in a mood!"
"Yea, you are!" Evan said teasingly, smiling.
"Oh, piss off!"
Evan smiled at him again, shifting to the side and kissing him gently. Remus closed his eyes and relaxed into the kiss. Evan pulled away slightly, looking at him. "You were totally in a mood."
"Sod off you fucker!" , Remus laughed, pulling him close and kissing him again. Evan climbed on top of him, one hand on his shoulder, nails digging into his skin, the other pressing down on his hip. Remus winced under the pressure of Evan's weight.
Evan pulled away. "You okay?"
"Y-yea, m' fine."
Evan continued to kiss him, putting weight on all different parts of Remus' body, pushing down on him, hard. Remus tried to stifle his groans and not wince under the pain shooting through his body.
Evan began to kiss Remus more forcefully, pressing down harder and harder on his already hurting body. Remus tried pulling away from the kiss, tiltilng his head up slightly, whereupon Evan startet to kiss down his neck. "Ev?"
"Mmh?"
"Can you please-"
Adding even more pressure, Evan startet to dig his nails into Remus' skin again, leaving red marks all over his arms.
"Evan"
Remus winced as Evan suddenly pushed down, hard, on his stomach.
"Evan!" , Remus said, while simultaniously pushing Evan off of him to the foot of the bed, Both of them breathing hard. Remus looked him in the eye with a stern expression.
"Stop."
"W-what did I do?!"
"Evan you were hurting me!"
Evan broke the eye contact. "Sorry. I got a bit... I don't know. Lost."
Remus looked at the floor silently. What the fuck is wrong with him?! He took a deep breath in.
"I didn't mean to hurt you."
"I know."
"Sorry."
"Evan, it's okay, it's just", Remus sighed. "The full moon is in three days and my whole fucking body hurts and I'm exhausted because I can't sleep and I-"
He took another deep breath. This wasn't the first time Evan was too rough on Remus. He sighed.
"You can't be like that with me, okay?" Another deep breath in. His temper was running short, but he didn't want to, nor had the energy to scream at him.
"You know that I'm-" ,god he hated talking about this, "that I'm often in pain. You just can't be that, that rough."
"Look, I said I'm sorry." Evan said defensively.
They stared at each other for a couple of seconds, until Remus got up and walked out the door.