Eyeliner, gay panics, and “how do i look?”

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
F/F
M/M
G
Eyeliner, gay panics, and “how do i look?”
Summary
“I’m so fucked,” Remus said to Peter, groaning as he looked at James and Sirius entering the Great Hall.Because they had Quidditch Training in the mornings, Peter and Remus go to breakfast alone and the other two join them after.Well, now, Sirius and James are walking towards them but Remus isn’t paying attention to James, not when Sirius is wearing eyeliner, again.or: Sirius wears eyeliner and Remus has a gay panic
Note
honest to god, i don’t even know what this is, i got this idea in my biology classmy first language isn’t english so keep that in mind.alr enjoy i guess, Mwah

“wakey wakey eggs and bacey” was the only warning Remus got before his bed curtains got violently opened by Peter.

”Kanker hoer,” Remus groaned at the sunlight and threw his arm over his head. (Cancer whore)

Peter ignored the insult like he didn’t hear him. “Wake up, you’re the only one who’s still sleeping” Peter said pulling his curtains fully open and throwing his duvet cover off.

“Peter, you menace” Remus whined at the loss of warmth from his duvet.

He opened his eyes and rubbed the sleep away before he sat up and took in the room.

Peter, who just woke him up, was banging on the bathroom door for James to “hurry tf up”. Regulus was laying on James’ bed (which he had slept in with James the previous night) and writing a potions essay.

“Morning WolfymcWolf”

Remus shifted his eyes to where the voice came from cuz there was only 1 person who called him that.

“Mornin’ Marls” Remus said when he saw Marlene, straddling Sirius’ hips and looking very dedicated at Sirius’ face.

“What are you doing?” Remus said confused, and a bit jealous maybe, but he wasn’t going to pay any attention to that emotion.

Marlene straightened up and turned her head to Remus while waving a black pencil in her hands.

Remus- still half asleep -had to squint his eyes before he realized what it was.

“Oh, isn’t that muggle make-up or something?” Remus asked.

“Mhm,” Marlene replied before going back to applying the make-up.

“Lily was wearing it yesterday and Sirius here got jealous, he wanted eyeliner as well.” She said, not taking her eyes of of Sirius.

“Loud and proud” Sirius said from underneath her.

“Shut up,” She said, “You’ll ruin it,”

Sirius held out his hands in response and stopped talking after that.

At that moment James emerged from the bathroom, hair still damp from the shower, and without a shirt.

“Fucking finally,” Peter said throwing his arms up before entering the bathroom.

“Sorry Wormtail” James said looking over his shoulder.

“Morning James” Remus said while finally getting up from his bed and going to his closet to get an outfit as it was the weekend, also known as non-uniform days.

James turned to Remus in a dramatic flare. “The sleeping beauty has woken up? What a miracle,” He said jokingly as he went to Regulus to kiss his head before going to his own closet as well and pulling a t-shirt over his head.

“Ha ha, very funny,” Remus said sarcastically as he took his clothes out of the closet and sat them on his bed. The werewolf sat on his bed criss-crossed and read a book, while he waited till Peter was done in the bathroom.

“Done!” Marlene said as she took a moment to appreciate her work before getting off of Sirius and standing up so he could look at himself in the mirror on the wall.

Sirius jumped of his bed to go see his reflection in the mirror and grinned as soon as he saw himself.

“I look like a rockstar,” he said dreamily before turning to Marlene to hug her and kiss her cheek. “Thank you,” He said while looking at himself.

“You’re welcome, babe” Marlene said before throwing herself on Peters bed.

“Moonyyyy,” Sirius drawled as he turned around and went over to Remus’ bed, sitting on his bed facing him.

“Mhm?” Remus said not turning away from his book.

“Look at me,” He said while pushing Remus’ book down.

And if anyone else had done that to Remus while he was reading, they’d be sure to get a punch, but, it was Sirius, and what Sirius wants Sirius gets.

Remus rolled his eyes good naturedly, before setting his book down and facing Sirius. Simultaneously the bathroom door opened and Peter emerged.

When Remus looked at Sirius it felt like his breath got punched out of his lungs.

Sirius had smudged eyeliner on his waterline which made his eyes pop out even more. He also saw a little drawn on star just under his eye.

“You like it?” Sirius asked, breaking Remus out of his staring trans.

Remus blinked a few times before replying. “Oh, yea, yeah” Remus said, still staring, oh he was so gone.

Sirius grinned, and Remus was broken out of his trans when Peter sniggered.

Remus looked over at Peter- who was trying to hold in his laugh -with a betrayed look.

“Jij vind hem leuk” Peter said matter of factly. (You have a crush on him)

Remus gaped at Peter and spluttered to come up with an answer.

“Wa? Ben je op je hoofd gevallen ofzo?” Remus said spluttering. (What? Did you fall on your head or something?)

Peter fixed him a look that said “i know when you’re lying”.

Remus looked defeated. “Misschien, maar ik zweer als een van jullie twee dit gaat doorvertellen, i swear to Merlin, ik zal er voor zorgen dat je niet meer praten kan.” Remus said looking at Peter and Marlene sharply. (Maybe, but i swear if one of you snitches i swear to Merlin i’ll make sure you can’t talk anymore after that)

“Ha! See, told you! You owe me 10 galleons!” Peter said triumphantly at Marlene.

“thyfus hoer” Marlene said as she stood up and got the money out of her bag that was laying on the ground next to the bed, and gave it to Peter. (thyfus whore)

“Alright you three, English please, cuz why did Marlene give money to Peter?” James asked them.

“She lost a bet.” Peter said proud as he put his new earned money away.

“What bet?” James asked looking between the three.

Remus looked at Marlene and Peter with a look that says “say something and i’ll slit your throat”.

“Sorry prongs, my lips are sealed,” Peter said, acting as if he’s zipping his mouth shut with his hands.

When Remus looked back at Sirius he saw him looking into space with his mouth agape, but he didn’t really think much of it..
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“I’m so fucked,” Remus said to Peter, groaning as he looked at James and Sirius entering the Great Hall.

Because they had Quidditch Training in the mornings, Peter and Remus go to breakfast alone and the other two join them after.

Well, now, Sirius and James are walking towards them but Remus isn’t paying attention to James, not when Sirius is wearing eyeliner, again.

“Ik zweer hij wil mij dood hebben,” Remus complained with his elbows propped on the table and head in his hands. (i swear he wants me to die)

Peter turned his head to see James and Sirius approaching, he quickly understood what Remus meant and he tried to keep his amusement out of his voice when he spoke.

“Just tell him mate-“

“Tell who what?” James asked as he and Sirius joined them, James sitting next to Peter, opposite to Remus, and Sirius taking a seat next to Remus opposite to James.

“Nothing,” Remus said as he appeared from behind his hands.

“How was practice?” He asked trying to change the subject, desperately trying not to glance at Sirius.

“Very good!-“ James said and promptly started to rant about Quidditch and how they’ll “smash Hufflepuf this weekend”.

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“So Remus, you’re in love with Sirius?” Mary asked with a smirk.

Remus was in the girls’ dorm to hang out with the girls, currently he was laying on the carpet with his head in Lily’s lap while she played with his hair. Marlene was in her bed with Dorcas doing god knows what and Mary sat opposite to Lily and Remus.

Remus shot op from where he was laying on Lily to sit upright. “Marlene told you?!” He asked mouth agape.

“What? Marlene knows?!” Mary asked schocked.

“Yes! How do you?!” Remus countered.

“You’re not exactly subtle, sweatheart” Lily said, mirth in her tone, as she coaxed Remus to lie in her lap again.

“Ugh,” Remus groaned, hands on his face.

“Babes, everyone can see it, it’s just that you two are oblivious as fuck.” Mary said.

“You think he likes me back?” Remus asked removing his hands from his face, a hopeful look on his face.

“I swear to god you are so fucking oblivious,” She complained.

“Remus, that man is practically on his knees for you,” Lily added.

Remus just looked at the two of them mouth agape, processing what he just heard.

So, apparently his ‘secret’ crush wasn’t that ‘secret’ and Sirius likes him back.

Well,

mission failed successfully?

 

“Are you guys sure? Like sure, sure?” Remus asked still not fully believing it.

In response Mary and Lily groaned.

“Okay, okay, i believe you, fine” Remus said chuckling but quickly stopping.

A pause

Abruptly Remus stood up and all but sprinted out the dorm.

“Where are you going?!” Lily asked confused and concerned.

“Padfoot!” He said over his shoulder before exiting the dorm.

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Remus speed walked back to his dorm but only when he stood infront of the door did he realize what he was about to do.

Confess.

He wanted to confess.

What was he thinking?! He can’t just go ahead and confess to the one person he was pretty sure was the love of his life! What if he says no? Or worse what if he says he-

His thought process stopped abruptly when the door flung open and James almost walked into him.

“Woah, sorry, Moony didn’t see you there- Wait, why are you standing here?”
James asked confused.

“I, uh,-“ Remus stuttered.

“No worries, anyways, i’m going to see Reg, see ya Moony” James said grinning as he walked past Remus down to the common room.

Oh how he wished to be with Sirius like that.

If Remus thought he looked idiotic before, he absolutely does now, standing in the open doorway of their dorm while looking at the space where James just ran from.

Okay, Remus, you can do it, just… confess.

Best case scenario, he’ll reciprocate his feelings.

Worst case scenario?-

Let’s just not think about that.

Remus walked further in the dorm room to see Sirius laying on his bed reading a muggle magazine. Luckily he hadn’t noticed Remus standing in the doorway like an idiot.

He closed the door behind him and walked towards him.

“Sirius?”

Sirius’ head shot up at the sound. “Moony! I didn’t hear you,” He said grinning while sitting upright on the bed, legs criss-crossed.

He was wearing eyeliner, again. And not to mention, he was wearing one of his jumpers!

Yep, he was truly fucked.

“You’re beautiful” Remus breathed, only registering what he said after and his eyes instantly widened and a blush started to creep up his neck.

“Wait, i didn’t mean that- WAIT! No, you’re beautiful of course- but not like that, i just-“ Remus rambled before Sirius cut him off.

“You think i’m beautiful Moony?” Sirius said with a cocky grin.

“Hou je mond, man” Remus said rolling his eyes as he layed down next to Sirius. (Shut up, mate)

When Sirius didn’t say anything he turned his head to see Sirius with his mouth open a bit, eyes wide, and a slight blush on his cheeks.

“Speak Dutch again,” he asked turning to Remus who was lying down next to him.

Remus sat upright on the bed next to Sirius.

“What?” Remus asked.

“Speak Dutch,” Sirius repeated.

“Why?” Remus asked, amusement evident in his voice.

“No reason,” Sirius replied looking at him.

“Okay? What do you want me to say?”

“Anything,”

Remus looked him in the eye as he spoke. “Ik ben verliefd op je en ik was origineel naar hier gekomen om je dit te vertellen maar ik ben te bang en nu ben ik hier en ik weet niet hoe ik dit ooit aan je kan vertellen.” Remus breathed. (I’m in love with you and i originally came here to tell you that but now i’m too scared and i don’t know how i could ever tell you)

Does confessing count when the other person can’t understand it?… or can he?

“Zeg het gewoon, ik bijt niet” Sirius said smirking when he saw the shocked face on Remus’ face. (just tell me, i don’t bite)

Remus froze, his mouth forming a perfect ‘O’ shape.

“You-… you know Dutch?” Remus asked absolutely gobsmacked.

Sirius grinned before he spoke. “I’ve been learning for you.”

“So you understood what i just told you?” Remus asked panic rising.

Sirius just nodded.

“And you know what i’ve been saying to Peter or Marlene?”

Again, Sirius nodded.

Remus buried his face into his hands embarrassed, not only did he just confess to Sirius, he didn’t even know he was doing it in the moment! Now Sirius will hate him and find him disgusting for being gay and-

“Moony?” Sirius asked softly, prying away Remus’ hands from his own face.

Remus let him and just looked at him with a mix of emotions, embarrassed, irritated, shocked,…

Sirius looked at him so softly, like he was something precious. He put an hand on his check and rubbed his thumb on the skin under his eye.

“Can i kiss you, Moony?” Sirius asked with a soft look in his eyes.

That was the moment Remus’ soul left his body and his mind short-circuited, and unfortunately, he made the mistake of not replying.

Sirius jerked his hand away and Remus immediately yearned for Sirius to touch him again.

“I’m sorry, i- i don’t know what i was thinking-“ Sirius said panicky.

That’s when Remus realised what was happening.

“What? Oh Merlin, Sirius no!” Remus said quickly.

“No, no i understand i’m sorry, i-“ Sirius started to get up from the bed and walk away.

“Padfoot!” Remus said standing up as well and grabbing his arm.

“Wha-“ But he didn’t get to finish because in an instant Remus’ arms were on his waist and his lips were on his.

Remus’ soul promptly left his body the moment Sirius put his arms around his neck.

Sirius’ lips fitted perfectly on his and it felt like he was floating, the only thing that mattered in that moment was Sirius.

Sirius.

Sirius.

Sirius.

Well, and air unfortunately.

Remus broke the kiss apart to breath and he stared at his face.

His eyes were blown and his lip plump from the kiss. Remus wanted to melt from the sight alone.

“Moony,” Sirius breathed, their faces so close their noses were almost touching.

Remus’ knees almost buckled just at the sound and promptly started kissing him again.

Sirius didn’t waste a moment and instantly started kissing him back when-

“HALLELUJAH”

Remus and Sirius quickly broke apart to see James’ grinning face and Regulus standing just behind him with his arms crossed and a knowing look on his face.

“FINALLY THE DAY HAS COME” James said, happy like a kid on christmas morning.

“Mon amour, leave them be, yeah? You can express your happiness to them later” Regulus said amusement evident on his face as he dragged an ecstatic James back out the dorm room.

Before Regulus closed the door he gave them one more look that said “i’m happy for you two” before closing the door.

Remus gazed at Sirius before the two of them started laughing at everything, them kissing, James and Regulus interrupting them, James’ scream,..

“Were we that obvious?” Sirius asked still laughing.

“i guess,” Remus said grinning.

For a moment it seemed like time had stopped, Sirius and Remus just gazed at each other with so much love you’d think they’d gotten married.

“I want to be your boyfriend,” Remus breathed after a few long moments.

Sirius grinned brighter than the star he was named after and kissed Remus again.

He looked at Remus so tenderly and spoke, “I’d love that, Moony” He said “Kiss me again now won’t you?”

And well,

who was Remus to deny his boyfriend?

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“Moony, moons, moonbeam, mo-“

“Yes, sweetheart?” Remus replied setting his book down to look at his whining boyfriend.

“Could you do my eyeliner, pretty please?” Sirius asked with the eyeliner in hand, standing in front of Remus.

“Sure, lay down,” Remus said guiding him to lay down on his bed.

Sirius complied laying down on Remus’ bed and handing him the eyeliner.

Remus went over to him and straddled his hips. “Look up,” he guided before carefully applying the make-up.

After he did both eyes he sat upright again and looked at Sirius.

“How do i look?” Sirius asked him with a cocky smirk.

“Beautiful,” Remus said before leaning down and capturing his lips in a kiss, the eyeliner long forgotten.