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Regulus didn't have a bad life.
He was rich, he looked good because of his genetics, he got everything he asked for (as long as his parents aproved of it). And he had loving parents, or at least that's what he told himself.
They love him, every parent loves their child. His just love him in their own way.
He never had a reason to be depressed, he wasn't depressed. So what his brother ran away three months ago, so what he did so without saying goodbye, so what he hasn't spoken to Regulus since then, so what his parents put their wrath meant for Sirius on Regulus. Those were no reasons to feel the way he did.
Truth to be told, it was the worst summer he's ever gone through.
Since Sirius ran away, his mother forbidden him from comunicating with his friends in any way, scared that they will take their only heir.
His father told him, that on the winter break, he will get the dark mark.
He also has a lot new scars from his parents.
But all of that was just because they loved him. They wanted him to get a good life.
He had no reason to be depressed.
So why is he standing in the astronomy tower with muggle painkillers and a bottle of firewhisky in his hands after his friends went to sleep.
He felt bad for not leaving any note for any of them, but it will be easier to forget him, with nothing left after him.
It was october, so you couldn't see his or Sirius' constellation. It's for the better that his brother doesn't see him do this in any form.
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Yesterday was full moon and everyone was exhausted.
Moony was sleeping in the infirmary, Sirius fell asleep on the chair next to him and Wormy was out like a light.
Only James was not sleeping, he wasn't even thinking about anything, it was empty in there, the only thing that got to his brain was Peter's light snoring
So after about three hours of being awake he grabed the map.
First he searched for Lily.
He liked Lily, he was sure that at some point of his life he even loved Lily. Not now though.
He was still interested in her and asking her out, but now it was like a routine. He didn't do it to get her to date him anymore.
He, of course, found Lily in her dorm, probably sleeping.
Then he searched for Regulus Arcturus Black.
He was thinking about him more than he ever was. It wasn't all the time, but it was enough to notice small details about him.
Like the fact that his 'curly hair' is accualy wavy.
Or the fact that he didn't have smile lines forming, but he did have two creases between his eyebrows forming from frowning so much at fifteen.
Or the fact that he bites his lower lip and then has his lips dry.
Or the fact that he has everything his friends ask for in his bag.
- lipbalm for Pandora, so she can then scold him for not aplying it when he has it in his bag, extra quill for Evan, because apperently he always forgets his own, chocolate for Barty when he's craving something and a hair tie for Dorcas when she forgets hers
Those were this weeks most asked things of Regulus.
He found Regulus in the astronomy tower, he's never seen him there, but that was probably because he was almost never awake for this long, since he goes to bed at nine o'clock and it's about quarter after midnight.
Naturally, he was curious what Regulus is doing in there. So he grabbed his cloak and went to check.
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Regulus was scared to do it, so he decided to swallow the pills one after one
One
Gulp of alcohol
Two
I'm so sorry Sirius
Gulp of alcohol
Three
A hand on his wrist and two fingers in his throat
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As soon as James saw Regulus take a second pill of whatever that was, downing it with alcohol he rushed to him and took the third pill out of his hand.
The bottle of the pills fell and so did the firewhisky, but the only thing James cared about right now was trying to get Regulus to vomit everything he just swallowed out.
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Regulus felt like shit.
There were two fingers in his throat, he was vomiting all over some personnes fingers, his throat was burning someone was rubbing his back and saying something to him, but he didn't hear what.
He was sure that he vomited everything he had in his stomach and more.
When he finished the person sat him down against a railing.
His vision was blurry, but he could make out tan skin, messy curls and red pyjamas. Now he could also hear what he was saying to him
"- okay?"
"...what"
Regulus replied
"I said it's going to be alright, okay?"
And Regulus started crying.
He doesn't even remember when was the last time he cried, but now was the time for crying apperently
"I'm so sorry..."
The person- Potter, now he could see- pulled him in for a hug and Regulus emediatly clinged to it.
The only thing he remembered before falling asleep was james repeating "it's okay"
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Regulus woke up in the infirmary in the bed next to Lupin.
James was sitting in the chair next to the uncomfortable bed he was laying in, playing nervously with his fingers.
His brother was also next to him, between him and Lupin.
Once Jame- once Potter noticed he was awake he lightened up.
"Reggie, how are you feeling ?"
Sirius also lifted his head
"Regg-"
Before he could let the words get to him he shot back
" I don't fucking need to be here, I'm not fucking ill. Leave me the fuck alone" he said the last part loudly.
And with that he stormed out, passing his friends that were coming in, probably to check if something happend to him.