Chapter 6
They get to the table and sit down,
the guys are glad to see them together again and are all smiles.
Mattheo- “Hey look at you to finally got things settled.”
Meeri- “He knows”
Mattheo- “ He needed some help understanding regular human social stuff”
Meeri- “ So you know everything huh”
Tom- “ Yes I lack knowledge in subjects I consider trivial”
Mattheo- “ Not so trivial now huh”
meeri - “ Dont push him, its alright Tom’
Theo- “ Were just glad to see things return to normal, but what about the rumors and stuff”
Meeri- “ Oh fuck that, fuck them”
Theo- “ Damn dont think ive ever heard you curse before”
Mattheo- “ Thought you were like Tom and didnt curse at all’
Meeri- “ You dont curse? Does it bother you that I do?”
Tom- “ I dont mind if you curse, I just dont do it myself.”
Theo- “ You know another way to combate the rumors would be this week you wear my jersey
and next week Mattheos that way eveyones confused as fuck”
Tom- “ Is that a viable solution”
Meeri- “ No no dont complete that thought Tom, Stop”
Tom- “ Why, what is the hidden meaning”
She looks at the boys, giving them a pleading look
hoping one of them will explain it to Tom so she doesnt have to.
Meeri- “ Oh seriously your gonna make me tell him. Fine.
Okay Tom doing that what give the message that I get passed around you guys
as your shared fuck toy, thats what it means.
Tom didnt expect that to be the meaning, oh how perilous the world of social cues is.
But thats unacceptable, hes fine with people thinking she is hers, but them think shes their shared fuck thing is infuriating.
Tom- “ No that is unacepatble”
Meeri- “Yeah’
Tom- “ How dare you guys suggest that”
Theo- “ Its a joke man, but come on are we really that bad huh”
All eyes are on her waiting for a response.
Meeri- “ Your not my type”
Mattheo- “ What about me huh”
Meeri- “ Nope”
Mattheo- “ Then what is your type?”
Tom would like to know that to,
but he notes how her behavor has changed,
her eyes have gone distant and she's rigid.
Tom- “ Meeri”...... “Meeri”
Meeri- “ What, huh”
Tom- “You dont have to answer”
She nods, her eyes still distant. She wipes away a stray tear.
Talking about what sher type reminds her of the first and last boy she loved, and what a tragic love it was.
Theo- “ Shit”
Mattheo- “ Fuck, sorry didnt mean to bring something up”
Theo- “ Youve loved and lost before havent you”
Meeri- “ Yeah”
Tom turns to her and puts a hand on her back,
thats the most affection hell do in public.
Tom- “ Its alright, deep breaths. Good, now again, good Meeri.”
He gets her calm again and stops the tears.
Mattheo- “ Okay change of subject how about we have a movie night tonight my room huh”
Theo- “ Yeah sounds good”
Meeri- “ Yeah id like that”
She changes into Pjs making sure to add a jacket to cover her healing cuts and scars.
She heads over and knocks, they call out to come in so she does.
She finds a makeshift couch made up of cushions on the floor and Tom already seated with his book.
He looks up at her presence and pats the spot next to her, so she sits where he directed, happy to be near him.
They all get settled and start the movie.
Shes feel so cozy and relaxed next to Tom, a
nd finds herself leaning in getting closer to him.
Tom- (whispering) “ Mattheo what do i do”
Mattheo- “What’
Tom- “ She fell asleep, on me”
The guys find it amusing how tense and unsure Tom looks while shes carfreely sleeping on him,
not knoiwng how much panic she is causing.
Mattheo wants to laugh but know Tom will pay him back later if he does.
Mattheo- “ Relax you dont have to be so tense, just stay still and relax dude, this is a good thing”
Tom- “ It is?”
Theo- “ Yes it means she is comfortable with you, comfortable enough to sleep and be vulnerable”
Theo and Mattheo are working so hard not to laugh,
Tom is total inept at this and they are finally the knowledgeable
ones he has to turn to for help. Oh the irony.
She grabs onto his shirt and starts to twitch a bit,
causing Tom to panic again.
Tom- “ Whats going on, help”
Mattheo- “ What’
They lean over and look at her.
Theo- “ Probably a dream or nightmare”
Tom- “ Do I wake her”
She starts to twitch more, starts mumbling,
then the mumbling turns to crying out.
-while alseep-
Meeri- “ NO… Please take me… take me instead…NO NO…. Dont take him… STOP…. Please”
Meeri- (whisper) Stop… my baby… no….no
Its a nightmare thats clear now,
a nightmare of something very bad.
Only Tom heard that last whispered bit.
Tom- “ Do I wake her”
Theo- “ No she might punch”
So they wait and watch horrified,
wonding what pain she is reliving.
She jolts awake, it takes her a moment to come to reality.
But when she does she sees all their horrified looks and she knows she must have spoken in her sleep
and now they know things she never wanted anyone to know.
She gets up and runs away, she cant look attheir faces anymore,
can see that horrified pity.
Mattheo- “ Tom go after her”
Tom- “ She likes her space”
Theo, Mattheo- “ Go after her, trust us on this”
So he goes after her, he knocks on her door,
no answer so he goes in.
He finds her sitting in the corner, knees to chest,
taking deep ragged breaths while she crys.
He goes and kneels down beside her.
Tom- “Meeri”... “ Come now look at me”
She doesnt move, so he gently and slowly grabs her chin and lifts her head up
and wipes away her tears, his handkerchief coming in handy again.
Tom- “ Deep breaths Meeri, take a deep breath for me. Good just like that, now again, again, good.
Meeri- “ Tom”
Tom- “ Come lets sit in bed not the cold floor”
Meeri- “ I… I cant move”
Tom- “ Thats alright”
He picks her up, slinging her over his shoulder
and placing her on the bed.
He gets in and sits closely next to her.
Meeri- “ How much did I say, what did you hear?”
Tom- “ You speak was broken but you said things like; please, no,
stop dont take him, take me, and baby. It wasnt very cohesive”
She covers her face with her hands,
mortified she said all that allowed, that they all saw. She feels him rub her back, hes trying to comfort me.
He probloy doesnt know what to say donest have a prepared speech like that time.
So even thought he has questions ill have to do most of the talking.
Tom- “Meeri was it a memory or some made up nightmare?”
Meeri- “ Memory, todays talk brought up my first and last love”
Tom- “ It ended badly”
Meeri- “ Yeah but Tom I cant say more it falls into that I cant talk about it thing”
Tom- “ What if I made a blood oath, that I would never let another soul know what we speak about”
Meeri- “ You would do that , really”
Tom- “ Id like for you to be able to speak freely with me, and of course id do that for you”
Meeri- “ Okay yes”
So Tom makes a blood oath to her,
that he will never let another soul know her secret no matter what.
She finds the color of his blood pretty, its a slightly differnt shade from her,
only a tiny difference but its her new favorite color.
Meeri- “ Im stil gonna be a bit vague, im not ready to get int details yet”
Tom- “ Ill take whatever you give”
Meeri- “ He was a family friends child, we both grew up in a similar way so he came to live with us.
He had both been alone before and so we clung to eachother and formed a bond out of our shitty circumstances
and feel in love, not a very healthy love but it was the best we could have in that situation we were trapped in.
Tom- “ Meeri when you said baby was it a pet name or an actal baby?”
Meeri- “ Oh that well, when we matured things happened you know and I got pregnant.
When this got found out, my father was very upset and took him away from me,
and my punishment, it killed the baby and I gave birth to a dead premature baby,
he was so small, and my father took him away too. Thats, thats what the nightmare was of.
Tom- “ Took away as in killed”
Meeri- “ Yes”
He opens his arms to her, and she takes the cue and leans into his hug.
He just holds her as she crys into his shirt. He cant offer words of comfort but he can hold her and
let her have her feelings while not being alone.
Eventually her breathing steadys and and she pulls out of the hug and looks up at him.
Meeri- “ Thank you Tom, I know words arnt your thing’
Tom- “ Ill work on it”
Meeri- “ This is good”
Tom- “ Do you wanna go back finish the movie?”
Meeri- “ Yeah I should tell the guys some explanation”
They walk back to Mattheos room,
Tom keeps a hand on her back trying to keep comforting her.
Meeri- “ I didnt know you are so strong”
Tom- “ I dont show off but it comes in handy”
Meeri- “ Yeah”
They get back to Mattheos dorm and head in, the guys where on their phones waiting,
hoping shed come back. They paused the movie didnt want her to miss it if she came back.
Theo- “Hey”
Meeri- “ I owe you guys an explanation”
Mattheo- “ You dont owe us a thing, its okay”
Meeri- “ Okay then I want to explain, it was a nightmare, a memory of loosing my first love,
when I saw him get killed right infornt of me”
Mattheo, Theo- (whisper) “ Oh shit”
Tom- “ Come lets sit”
Tom leads her back to the floor couch and they sit,
he keeps an arm around her, holding her to him.
Mattheo- “ Sorry about bringing that shit up at dinner”
Meeri- “ Its okay , its life”
They start the movie again and watch, she stays awake this time enjoy the light cuddling with Tom.
She feels Mattheo and Theos glances at her but trys not to let them bother her, its a big thing to take in.
After Tom walks her back to her room.
Tom- “ Will you be okay alone tonight”
Meeri- “ Yeah ill be fine”
Tom- “ Good night Meeri’
Meeri- “ Good night Tom”