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“I’m sorry Lexa.” She couldn’t understand why Clarke was apologizing, if anything she should apologize for Finn interrupting them in the first place. She really hated his guts. Clarke turned away to look at Finn again, Lexas eyes followed noticing the smirk his face held.

Why had Clarke moved herself between them in the first place?

“Finn, please just go, don’t do this.”

Wait hold on Clarke knew him. How? She pushed Clarke to the side so she could stand between the two now. She looked from Clarke to Finn, Clarkes face held fear, she looked like she was ready to cry at any moment, while Finn looked like it was his fucking birthday.

“You two know each other? How?”

She was looking at Clarke for an answer, but she wouldn’t look at her, she felt her stomach drop. What was happening?

“Princess you didn’t tell her about me? I’m honestly hurt, I thought our relationship meant more to you than that.”

Lex felt as if she had just got punched in the gut. She instinctively wrapped her arms around her mid-section. Clarke was looking at her waiting for a reaction, Lexa could do nothing but shake her head.

“You have been cheating on me?”

Clarke took a tentative step towards her and she stepped back bringing herself closer to Finn.

“I didn’t cheat on you, I would never, please hear me out babe.”

Lexa shook her head, and turned so she was facing Finn, she wanted to hit him, but she needed to know more first now.

“Explain.”

She had to hold her own hands down to stop from slapping that fucking grin off of his face.

“Lexa please let me explain, just come inside.” She felt Clarke grab her arm and try to pull her back away from him.

She snatched her arm away from Clarke, spinning on her, “don’t touch me!” Clarkes eyes widened but she took a step back releasing her. She took a deep breath in before turning back to Finn and nodding.

“Well as far as I know she didn’t cheat on you, but hell it wouldn’t be out of character for her.”

“Fuck you Finn!” Lexa ignored Clarkes outburst, until she saw Finns face change into something else entirely. He took a couple of steps towards Clarke but she stepped into his way still trying to fully comprehend what was happening. Her insticts told her not to let him near Clarke.

He looked down at her and his smirk returned.

“She is pretty easy, you know that by now and you know how good she is, so can you blame me for leaving Raven for her?”

It clicked. The blonde that Raven told her about way back at that party was Clarke, Raven never got a good enough look to recognize her. The girl that broke her best friend. She turned facing Clarke, how?

“You lied to me.”

“I didn’t lie Lex, I was too scared to tell you guys.”

Before Lexa could say anything else she felt herself being swung around and slammed into the closest wall, her head banged so hard she saw stars for a moment. It was as if the world had gone silent. She couldn’t register what just happened until she felt something cold pressed against her throat.

She opened her eyes when she felt the breath on her face to see Finn pressing her against the wall a switch blade held to her throat. That’s when it hit her, Finn was the abusive ex, he hurt Clarke, she looked over his shoulder to see tears running down Clarkes face and her screaming.

She had to concentrate to clear her head enough to understand what was being said.

“I told you I wouldn’t let you stand in my way, you should have listened.”

“Finn please let her go! Please!!”

“Shut up baby, I just need to take care of this and I will deal with you after.” That snapped her out of her fog, she wouldn’t let him lay a finger on her ever again.

Lexa tried to push him away from her but he was crazed, he pressed the blade in harder, she felt it cut her, and knew she was bleeding, but only a little. She knew when Clarke saw the blood because she freaked out.

One moment she was just standing there screaming and the next she was doing her best to pull him off of her. Finn couldn’t control himself he spun around and swung the hand with the knife at Clarke. As soon as he had released her she tackled him to the ground. Pinning the hand with the blade above his head.

She chanced a glance to look at Clarke and saw that she was on the floor gripping her arm where blood had begun dripping down. He had slashed her arm. That glance cost her, Finn headbutted her making her see the stars again, she didn’t loosen her grip though.

She began repeatedly slamming his hand on the ground, he held on to the knife with all his strength but after a couple more slams and a twist of his wrist it clattered to the floor. He growled at her and began trying to throw her off of him so he could grab it again.

“Clarke! Grab the fucking knife!” She saw Clarke crawl towards them and grab the knife before crawling back again.

Lexa focused back on trying to keep her dominance in this fight but her focus was lost just a moment when she heard Raven scream.

“Lexa!?” She looked up and saw Raven standing there confused as hell, it was all Finn needed, he pushed her off of him, she scrambled back trying not to let him get on top of her, she looked over to see Raven obviously trying to find a way to help her.

“Back off Raven!” She jumped to her feet at the same time Finn did. He began running the little distance between them, at the last moment before impact she darted out of the way. He growled in frustration turning around and tried to grab her again. She swung her fist as hard as she could, and couldn’t help the smile from forming on her face when she heard a crack and blood began pouring out of his nose.

“Fucking bitch!”

“Is that all you got Collins?”

She wasn’t going to let this be over so fast. She looked over at Raven and knew she would beat his ass for hurting her, she glanced at Clarke quickly taking in her still holding onto her arm. She felt a pain in her heart, who was she? But then she remembered the marks he had left on her and felt her anger increase, no one deserved to be hurt by their significant other.

She glanced back at Finn who had begun circling her like an animal, he darted and got a hit in to her stomach. Shit Lexa focus! She shook her head eyeing him trying to guess his next move. What Finn didn’t realize was he gave away what he was going to do next every time. When she saw him pull his right arm back, she ducked under it and spun landing a kick to his legs as she did making him crumble.

She could tell he was getting frustrated, good, he would make stupid mistakes. He stood up and went straight for her knocking them both to the ground. He was trying to climb on top of her, she knew she couldn’t let that happen, she punched him in the nose again. He screamed so loud it made her pause. She climbed on top of him. He began throwing his fist wildly at her and she did her best to block them while not falling off of him.

She took a chance and began punching his face over and over again. She must of hit his nose again because she heard a scream again. He stopped hitting her after that but she couldn’t stop, she was lost.

She pictured herself trying to quiet Ravens sobs after he broke her heart, she saw Clarkes face of pain when she grabbed her wrist, her lips hurt from him. She even pictured her mother on the floor begging her father to stop hitting her. Why didn’t he stop? He could have stopped but he didn’t, he killed her, and took away the only family she hated. She hated him, she wished he had been dead instead of prison.

Everything else was gone, all she could picture was her mother, the pain she must of felt, she pictured her little self curled in a bed that wasn’t hers begging for her mother to find a way back to her. She remembered all the panic attacks she had whenever she saw someone who looked like her father.

She felt arms grab her and she fought against them. She turned to see it was Raven trying to pull her off of Finn, she looked down and saw that he wasn’t moving. She scrambled off of him and wrapped her arms around her knees as she began rocking back and forth. She doesn’t know when the tears had started but she couldn’t stop them.

Raven wrapped her arms around. “Shhh Lex it’s okay, please calm down.” She looked up and saw Clarke was looking Finn over.

Through her sobs she was able to ask, “Is he alive?” Clarke nodded as she began trying to wake him. Lexa sighed in relief. She looked to Raven was watching her.

“He hurt you, he hurt Clarke, I couldn’t stop Raven, I couldn’t stop. I could have killed him. I’m just like my father.” Raven pulled her in closer and she let her, she broke down. Everything turned a little murky then. She couldn’t hear what was Raven was whispering to her, the words made no sense but they comforted her all the same.

“What happened Clarke what was he doing here?”

**Clarkes POV**

“I couldn’t stop, I could have killed him I’m just like my father.” Raven was holding Lexa as she fell apart, all she wanted was to be the one holding her, but she knew in her gut that she wouldn’t be welcomed. And in a moment when Raven found out even less.

“What happened Clarke what was he doing here?” She raised her finger up as she brought out her phone and called the police, she wouldn’t give him the opportunity to hurt anyone she cared about again.

When she hung up the phone she looked to see that Finn was still sleeping, well sort of, whatever this was called. The bleeding in her arm had slowed down, she took her sweater off her hips and pressed it to the cut in attempt to make it stop completely.

She moved to sit next to Raven and Lexa, but the moment she sat Lexa looked up with swollen eyes and gave her the most terrifying look, she couldn’t help but scoot back away from them.

“Okay you two need to talk, what the hell happened here?”

“Yeah Clarke explain to Raven what happened and why!”  Clarke flinched, she could feel the anger in her voice. She just shook her head as tears began to slide down her face.

“Clarke? I know you have been through a lot right now, I’m so sorry, I didn’t know he was this bad, I haven’t spoken to him in months.”

“Raven!! Don’t you fucking apologize to her!”

Ravens eyes widened as she glanced back and forth between them.

“Lexa please, just let me explain it to you.” She was full on sobbing, she couldn’t help it. Lexa stood up and walked to stand in front of her but shook her head and walked to the other side of the hall.

“Clarke explain to me.”

She forced herself to calm down enough to talk looking at Raven watch her with a worried expression.

“I’m sorry Raven, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean for this to happen it’s all my fault.”

Raven seemed to be picking up on that because the longer she took to talk the more anger entered Raven eyes.

“Finn is the guy I broke up with a few weeks back, he is the one who hasn’t left me alone and who was hurting me whenever he did see me after our break up.”

Ravens eyes widened, “It was you, you were the girl I saw him with at the party?”

Clarke nodded.

“I told you about him, I told you about everything, I trusted you and you kept this from me?” She looked across the hall at Lexa who was watching them. “You kept this from both of us?” Lexa nodded.

“Yes, I know I shouldn’t have.” She didn’t get to finish because before she could say anything else Raven had slapped her across the face. She was shocked, and couldn’t move, Raven looked like she was going to hit her again but Lexa grabbed her around the waist and pulled her back as she yelled. Clarke jumped to her feet as Lexa dragged Raven away and to hers.

“You son of a bitch we trusted you! Lexa could have gotten hurt! I could have lost her because of your secrets!”

“Raven calm down please.” Lexa was trying to calm her, Clarke deserved whatever Raven had to throw at her she was right.

“No!! You left Costia for her Lex!” Raven focused back in on her. “Is that your thing Clarke people in relationships? It would explain a lot!”

She couldn’t let Lexa believe that it wasn’t true. She hadn’t known, she really hadn’t until they were over. She thought back to how she acted when she knew Lexa had a girlfriend, everything she did that Raven saw right through. Ofcourse she would see it that way.

“No!!! I didn’t know he was with you Raven I swear! Lexa it wasn’t like that I swear.”

“Don’t talk to me!”

“Lexa please….. I love you.”

Lexas eyes watered, Clarke could see the moisture building and she went to take a step towards her but Lexa stepped back pulling Raven with her.

“If you loved me you would have told me, you would have told us. I don’t know what this was to you Clarke but whatever it is it’s over.”

Clarke felt like the world had dropped from beneath her feet and she was free falling. Lexa was giving up on her, she was just going to leave her. She couldn’t let her, she shook her head no over and over again.

“Lexa please don’t do this.”

“I will tell the police what happened, he will get put away, you won’t have to worry about him anymore, but after that I want nothing to do with you. You knew he would come after me and you didn’t tell me, you put me in danger.”

Clarke couldn’t do it her knees dropped from beneath her and she was on the ground again. She felt her heart tearing into a million pieces. Her love, her best friend was going to walk away from her. She couldn’t do this, what had she done? She ruined it, she ruined everything.

The elevator doors opened and she looked to see the police eyeing Finn who had just began to sit up. Lexa watched her crying for a moment but then walked over to the police explaining everything that had happened.

Clarke watched her talk, one officer went and handcuffed Finn before he could do anything crazy, he was sitting there watching her from his place on the ground. No expression on his face. She looked up and stood when the officer that had been talking to Lexa came over to talk to her. She explained everything to him and he just nodded writing it down. Then he went on to talk to Raven.

Lexa leaned against the wall looking at her hands, they were covered in Finns blood. She was trying to wipe it off to no avail. Clarke turned and walked into her room grabbing a towel and wetting it before heading back out.

She walked straight to Lexa who was glaring at her and seemed to be daring her to take another step forward. She knew not too, instead she reached the hand with towel out towards her, Lexa looked at it a moment longer before snatching it and using it to wipe her hands off.

Clarke could see that Lexa was rubbing way too hard, even after the blood was gone she wiped harder and harder until her own hands were red and looked rubbed raw, only then did she hold the towel up for her to take back. Clarke took it and stood in front of her.

“Lexa.”

“No! I mean it, don’t you dare.” She didn’t have a response, no matter what she said in this moment she would lose. So she just nodded and took a step back as Raven walked towards them.

“They said he is being arrested.” Lexa nodded, Clarke glanced over as they began walking Finn to the elevator. Raven moved to hold onto Lexas arm, “Can we leave now?”

 Lexa nodded again and made eye contact with her. She shook her head and began walking towards the stairs.

Clarke waited until she could no longer hear their footsteps before walking into her room. She walked all around and began blowing all of the candles out. She looked around at everything and felt the ache in her heart.

There was a knock on her door, she ran to it as fast as she could hoping it was Lexa, praying that she came back willing to listen. She pulled the door open so fast she scared the man standing there.

“Chinese? I have been calling you for the past fifteen minutes.” He glanced at her arm which realized she still hadn’t cleaned up. She grabbed money and gave it to him taking the food and closing the door in his face. She pressed her back against the door and looked at the room in front of her.

How was her night ending this way? She screamed and threw the food across the room, she moved to all the blankets and began throwing some around the room, the ones that were thin enough she began tearing into pieces. When she was too tired to continue she dropped to floor tears rolling down her face. How could she possibly have any more left? She wasn’t sure how long she stood on the floor like that, but that she was still there when Octavia came home with her own tears running down her face.