Chapter 4
When they were taken to the hospital after the ambulance showed up, Remus was rushed to surgery for his hip and leg, Teddy was taken to have x-ray scans on his arm, and Sirius was taken to take a rape kit. He tried explaining to them that the dna they’d find in him was not from the rapist man that had hurt them, but from his husband. He explained best he could to the nurse, but she seemed confused. Sirius was later told that they also performed a rape kit on Remus after his surgery.
Sirius had a broken wrist, and after it was wrapped, he immediately began looking for his kids. He found Teddy, his arm in a cast, sitting on a hospital bed. He wouldn’t speck, but clung to his dad. When the nurse came in Sirius asked where Ellen was. The nurse brought Sirius outside the room, away from Teddy, and told him that his daughter had been killed the second the other car had crashed into the side of theirs. It had been a head injury and spinal injury that had ultimately led to her death. Sirius stood there, staring at the nurse, unsure what to do. Thank god it was that moment when James and Reg had showed up. James grabbed Sirius and pulled him close just as Sirius began to break down, sobbing and screaming. Reg went and comforted Teddy, knowing that when he heard his dad screams and cries then he’d know his sister was gone.
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Sirius sat next to Remus on the couch in the therapists office. The therapist, Mrs Poppy, had just called them in. Remus hadn’t been to happy about the thing and hadn’t spoken a word to Sirius since he told him about the appointment.
“So, Mr and Mr Lupin-Black,” Poppy began, opening her notebook. “How long have you two been married?”
Sirius hadn’t expected that to be her first question. “Umm, fifteen years.” He answered. Poppy nodded.
“Any kids?” She asked.
They both tensed. “We have a son,” Sirius started. “He’s fourteen. And, uhh, our daughter, she’s seven.”
“She’s dead.” Remus’s low voice made Sirius jump. He turned and looked at Remus, his face in a scowl.
“I’m very sorry to hear that,” Poppy said, making them both look at her. “Would you mind telling me what happened?”
Sirius knew this question was coming up, but still he was unprepared.
“It was a car accident,” Remus answered instead. “We were being stalked by a serial rapist.”
Poppy nodded, keeping her face neutral. “Was the rapist after your daughter?” She asked. Remus shook his head. Sirius was staring at his hands.
“He became obsessed with me and Sirius,” Remus told her. “Before the crash, he properly stalked us. He’d leave love notes to both of us, he’d watch us, follow us,” Remus paused. “When they arrested him, he admitted to watching us have sex through our bedroom window.”
Sirius hated thinking about that, hated how Greyback had taken so much from them.
“And he caused the car crash?” Poppy asked. Remus nodded.
“He told the police that he was trying to catch us off guard, and that originally he wanted us both to be unconscious so he could kidnap us, but when he approached the vehicle, I was awake and looking for my phone.”
Sirius hadn’t expected Remus to be the one to do all the talking, but in a way it made him realize just how much Remus needed to talk about the accident.
“What did he do when he saw you awake?” Poppy asked Remus. Remus was picking at his cuticules.
“I don’t think I’m ready to talk about that.”
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When Sirius first saw Remus in the hospital it had been right after he had gotten out of surgery. He was laying in the bed, awake, tears running down his face as he stared up at the ceiling. When he saw Sirius walk in they both could only stare at each other. It was like they were strangers for an odd minute. Then, Sirius began to cry, thinking of their daughter. He went to Remus and crawled into the hospital bed next to him. Remus held him to his chest as they both cried, mourning their daughter.
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When they got home, they both stood in the entryway, not knowing really what to do. They didn’t talk about the accident after Remus said he didn’t want to, but the subject of them sleeping separately had been brought up. Poppy suggested they try and sleep in the same bed that night. They both hadn’t told her yet about how they had been violated, they hadn’t told anyone about it but the police, not James, not Regulus. It was a dark secret between the two, one that was ripping them apart.
Before they could move, Teddy came down the stairs. He was still home from suspension, and had been moody since. He frowned at the two of them.
“Where’d you guys come from?” He asked. Sirius glanced at Remus, but he was back to not looking at him.
“We went to therapy.” Sirius answered. Teddy looked slightly shocked.
“Oh.” He said simply, then went to the kitchen, searching for something to eat. Sirius put the keys down and followed him.
“I was going to start dinner,” he said. “Any suggestions?”
Teddy shrugged. “I was gonna go over and hang out with Bill and Charlie.”
Sirius frowned. “You’re grounded, remember?”
Teddy rolled his eyes. “I didn’t even do anything!”
Sirius didn’t answer him, pulling out spaghetti from the fridge. He had gone in circles with Teddy about this. He didn’t need to have this conversation again.
“I just wanna go hang out with them for an hour!” Teddy went on, his voice rising. “I’m so fucking tiered of being in this fucking house!”
“Teddy,” Remus spoke, his voice soft. “Listen to your dad, you’re grounded.”
Sirius looked at Remus. It was the first time he had helped out parenting their son since the accident.
“Fuck you both!” Teddy suddenly screamed. “You both mope around here, acting all sad and depressed that Ellen is dead! But you don’t give a shit about me!”
Sirius couldn’t even talk. His words were cutting into Sirius.
“Teddy, just calm down-“
“MY SISTER IS DEAD! I WATCHED HE DIE! I HAD TO SIT THERE AND LISTEN TO MY PARENTS GET RAPED WHILE HOLDING HER DEAD CORPES!”
Both Sirius and Remus froze. Teddy stormed out of the room, angry tears streaming down his face. Neither Remus or Sirius said anything. Sirius pressed the palms of his hands to his eyes. Unwanted tears were brought to his eyes.
“I didn’t think-“ Sirius couldn’t finish that sentence. He lowered his hands to see Remus staring at the ground, his face empty.
“Remus,” Remus’s eyes snapped to his. “I don’t know what to do, or say-“ he wanted to cry. “How do we fix this?”
Remus shook his head, looking down. “I don’t know.”