Stupid decisions

What. The. Fuck.

What in the living fuck just happened?

One minute has me sitting comfortably with Eren pressed up against me then the next has Eren telling me to go fuck Petra while he storms out the café. Like seriously, what the fuck?

I realize that i'm just standing in the middle of the café like an idiot, staring at the door the Eren had just stormed out of. Why had I just yelled at him? I... fuck it all to fucking hell!

I had attempted to go after him, try and explain that I wasn't protecting her but when I got to the door I was suddenly pulled back by somebody.

"For your own good just leave him be." Was what came out of the person who grabbed me. I turned around to see who it was and I froze.

"Look Annie I..." I was trying to explain everything the best I could but I stopped when Annie threw me a harsh glare.

"What. The. Fuck. Was that?" 

"Uh..."

"After everything that has progressed between you two..."

"Annie..."

"... All it takes is for this whore to come along for you to fuck everything up?"

"Hey just so you know I only slept with one guy and that was..." Petra tried to cut in.

"Oh save the drama for your dead mama!" Is what Annie said. Once she made sure that Petra wasn't going to talk again, she turned to me glaring.

"Now when I tell you it's okay to go talk to him, you will march your short ass over to my brothers bar and go fix this shit because you seriously fucked up! Am I any way unclear? Because if I am then I don't mind beating it into your brain." God help me.

"Okay..." Annie nodded before turning to Petra, said girl flinching from Annie's glare.

"Now as for you..."

"Me?"

"If you ever show your face or I hear that you are in any way you better leave the country or so help me I will hunt you down and tear you apart!" Petra flinched, eyes widening in fear. I had a feeling that Annie wasn't joking.

"Am I clear?"

"Y-yes..."

"Get the fuck out now!" Was the last thing that needed to be said before Petra was bolting for the door.

By now the place was filled with chatter, the clinking of plates as the spoons collided with it, the laughter and other shit. Well guess shows over. I realize that Annie is staring at me with her cold eyes.

"What?"

"Go talk to him." Her voice leaving no room for ifs and buts so I just go to my table, grab my laptop and head out the door.

I then think about how I am going to find him. He wouldn't go home or to the park so where could he be? It was then that I remember Annie saying that Eren was in her brothers bar so I had to back track since during my thinking spree, I had pasted the only bar in this area. Annie has a brother?

I stop in front of the bar, looking at the sigh that says 'Reiner's bar and grill' this must be it. I enter the bar, eyes scanning for any sign of Eren. When my eyes land on a certain brunette I sigh in relief. I start walking toward him, only to stop in my tracks when I see that Eren wasn't alone. He was talking to a big blonde guy, smiling and laughing. What the fuck?

"Am I interrupting anything?" I ask as I sit down on the stool next to Eren.

"Levi what are you...?"

"So this is the asshole who hurt you huh?" The blonde said as he stepped down for his stool, cracking his knuckles as he glared at me.

"I have been waiting for this moment for a long time." He said. I returned the glare as I stood from my own seat.

"Bring it on big guy."

"WOAH WOAH HOLD UP!" Eren came between us, using his hands to keep us apart.

"Eren this guy hurt you, why not let me knock his teeth in?"

"No..."

"Step aside and let me show this shit head what happened to the last motherfucker who threatened me."

"Guys..."

"Oh yeah? "

"Yeah."

"What makes you think that im' going to let you hurt Eren again huh?"

"You are going to and you're going to watch."

"You left him, broke his heart for some pussy."

"You don't know anything you fucker!"

"I know that Eren cried every day, I know that he blamed himself for you leaving him because he thought that it was his fault, I know that he barely ate anything, had to be sent to the hospital to be tube fed because he almost starved himself. He abused himself every damn day because he was hurting, saying that you deserved a better lover!" What? I looked at Eren, while he glared at the blonde guy.

"Reiner!"

"What he has to know how much he hurt you!"

"He didn't need to know that!"

"Yes he did!"

"No... h-he knew enough as it is." He looked at me, tears in his eyes as he pushed past both of us. I called his name as he walked out the door.

"Go get him."

"What?" I turn to Reiner who at this point had a calm expression. Just like Annie I thought.

"Go get him... he needs you."

"Weren't you just telling me to stay away?"

"Yeah but now i'm telling you to go. I've heard good things about you since you returned to Eren's life, my little sister keeps me updated ya know?"

"Yeah..."

"Sorry but the anger came from the knowledge of what you did... couldn't help myself."

"Its fine." I said, shaking his offered hand.

"I hope next time will be more... civil."

"More civil? No blood or teeth were beaten in so that's pretty civil to me." Reiner chuckled.

"True, go talk to him. Fix this shit."

"Sound just like your sister." I smirked.

"I get that a lot but shes way worse."

"I can agree."

"Ha don't ever agree to that in front of her or else he will kill you."

"Note taken."

"Now go."

"Kay."

I waved a goodbye before walking out the bar. I didn't see Eren anywhere so I figured he went home.

As I was walking toward his house all the things Reiner told me flooded my mind. Eren almost starved himself to death, he abused himself... like cutting? He blamed himself for me leaving, that much I knew from his letters.

"Eren?" I call as I entered the big house. No answer.

"Eren?" I try again as I head toward his small house.

"Go away Levi!" Thank god.

"Please I just want to talk."

"Talk about what?"

"About everything." I jump back when his door is flung open. There stood an angry looking Eren.

"Okay. Lets talk about how you defended Petra and blamed me!"

"Eren i'm sorry, I didn't mean it that way..."

"I don't want to hear more of your lies Levi!"

"I'm not lying to you!"

"All this was just a fucking joke on me wasn't it?! You saying you were sorry and that you wanted to work this out was just a fucking joke on me right?! All this was a fucking prank between you and her but guess what I'M NOT LAUGHING!"

"Eren that's not true! I left Petra because she was using me for my money. She was using me but fucking oluo behind my back. After she left I came to find you!"

"Oh really! Do you expect me to believe that!?"

"Yes because i'm telling you the truth!" Eren snorted.

"Eren when I came back to you I came back with the intentions of fixing what I broke."

"..."

"I knew how bad I hurt you from the letters Annie gave me, I never knew that you almost died!"

"I couldn't eat... no matter how hungry I was... I... couldn't speak to anyone despite the fact that I knew I could... I just blamed myself..." Came Erens weak response. He sat on the bed, head resting in his hands.

"Eren..."

"I tried so hard to please you. I tried cleaning to your standards, tried making dinner before you got home... tried being better in bed but... nothing seemed to make it right." Eren sobbed and my heart sank.

"..."

"Then you left, called me... telling I wasn't good enough..."

"..."

"You could've told me.."

"Tell you what?"

"That there was someone else... that you loved." I sighed.

"Eren..."

"I would've understood... i'm not the best lover out there..." I came up next to him, pulling him close as he cried.

"Eren don't ever say that."

"Its true... why else would you leave?" i shook my head as I rubbed circles on his back.

"It wasn't because of you... I was to stupid to realize the effort and trouble you went through just to please me and..." I held back a sob. Breathing slowly to be able to talk.

"... I was to dumb to notice everything that you did and how wonderful you were..." I heard Eren's choked sob and I let my tears fall.

"I didn't realize what I had until I lost it... guess that statement is true." I gave a bitter laugh, pulling Eren closer to me as a choked sob escaped my throat.

"... i'm so sorry Eren..." I cried.

After a few minutes of me crying and saying 'i'm sorry' over like a mantra, I feel hands cupping my face.

"Levi..."

"Im sorry... if you never want to see me again that's fine I just need you to know that im sorry and that I love you..."

"I love you too" Before I could even answer a pair of soft lips were against my own.

We kissed for a few minutes, just enjoying the feeling of each other. I reluctantly pulled away.

"Um... do you... uh..."

"Yes?" I looked at Eren, who was under me right now. He looked so beautiful, tan skin flushed and kiss swolen lips with eyes that gleamed and twinkled as they stared up at me. I was at a loss for words.

"Levi?" Oh right.

"Um... would you like to spend the night at my place?" I asked, hoping the answer was a yes.

"Sure... I would love to." I smiled.

"Great... get pj's."

"Gotcha." We stared at each other.

"..."

"..."

"But you have to move."

"Oh right sorry." I got off of him, helping him stand. He went to his dresser, grabbing a t-shirt and sweatpants and his pjs. Once he put his stuff in a small backpack he grabbed my hand and dragged me toward his door. He locked his door and proceeded to drag me to the bigger house. He let my hand go once we were in the kitchen, taking a marker from the cup, he wrote 'spending the night at Levi's night-Eren:)' I smiled at him and then we headed out to my car. 

Once we were buckled in I asked"Ready?"

"Ready as I'll ever be."

"Ok then."

With that we drove off toward my home.