Oops I blew up my aunt
Chapter 1 Oops I blew up my aunt!
Escaping the dursleys was a great and crazy experience considering I blew up aunt marge. Which I don't regret. I wish I blew them all up so I would never have to go back in fact I'll do anything to never go back i'd even join the dark side. Considering they have treated me better than my own family. If only I didn't have that stupid feud With malfoy. Which btw wasn't my fault in fact I just stood by my friends and haven't been rude to him at all.
Unfortunately I was regretting my decision to stick by Ron and Hermione. Considering they haven't really done much for me. In fact they abandon me every summer even after I told them how I was treated. It's like they don't care about me and I hate it. I hate them for treating me like I need them when I don't. In fact I don't need anyone. I escaped the dursleys by myself. If I can practically take care of a family I'm sure I could Take care of myself.
I've spent the past month by myself In diagon alley and I've never been happier. I've recently been interested in the books I got for the new class magical theory. The teacher had us get two books for this year The Greek Magical Papyri and A wixens guide to household worship. Both books have a tremendous influence on pureblood and half blood wixen though I'm sure any scholar would find them interesting no matter their faith. I have learned that many purebloods and half bloods believed in the Greek gods.
I've felt this pull towards the religion. I wonder if my parents believed in this at least my father probably did after all he was a pureblood. I just love how the rituals in the book connect with my magic. So I know about magic and I love it. I love Ancient ritual magic. I've only tried one ritual and it was the purification ceremony in the household worship Book. It even has a wedding ceremony which I obviously haven't tried.
After the purification ceremony I feel lighter and cleaner. I feel better as if I've been cleansed of bad energy. From what I've read I suppose the purification ceremony cleanses you of miasma. A bad energy one usually gets from death and the like. The rituals from the Greek magical papyri are more complicated and dangerous if done wrong so I've sort of held back till I know more.
I had enjoyed the freedom I had in the past month but seeing Hermione and the Weasleys was a bit of a wake up call. That the freedom I had was too good to be true and I hated it. I wanted my freedom back. I now knew that freedom came at a great cost. I knew Dumbledore wouldn't let me go without a fight after all why did he keep sending me back to the dursleys. To keep me ignorant In the ways the world truly worked? To keep me powerless and at his beck and call? I finally knew what he wanted? A weapon to wield against the dark side. People who I would learn just wanted to be free of the persecutions muggles cause against them.
As much as I love what the Weasleys have done for me they were under Dumbledore's thumb most of them listened to him like a god. Like he was the master and they the servants. I honestly think it's worse than the death eaters. Both Dumbledore and Voldemort are so powerful but I feel Dumbledore is worse because he manipulates children. From what I've found out in the last month my parents could have stayed in a manor with generational blood wards but left because of Dumbledore. So maybe he wanted them to die.
I had the goblins read me their will and from what it says I have a godfather that didn't get a trial and I hate it. I also got an inheritance test. And what it said was alarming and moved my thoughts on Dumbledore's manipulations. It said that he had completions on me to trust gryffindors and to hate slytherins. Which from my impression on him makes sense. I just wish my whole life wasn't a lie. I wish I had known the wixen world since childhood to have lived as they would. To know magic and it's gifts.
So my freedom was taken from me once again. Now I plan on distancing myself from them. I just need space to be me. I just want to be free and I hate that I can't have my previous relationships and do it. I'm going to have to start from scratch. A new beginning. A new Harry I'm done sitting around and letting people dictate my future for me. I can do this. I can save myself from this. I won't meet the end Dumbledore Or Voldemort want I'll write my own story. I won't be a puppet any more.
When they greeted me I couldn't bring myself to be happy.
“Harry, you're here!” Hermione said and she rushed to give me a hug, a hug which I wouldn't receive. I pushed her away and backed away from them. I then reply with.
“How dare you talk like you care about me? You left me with the dursley after you knew what they were doing to me! You knew and you kept ignoring me all summer! And now! Now you act like nothing has happened when in fact worse than last summer has happened! You don't care so stop pretending! We are no longer friends. I won't be sitting with you on the train!” I shouted I know I probably shouldn't have but I did. I couldn't stand to look at them after they pretended like I didn't exist all summer.
“Oh Harry we would have replied But dumbledore-” Hermione was saying when I interrupted.
“Dumbledore this! Dumbledore that! I don't care any more. I know none of you really care, you just want me because I killed voldemort. I'm done, I'm going to my room!”
I left before they could say anymore. I was done. They tried sending me letters but I burned them and ignored their calls through the door. I'm done being a puppet and this was the first step.