Suspicions
It has been two weeks since I've seen Eren and honestly it's been very stressful. I find it hard to get him off my mind, where ever I am my mind seems to stress it's self with the idea that Eren is in trouble or in some kind of situation.
Is he in trouble? Does he need help?
These same two questions always seem to pop up every time I think about him. I always wonder if he's in trouble and needs someones help.
Why was he in that Ally? Was he hurt?
I'm more frustrated as each day passes by because I have more questions and no answers to any of them. It irritates me to no end that I don't know what's wrong and I can't just go and ask him either. It also frustrates me because I don't love him. I love Petra... right?
UGH! Just another question I can't answer.
I get up from my desk, where piles upon piles of papers lay for me to look over. I need a fucking shower. A nice hot shower and maybe some tea. Just as i'm about to enter the bathroom, Petra comes in yelling my name in her fucking high pitched voice.
"Leeeeevvvviii!"
I don't answer but I do shut the door and lock it before turning on the water, I can't deal with her right now for other reasons besides my Eren drugged mind.
"Oh Levi?" Fucking shit!
"Levi?... Oh are you taking a shower?"
"Of course i'm not! I'm taking a shit with the water running, what a coincidence!" Annoying bitch.
"Oh don't be so mean to me mister. Anyway, I was going to tell you some news. Some really great news." I sigh as the steaming water hits my exhausted body.
"What is it then?" I ask harshly. Honestly why can't I just take a shower in piece?
"Oluo got the job! Ya know the job he's been trying to get for months? Well the manager accepted his resumé and he got in! He starts first thing tomorrow morning. Isn't that great?!" Is this bitch serious?
"You telling me this because I care? Last time I checked I don't care about a desperate ass man who can't take no for an answer!"
"Oh stop being so grumpy and take your fucking shower."
"Thank you if you haven't noticed that is exactly what I was trying to do!"
"Asshole!"
"Bitch!"
Few Hours Later.
I was currently walking home from the store because Petra decided that she wanted junk food. Honestly who can eat this much junk food without feeling sick? It's disgusting.
Anyway, as i'm heading up in the elevator to my floor my mind wanders back to Eren for like... the ten thousandth time today. Wondering where he was currently, if he was okay or not. If he was even eating something. Before I could ponder further on the subject my thoughts were interrupted however by the ding of a bell. The doors open, I walk in and the first thing I notice was that the place was eerily quiet. Too quiet for someone like Petra to be home. I place the bags on the coffee table, walking quietly around the house. I check for Petra but she appears to not be home. Did she leave?
However, before these questions could even wonder to extreme leaves of panic I hear her voice. It was coming from the balcony. I walk up there quietly because as I get closer I notice that she's talking to herself... or maybe to someone else? I get a clear visual of Petra holding the rail of the balcony, the phone to her ear as she talks to someone. I would've interrupted her conversation if not for the next thing I heard stop me.
"No... Levi and me aren't going to work out. He's to hung up on something I don't care about finding out." She pauses and smiles. Why is she smiling?
"I just need more time Oluo, can you wait a little longer for me? Yes... Oluo You know why i'm with him.... Yeah, he's just got the money and a little more and I'll be able to have enough to get the house we want." So this bitch has been using me?! What. The. Fuck?!
"Oluo... I love you not Levi. You know that don't you?" I didn't stay to hear anymore of her conversation. I heard what I need to and it confirmed my suspicions on her. Lately, I have been having a really off feeling whenever I was with or around her. It could've been because of Eren because he just got me fucked up but that can't be true because I've been having this feeling three weeks before I even saw Eren. Her saying those things just gave me a reason to hate her even more than I already do.
It also gives me one more reason to hate myself even more because I... I left Eren for someone who was just using me... he loved me for me and I let go of that for some bitch. Wow...
I grab the bags on the coffee table and keys before leaving the apartment. I don't know where or what i'm doing but I just have to find Eren again. No matter how long it takes. Minutes, hours, days or weeks, Even months I don't care. I just have to find him.