Letters to a lost love
Dear Levi,
How long has it been since I saw you?
Not too long right?
Can't be that long now.
Seems like it was just yesterday morning when you left me. Can't believe that it came down to that. Was I really that bad to you?
Was I not enough for your satisfaction?
Could I not make you happy like I was suppose to?
I swear I was trying so hard. I tried to make you happy Levi. I tried to clean the house to your liking, tried to make dinner before you arrived home. Tried to be what you looked for in bed. I tried to learn how you liked it. Which position you liked to to take my body in, I would try to moan like you liked, I would chant your name like you loved to hear. I tried to make you happy but it wasn't enough to keep you. Not enough to keep you with me, to keep you loving me.
Where did I go wrong Levi?!
Why did you leave me?!
What did I do?
Was there someone else? You could've told me and I would've understood you perfectly. I would have let you go, it would have been easier to let you go... why couldn't you just tell me what I was doing wrong? We could have tried to fix things. Come... Come back to me Levi...
NO SCRATCH THAT!
I don't want to back! You hurt me for no reason! All I was to you was a plaything, you never loved me like you said countless times before. You will never love me, never have to begin with. You were just playing with my feelings. Using my body to your satisfaction as decoy until you found your true love.
Have you found them?
Did you move somewhere else?
Did you die from loneliness? I hope you did!
You deserve to be alone! You don't deserve nobody! Not with the way you treat your 'lovers'
But... why would you tell me you loved me? You would tell me that I was beautiful, that you never had someone to love more than me. That I was your everything. I would get embarrassed and you would hold my face, look into my eyes and say "I'll keep telling you this until you believe it my love."
Did you lie when you said that you never had someone as good as me in bed? Did you lie when you said I did a great job cleaning the whole house? Was it a lie when you told me that my food was to die for?
Probably was... you never wanted me around when we met. Always coming up with an excuse to leave me behind as you walked ahead on the street.
Well, I hope that you have found what you were looking for and... hope you are happy.
Sincerely Yaeger
PS: You ruined my life, broke my heart into a million unfix able pieces... hope you're happy with that... probably are