Prefect Crushes
Remus' POV
"Hey Remus, tell me, when are you going to talk to me about that portrait you made during class yesterday?" Lily says with a smug smile on her face as we walk out of history.
Shit, I told her that I was going to tell her. What do I do now? She won't understand and when I tell her the truth, she'll probably be absolutely disgusted by me. Or maybe she won't, either way, I don't want to tell her.
"HEEEEEEEEYYYYYYY MMOOOOOOONYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Peter yells flying around the corner. Sirius as his shadow, looking pale but exited. "Guess what! Now is 'tomorrow afternoon', will you come with us?" Of course, James. While I tell them that that was a stupid question and of course I'll go with them I can see Lily's disappointed face.
"Hey Lily, why don't you come with us?" I say trying to not sound suspicious at all at which I obviously failed. "If I come with you, Potter will probably get a heart attack and be stuck there for a month, maybe two."
"Fair enough."
It's the first time I heard Sirius speak today. He skipped breakfast and sat all the way at the back of every class, all alone. I tried to talk to him but he just gave me a nod and walked away. At least now he looks better. They really are brothers.
But I won't settle for Lily's disappointed face. I know it'll cheer her up to judge Sirius and James as they do stupid things. And maybe I should tell her about the drawing?
As she is turning around I grab her arm and whisper "If you come then I'll talk after."
She is smiling as we walk to the hospital wing.
Lily s' POV
~(time skip)~
It was a good idea for me to go with them. They're such losers.
"So where do you want to go?" I do want Remus to feel comfortable as I have a feeling of what he might be confessing.
"I have an idea"
A bit later we enter the prefect bathroom. That's actually not a bad idea, there is never anyone here before nightfall. We sit on the floor next to the enormous basin. I don't know what to do, how do you start a conversation so your friend comes out?
"So..."
"About the sketch, yeah, I was just- I don't know, he has good hair,... to draw"
"Okay, aaand..."
"That's it." Ha, like I believe that! "Remus I've known you forever now and I know for a fact that if it would've been nothing, you wouldn't have this much stress and anxiety about telling me. So please Remus, please be honest with me."
“Okay, I’ll try”
He looks so nervous. I try to calm him by taking his fidgeting hands in mine. He takes a deep breath and starts talking. About Sirius. “how long have you been liking him?” I think I already know the answer but Remus needs to learn to talk so I’d like to hear it from him. “I think probably third year or something when I realized that I had a crush on him but you know it’s Sirius, I’ve always liked him” That sort of what I was expecting.
“But Lily, do you not mind that I’m- that I’m gay?”
“Honestly, I’ve been suspecting your crush on Sirius since Halloween last year. And at first I was, well- never mind that. I did my research and I really don’t care who you decide to kiss, as long as we stay friends I’m fine with literally almost anything.” I smile and squeeze his hands. “But I do expect you to accept all my weird bullshit too!” we crack up. I really mean it when I say I wouldn’t know what to do without him.
“Thank you, for everything” he whispers.
“yes yes anyway, why don’t you tell Sirius?” He looks very surprised but let’s be honest Sirius definitely fancies him as well. “What? Why would I do that? I mean, he’s super straight, he’s always got a new girlfriend and were really good friends, I would never wanna do anything that could ruin that friendship.” “But-“ I try but I get cut off. “And even if he wasn’t straight, no way that he’d ever wanna go out with me.” Ok that’s it. I shoot up on my feet and start shout-talking. "LISTEN TO ME!!! You are the most Special, Brightest, Smartest, hottest, sexiest and most AMAZING person I know!
And if you ever DARE to say otherwise, I am going to FUCKING hex you!"
Once again we crack up. “fine” he says.
“hey, that was quite the performance at the Quidditch match” ugh I knew he would bring it up.
“So, what’s the deal?” “what, there is no deal” I try to say as casual as possible. “C’mon I can see the way you look at him.” Ugh fine.
"He seems to have changed. Like this summer, he usually sends me a shit-ton-amount of letters all summer, asking me out. But this summer I didn't receive one, not a single letter." It is true, it felt really weird. And now Remus is looking at me like I just gave him a chocolate cake.
"And now, he is so different. Like life woke him up. You know, he is kind and sweet. And I always liked his looks. But now....the image is right.” Did I really just say that out loud?
"So if James were to ask you out again, would you say yes?"
"I don't know. I guess I want to give him a chance to prove that he changed. So yes......I think."