love, remus

-sent sunday, october 5th-

Lovely Remus Joyful Lupin,

I’ll have you know that me and Peter actually share the briancell. Give Pete some credit. U make me laugh Remus.

Prongs is James’ nickname. Long story. Smae with Wormy, aka Peter. The full nickname is Wormtail, TECHNICALLY, but I just love nicknames so much I had to give his nickname a nickname.

I like this little ‘middle name guessing game’ we have going on. Orgasm and Oblong.. I think I see a theme here. Horny bastard.

Speaking of horny.. YOUR DAD FOUND YOUR PORN??? You know, I almost believed that you were a real teenager. But no, you read porn? How does that even work? When do you cum?? However, what your dad did was so shitty. I actually hate him, no offence. I think gay people are amazing. 

But seriously (haha), no father should ever react like that. ANd ignoring you?? For something you can't control?? SO fucked.

I also want to thank you for your advice. I am going to talk to Reg later, and you were right. Somehow. Your words inspired me. They put a new vision into my mind, if that makes any sense. The shit about putting myself first. I like it a lot. And you are right, people tell me that all the time. People as in James, Pete, and Marls. But it seems different coming from you.

I don't really want to talk about the food thing right now. At Least not until I talk to Reg. But there was an incident. At football, I passed out. I didn't know it was that bad, but apparently not eating the whole day and smoking 4 cigs in a row isn't good for you??

Anyway, I am PRAYING to Bowie that you get the job you want. You need to get out there. Lily says you are fit, and I trust her. Not that we talk about you or anything.. ALSO!! Tell me why I heard Lily saying my name on Friday?? Gossiping about me are you???? Your mother raised you better, Lupin.

Besides that, not much has happened. My family won't leave me alone. FYI, most of my cousins go to Hogwarts. Rumors spread fast in the Black family, and they won't leave me and Reg alone. Had to beat up some of the blokes that were making fun of him.

Me and Barty are slowly convincing him to get a piercing. I told him you think they are hot. Do you really?? I hope so, because I may have told him that if he got a piercing I would too. So I have been thinking, tongue or belly? I will let you choose.

Speaking of Reg, I caught him with a hickey on Thursday. I am trying not to go overprotective brother mode, but it is hard. He wont tell me who it is, and I heard rumors that it's Barty. I guess they would be good together, but me and Pete have bets on Evan and Barty fucking. Maybe they are a throuple.

Also, turns out the bite mark was from a guy. He informed me that we hooked up at the party and so I guess your worrying was right. It is so stupid. He hasn't told anyone about it, I just hope I didn't embarrass myself. I told James and Marls about it, and they were pissed. I didn't get why they were fretting until I found out that the guy never drinks. 

So turns out he did use me. And he bit me while doing it!! Left a small scar, but James almost busted at the seams when I told him. It was terrifying, I've never seen him so mad. This always ends up happening to me. It makes me feel so dirty. I scrub my body after but I always feel their hands. My parents and the people. That's my input for the rants.

We went into Hogsmeade this weekend and I got you some stuff. I guess you will know that considering you have to open the package. Anyways, there's a mixtape Evans made me send. And then the movies. She told me you read the book but haven't seen the movie. Yeehaw. Are you Jack or Ennis is the real question? I hope you like the movie, it's one of my favorites. The other one is good too. It's one of my other favorites, then again, I have a lot of favorites. It is a little sexually graphic, but Evans said you would appreciate the cinematography. 

Ignore the peach scene, or don't, whatever floats your boat. The soundtrack is exquisite, and Timothee is an amazing actor. Also, have you ever seen this movie called ‘Mysterious Skin’?? Reg made me watch it and it was so so so sad and so so so sickening. It's his fav. Maybe I will send you the DVD.

 Some girl at Hogsmeade was hitting on me, but for some reason my body told me not to go for it. Whenever someone flirts with me these days, I just get disgusted. 

Maybe it's a puberty thing. 

What's your cat's name? I kin him, he is adorable. I also couldn't flush the toilet as a baby. I could however speak latin and write in cursive. Strange morals the Black family has.

Do you speak any languages other than English? I'm assuming Welsh, but you never know. I speak a few. Not to show off.. But to show off. I speak French, Latin, English, and a little bit of Greek. French was my first language actually. I still have a little accent, but you should hear Reg. Can't tell what he's saying half the time. It's cute.

I wish you were here so you could pass along your cold. I would do anything to escape this school. I hope you get better though. Lady Stardust was one of the first songs I have ever related to. It sounds surreal, but Bowie literally wrote it about me. I have long black hair. I wear eyeliner. I am very graceful. Got me a nickname. ‘Padfoot.’ I am like a dog, but a smooth, graceful one. Hence Padfoot. I am also very light on my feet. Anyways, I get called faggot all the time because of it, but the people that call me fag are the same ones that beg me to blow them. 

Why do you want to be a teacher? You are homeschooled aren't you? Kind of strange in my opinion. But I bet you would be an amazing teacher. *Clears throat* ‘Oh hey Professor.. Do you think I could stay after class.. *Bends over desk* I need some.. help..’ AND END SCENE. 

I will also be answering your questions now. COMPLETELY HONESTLY.

Do you like spicy food?  YES! I have no choice but to, considering half the food Mum makes burns my tongue.

Crunchy or soggy cereal?  Soggy. If it doesn't disintegrate in my mouth I am not eating it.

Sweet, savory, or salty?  SWEET ALL DAY. I am a sugar-powered fuck machine. Need it to live.

Favorite sex position? you were right, its doggy. i hate facing them, they always get too attached 

Favorite item of clothes you own?  My leather jacket of course!

Dream job? Tattoo artist. I really want to be one in the future. I sketch like 10000 tattoos a week.

What's something you dislike about yourself?  I am very impulsive. If you make me mad, I will do it worse. I aim to hurt and I hate it.

That was personal. But it's true and you must know I suppose.

Anywhosies, it's finally October!! I don't know what I am going to dress up as yet, but I am accepting suggestions. Before I sign out, here are my questions.

What turns you on? (kinky I know, I put a bunch of questions into a random generator)

What's your best feature?

What would you want to be remembered for?

What type of teacher would you be?

How tall are you? (this is important)

I'm leaving now, I’ve attached Evans’ tracklist to the back of this paper. Bye Babe.

Love,

   Sirius O. Black

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Remus’ Mixtape 2

• I know It's Over - Jeff Buckley
• Mis - Alex G
• Master of None - Beach House
• Place to be - Nick Drake
• Waltz #2 (XO) - Elliott Smith
• i was all over her - salvia palth
• How - Clairo

Hey Rem, its Lily, obviously. These songs are a little different from my usual, but Regulus and Mary (Yes Mary!) Help me. Love you.

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-delivered wednesday, october 8th-

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-sent wednesday, october 8th-

Dear Sirius Omelette Black,

Yes, I did have an Omelette for breakfast this morning. No, it wasn't good. Don't know what I was expecting from an egg anyways.

Took you long enough to respond. I was scared I was being ‘ghosted’ as Lily says. But she reassured me that you sent a letter out. And I am glad, I love hearing from you. I watched those movies you sent. I just finished ‘Call me by Your Name’. What the fuck is your problem. Why would you make me watch this? I don't think I can go on with my life. I am so heartbroken and honestly, it feels good to feel something. 

Brokeback was good of course. Could have guessed that, the book was amazing. Also, the book is way better than the movie, so I am trusting you with my copy. Don't mind my annotations. Hope you like it. It never fails to surprise me on how Jack bottomed in the cold, dry mountains with no lube. In addition, I am obviously Ennis. 

I am going to Scotland to personally beat up that guy from the party. I can't believe this. When I read that he took advantage of you, I felt so sick to my stomach. I can't even imagine how you feel. I'm sorry this happened to you Sirius. You seem oddly normal about it though. I hope you aren't taking it in the way I think you are. You didn't deserve it at all.

You fainting at practice is terrible Sirius. You have to eat. You are a growing, athletic boy and obviously this tactic isn't working for you. I have gone down this rabbit hole before, and it is hard to leave. You have to get better. I know, that is a weird thing to say, but it is true. I couldn't live with myself if you got worse.

And no, me and Lily were not ‘gossiping’ about you. I was just informing her on my new friends and you came up. And guess what!!! I am getting interviewed for the job at the library tomorrow!! Next time you hear from me, I will hopefully have a job!! 

I am trying to stay humble, but I know the library does not get a lot of applicants, so I already went thrifting and bought myself some new clothes. I got 2 pairs of jeans, 3 shirts, and a new sweater. The shirts are my favorite, I would show you, but I don't have a camera. Anyway, one has David Bowie and another is just a basic button up. But get this, the last one says ‘I am High as fuck and have a gun in my backpack.’ Isn't that amazing?

Ma had my balls for it, but Da actually laughed and he patted my back. I think he likes it. Maybe he's warming up to me again.

In my opinion, you should get a tongue piercing. Seems more fun, and a belly button one is tacky. Plus, it gets stuck on stuff easier. Tongue piercings are also super hot. Not that it matters.

The cat's name is Bob. Basic I know, but he likes Bob Dylan a lot so I had to name him Bob. It's just fate. Whenever I spin his records, he starts singing. Also, he figured out how to flush!! Took a lot of discipline, but he is really learning. They grow up so fast.

Somehow I am not even surprised you speak 4 languages. Posh prat. I speak Welsh and a little bit of Urdu. My dad is Pakistani and my moms Egyptian. Not that you asked, just thought you would want to know. I grew up in Wales though.

If I call you a fag will you blow me too? Just joking. I wouldn't do that to you. Can't believe people are so miserable with their lives that they resort to shit like that. Desperate whores honestly. Also, never roleplay a student again, it's creepy.

I want to be a teacher because I want to be there for kids. I used to go to school but then there was some incident involving teachers and I got pulled out. I don't really want to talk about it right now. Not even Lily knows the whole story. Anyways, I want to be a good teacher. One that's there for the kids when they need it. I hope you have a teacher like that.

Soggy cereal is a crime, however I am not surprised that you prefer it. You are weird enough for it. No comment on the sex position. Sounds hot though. Wink Wink. Okay I am never doing that again. I know more about you now, looks wise. You are still like a blur in my mind. Like a dream. But the leather jacket really puts the cherry on top. Adds to your whole ‘punk-rock’ facade.

Maybe you can give me a tattoo one day. I want to get a moon tattoo really bad. This might sound weird, but I have always felt connected to the moon. 

I am the wrong person to ask for halloween costumes, but for you I will brainstorm ideas. Okay, my hand is starting to hurt, so I am going to answer your questions then ask you some then go.

What turns you on? I gravitate towards more soft features in men I noticed, but I wouldn't necessarily say it turns me on. I guess a funny personality does, I know it's lame, but it's true.

What's your best feature?   ;)

What would you want to be remembered for?   I don't want to be remembered. Maybe as a good friend.

What type of teacher would you be?   English definitely. Humans were brought together by words throughout all of history and I like to continue that legacy.

How tall are you? I hope this isn't a deal breaker. I am actually 6’4. On a good day.

I have been thinking really hard on these questions, so don't laugh.

How tall are you? (i am curious now)

How do you imagine me?

What's a memory that makes you smile?

3 confessions?

Is there anyone that could destroy you with their words? who?

What turns you on?

Well, I hope this was a fun letter. I tried my best. I think you will like the book. You better add your own annotations so I can read your thoughts.

Much gratitude,

   Remus J. Lupin

-delivered saturday, october 11th-

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-sent saturday, october 11th-

My dearest Remus Jacuzzi Lupin,

Where is your Halloween spirit?? It is one of the best holidays ever, excluding my birthday of course. Honestly, you just get to dress up and have fun and eat candy!! Plus, it's on a Friday this year! Me and James are planning a party, all houses are invited. Hufflepuffs supplying drugs. It's going to be awesome.

I would never ghost you Moony, I hate that you think of me like that. Also, notice that.. I didn't call you Remus!! That's because you have a nickname. Took me some thinking (20 seconds), but I finally came up with Moony. Because you like the moon. I know, I am a genius.

HAHAH!!!! I am glad you liked the movies. Very sad indeed. So so sad and so so gay. Good thing you are Ennis because I am Jack. We go perfectly together Remus. And thank you for giving me your book, I will cherish it with all my heart. No one ever lets me borrow their things. They say I'm ‘too chaotic.’ Whatever that means.

I am done talking about this guy. Hope you don't mind.

I apologize for the roleplay bit I did. Didn't mean to make you uncomfortable. I am going to ask but you don't have to answer, why were you pulled out of school? You left me hanging there.

Also, I took you advice for real this time and told Reg. He cried, I never see him cry. We crode together. He has been making sure I eat and it is kind of annoying. But Barty and I have convinced him to get a piercing!!! Barty is just waiting for his new piercing gun to arrive and then we are going to do it. I am getting the tongue piercing and Reg decided on snake bites. If you don't know, it's like two little hoops on the bottom lip. Pretty cool.

Barty informed me that tongue piercings make head feel better.. Is that why you chose it moony ;) Must be, considering your favorite feature is your dick. Or atleast I am assuming it is. I knew you were a horny bitch. 

This morning I woke up with a tickling feeling. I think it was the gods telling me that you got the job. CONGRATS FUTURE REMUS!!! I knew you could do it.

I am very jealous about your new shirt. Might have to go to Wales and steal it. Papa Lupin laughing at it makes me happy. Maybe things won't be so bad after all.

BOB!!! HE IS SO TALENTED!! We are such good fathers. Daddy Remus. Just kidding, unless you are into that. I'm not though. Sorry Moony.

Lily has informed me more about you. Well, technically I was eavesdropping. Anyways, that doesn't matter, what matters is the fact that half your wardrobe is knitted sweaters. Absolutely adorable.

You being 6’4 does something to me. I love tall guys. Makes them 10x more attractive. Bet you have a nice nose too. Being Pakistani and all. You know what they say about big noses. 

I would gladly give you a tattoo Moony. You would just have to sit very still.

GUESS WHAT!!!! WE WON OUR FIRST GAME! It was on Friday, there was a party but I ditched it to talk to Reg. We got high together and it was nice. I shot the winning goal. 2 - 1. Feel bad for Reg, he was the team we were going against. He put up a good fight. 

I think him and James had a row though. Saw them leaving the lockers together looking all red. It's sad, I really want them to get along.

I had another test this week and I passed!! As always. It's not like I try to be a nerd, it just comes naturally to me.

I feel weird inside, usually I pounce at any man that looks at me, but I still feel so tied back. Like the universe is telling me not to get with anyone. I think I will on Halloween though. Hopefully you come up with a good costume idea.

Maybe you will get invited to a party.

Anywhosies, I will answer your questions now.

How tall are you? 5’7… don't laugh, its average height. i already get enough shit from Prongs

How do you imagine me? tall. darkish skin, freckles vibe lowkey. nice hands, cute nose. i don't really know, you are kind of like an entity in the back of my mind

What's a memory that makes you smile? my last summer with reg. We were playing outside at the beach and it was such a nice day. We were in France for the month, our parents had work, and we were just having so much fun. I will never forget that week. Nothing in particular about it makes me smile, it's just it was one of the last times we were really ourselves.

3 confessions? you can tell ANYONE these. 1 - I spilled nail polish on Evans’ pillow and blamed it on Barty. 2 - I relapsed at the start of the school year. I regret it, but it felt so nice. 3 - I ate James’ crisps..

Is there anyone that could destroy you with their words? who? My mom. She already did though. I don't know if I will ever be fixed honestly.

What turns you on? tall people

Don't tell anyone about the relapsing please. I would rather not talk about it right now, but I needed to get it out. My questions are going to be bad today, my mind is all foggy. 

Are you religious?

Three favorite songs right now?

Favorite quote?

Could you see yourself falling in love?

What would your ideal date be?

Bye Moonbeam. Until next time ;)

Love,

    Sirius O. Black

-delivered tuesday, october 14th-

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FRIDAY, OCTOBER 10TH

- INCOMING CALL FROM +44****** -

“REMUS!!”

“Lils!! How are you?”

“I am good Rem, missing you.”

“I miss you too.”

“Did you like the mixtape we put together?”

“Oh yes, it was amazing. Might go into town to some of those artists on DVD.”

“You should. Or you could just get a phone.”

“Whatever..”

“How's the job hunt going?”

“Good! I got a job at the library! I start next week!!”

“That's great Rem!”

“Yeah, thanks. Enough about me. How's school?”

“It's been.. good.”

“Doesn't sound convincing. Talk to me Lils.”

“Urghhh, fine. I dont know whats wrong really. It's just..”

“Take your time.”

“Mary.”

“Oh yeah? How is she??”

“Good. Too good. Fuck Rem.”

“Talk to meee.”

“She's just so beautiful.”

“Oh Lily..”

“I am so fucked Remus. Everything she does is amazing. I have only known her for a month! Barely even!”

“Yeah.. I know how you feel.”

“It is so crazy Remus. I feel insane! It's like she was- Wait. Did you say ‘you know how I feel?’”

“I said no such thing. Continue on.”

“Uh uh Remus, you can't lie to me. Spill. Is it Sirius?”

“Fuck. YES! It is Sirius.”

“What about him? Hold on, let me go to my dorm.”

“...”

“Go on then.”

“I've Never seen him before or heard his voice. I barely know him. I don't even know his middle name! But something about him just pulls me in.”

“That's Sirius alright.”

“What does that mean?”

“He just has that effect on people. I would be careful Rem, I have never seen him settle down before.”

“Oh, right. It's stupid anyway.”

“Don't say that Rem. If anyone could tie the ‘Great Sirius Black’ down, it would be you.”

“I doubt that.”

“Remus..”

“Just forget it. Tell me more about Mary.”

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