Maybe

**Clarkes POV**

The week was going by pretty fast and it was actually quite uneventful which Clarke appreciated. Octavia had stayed in the room since Sunday night so Clarke just slept there. Apart of her wished that Octavia would just go spend the night at Lincolns so Clarke would have an excuse to spend the night with Lexa.

She was pretty sure O was doing it on purpose so that Clarke would feel safer at home, which meant a lot to her but…. She wanted Lexa. They had their class but they actually focused now which was good for their grades but no fun. Lexa had a stupid game today so she was mostly busy since last Saturday.

“There will probably be an after party, do you want to go to it?” Clarke looked up from the sketch she had been working on as she saw Octavia getting ready for said game.

It’s a school night O.” Octavia rolled her eyes.

“Okay party was exaggerative the team is meeting up after for dinner and drinks. Do you want to go? I mean you’re going to your first game today might as well go the whole way.”

Clarke blushed, Octavia had been trying to convince her to go to one of her games since last year but she really wasn’t a sports girl. She just wanted to see Lexa play if she was being honest. She missed her, “O, are you staying at Lincoln tonight?”

“No I told you, I’m going to be here for you, I don’t want any more surprises from Finn.” Clarke just nodded her head in response, she had been hoping Octavia would spend the night there so she could tell Lexa and stay with her.

“Where is the after party?”

“At Anyas house again.” That perked Clarke up.

“So at Lexas house?”

Octavia just looked at Clarke and nodded her head.

“I will go.”

“Ofcourse you will.” Clarke glared at her but Octavia just shrugged her shoulders.

“I don’t understand why you like her so much, she is just cold.”

“Don’t Octavia, you don’t know her like I do. She… I don;t know, she is different, in a good way.”

Octavia just watched her. “You seem to be handling your first girl crush well.” She couldn’t have put more sarcasm into it if she tried.

“Shut it Blake she is just my friend.”

“Are you trying to convince me or yourself?”

That was it Clarke jumped across the room towards Octavia who squealed and threw her hands up. Clarke grabbed her and swung her to turn around, wrapping one arm around Octavias neck and the other around her waist from behind. “Take it back or.”

She didn’t have a chance to finish because next thing she knew she was on her back on the floor, the wind knocked out of her. Her back fucking hurt.

“What the fuck!? Where did you learn to do that?”

Octavia just laughed above her with her hands on her hips. “Lincoln has been teaching me some things, I may be small but I am fierce Griffin remember that.”

Octavia offered her hand to help her up but Clarke just shook her head, “I think I’m dead.”

Octavia laughed again grabbing her arms and pulling her up. “You’re such a softie.”

Clarke pouted at her. “I am not.”

Clarkes got back up and went to her sketch, she had been drawing the sunset from Ark tower, it was okay.

She took her phone out and snapped a picture sending it to Lexa. Her favorite thing to do was sending Lexa her little sketches, even the stupid little ones.

Clarke: When you can’t quite capture the view 

She put her phone down, and turned to Octavia, “I have to start heading to the field. You going be okay to make it over there by yourself?”

Clarke rolled her eyes, “I’m not a child O, I can take care of myself.”

Octavia walked up to her and pressed a kiss to her temple. “You know what I mean.”

Octavia walked to the door and turned back, “Seriously call me if anything.”

Clarke just nodded and waved for her to leave. She was tired of being treated like a child, she knew Octavia meant well, but it was annoying to have her around basically all the time. How she spent an time with Lincoln she didn’t know.

Lexa: It’s beautiful.

Lexa: Still coming to the game?

Clarke smiled, Lexa appreciated everything that she showed her, and it made her feel good about her art.

Clarke: I wouldn’t miss it.

Clarke: Might go to after party get together too, O invited me. I think she just doesn’t want to leave me alone at night in the room.

Lexa: Then I will see you at my place tonight. She is doing the right thing Clarke.

That made Clarke roll her eyes, Lexa was just as bad as Octavia, but Clarke liked it, whenever she had Lexas attention she loved it, it made her feel special. Especially considering she rarely acted the way she did with her with other people. Raven being the other exception.

She wondered if Lexa and Raven ever had a thing before but shook her head at the idea, probably not.

Clarke: Yeah but I need a break from her.

Lexa: You will tonight with me.

Clarke felt herself get turned on by Lexas text. She scolded herself, she needed to stop this. But her attraction to Lexa was undeniable. She never felt anything like this before in her entire life.

Clarke jumped on her bed and buried her face in her pillow so she could scream. Fucking shit, how was she going to control herself, it felt impossible? But she wanted Lexa in her life, no actually she needed her and if that meant being turned on seventy five percent of the time, she would learn to deal with it.

Clarke laid on her back and removed her jeans and underwear. She closed her eyes and began to run her fingers through her folds, up and down, she loved to be teased, even by herself. But with her eyes closed she could pretend it was someone else. She could pretend it was Lexa. Clarke moaned out loud biting her lip to try and be quiet.

Just thinking her name made Clarkes walls clench when there wasn’t even anything to clench onto…..yet. Clarke kept teasing herself, she moved her right hand up her shirt onto her breast so she could roll her nipple between her fingers.

She needed something inside of her, “Lexa please, I need you, Lex.” Her eyes still closed it was almost as if she could see Lexa grinning at her from the bottom of the bed making her beg for it.

Clarke moved one finger to her opening slowly circling it driving herself mad. She couldn’t take it anymore, she inserted one finger and began moving it in and out, feeling how wet she was and how much wetter she was getting with each thrust.

“Lexa please more.” She gasped and she inserted two more fingers. She began moving faster letting go of her nipple and using the now free hand to run circles around her clit. She was so close, she pressed the hand around her clit harder and began moving it faster. She felt how soaked she was, she felt her walls clamping down around her fingers.

“OH FUCK LEXA!!!”

She screamed her name as she came, still moving her fingers in and out and slowly circling her extra sensitive clit. She felt like she was about to pass out, she had just given herself one of the best orgasms of her life, all with the green eyed beauty on her mind. Clarke moved her hands onto her chest which was rising and falling very quickly.

She looked over at the time.

“Shit, I’m late!”

She got up and ran to bathroom to wipe herself off, she got dressed as quick as she could and ran out the door heading to the Lacrosse field.

She took out her phone and quickly typed out a text to Lexa and Octavia knowing they probably wouldn’t see it until after the game anyway.

Clarke: Running late, got distracted, be there in a few!

When she got to the field she saw the game had already started about ten minutes ago. She wandered up and down the bleachers for a while but couldn’t find a seat. Who knew the schools women’s Lacrosse team was so popular.

“Clarke!?”

She spun around hearing her name, and then she spotted Raven and Lincoln sitting together not too far from her. She walked over to them and saw they had enough space for her too thank goodness.

“Hey guys, I should have figured you two would be here.” She sat down between the two.

“We have to come support our girls!” When Raven said that Clarke felt her jealousy rise again. But she just nodded in response.

“How are they doing? I know nothing about this sport.” Raven just laughed.

“First game?” Clarke just nodded her head, “I wonder why that is.” She winked at her but continued talking. “Lexa is basically the best one on the team, but it’s Lexa so you should have expected it. Your roommate is Octavia right?”

“Yes, is she good?” Lincoln laughed at her when she asked that.

“She is really good, maybe third or fourth on the team, she is a tough girl.” She thought back to Octavia flipping her onto her back and lightly punched Lincoln. “Hey what was that for?”

“You teaching the tough girl fighting moves that she used on me.”

He laughed, “you should just ask Lexa to give you lessons so you can fight her back, Lexa is better than me anyway.”

She thought about that a moment. She knew Lexa acted tough but she didn’t really think it was true.

“Wait so Lexa actually can fight, she isn’t all talk?”

Raven quickly became serious. “Clarke, Lexa is a badass, she may be nice and gentle with you, but she can kick the ass of a man twice her size, it is impressive really and kind of scary.”

Clarke just sat there in silence the rest of the game taking that in, maybe she didn’t have to worry about Lexas safety when it came to Finn.

**Lexas POV**

She walked off the field feeling high. Not only had they won but they kicked ass too! She had scored the first and last goal of the game. She went into the locker room accepting all the congratulations and good jobs from her team. She just really needed a shower so she went straight there. When she remembered that Clarke might be at her house she made sure to wash herself faster.

She missed the blonde even though they saw each other every other day and in fact had seen each other that morning, but they hadn’t spent time outside of class together since Saturday.

She looked at her phone and saw the message from Clarke that she had been running late and rolled her eyes of course she was. But there was also a text from Raven.

Raven: Lincoln, Clarke and I are heading over to yours to wait for you and Octavia. Don’t be too long!

Lexa quickly dressed and looked around for Octavia. She really was trying to be nicer to the girl. She found her tying her shoes on a bench and sat down next to her. Octavia looked up and her eyes widened when she saw that it was Lexa.

“Lincoln and Clarke are waiting for us at my place already, I figured we can walk over together.” Octavia just nodded and looked back down.

“How is Clarke doing?”

“She’s okay, I haven’t really left her alone much for anything to happen. I think she misses you though.”

Lexa raised an eyebrow at this. “She sees me in class all the time.”

“You don’t get it do you?”

Octavia stood up and they began walking together.

“I don’t get what?”

“It isn’t my business to tell Lexa.”

Lexa just shook her head, she didn’t understand what Octavia was trying to get at, so she just changed the subject.

“How are you and Lincoln?”

She could see the visible changes in Octavia just by mentioning Lincoln, it was annoyingly cute.

“SO GOOD, I haven’t gotten to spend much time with him this week between practice and Clarke though.” Lexa just nodded her head. “Ugh I miss the sex already, he so damn good when he.”

“OCTAVIA!!! That’s my brother!!!” Lexa stopped walking and covered her ears glaring at the small girl in front of her. Octavia just widened her eyes realizing what she was about to say.

“Oops, sorry?”

Lexa lowered her hands. “No more talking, I tried and you ruined it.”

The rest of the walk was awkward, every time Lexa felt Octavia watching her she would glare at her until she stopped, thankfully the walk wasn’t too long.

Lexa opened the door knowing it wouldn’t be locked so everyone could come and go as she pleased. She walked in and saw Raven and Clarke sitting on the couch, she strode over and grabbed both of them by their arms and pulled them to her room locking the door behind her.

“I am going to have kill Octavia.”

Clarkes eyes visibly widened, and Raven just laughed at her.

“What did she do now?”

“She thought it would be smart to discuss her and my brothers sex life with me, I literally have no other choice, she must be handled.”

Clarke started laughing along with Raven, “You can’t just kill anyone you want.”

Lexa knew she was over reacting but she just stared as her friends laughed at her which honestly annoyed her. “Yes I can.” That just earned her a head shake along with more laughter. She pushed pass both girls and sat on her bed.

She sat so she wouldn’t have to see them laughing anymore. Why was she friends with them again?

“I’m going to go look for some drinks.” She heard the door open and close. She began absentmindedly rubbing her shoulder which always hurt after a game.

She jumped when she felt hands remove hers and begin kneading. She turned her head to see it was Clarke touching her and she relaxed. Clarke moved onto the bed and sat on her knees behind her so she could easily reach.

“I thought you went with Raven.”

“I rather stay with you.” Lexa just nodded in response, she closed her eyes and enjoyed the feeling of Clarkes hands on her, it felt so much better than when she did it herself.

“Lexa, how are you and Costia?” Lexa physically stiffened, she still hadn’t told anyone but Raven. Clarke stopped moving her hands, waiting for a response. Lexa sighed and turned her head to look at Clarke who was watching her. She wanted to open up to her, she trusted her.

“We broke up when I was there last weekend.” Clarkes eyes widened.

“But I have seen you text her?” Lexa shrugged.

“She was my friend before we dated,” Lexa closed her eyes. “I will always love her, no matter what.”

She felt Clarkes hands go back to work, she sighed in relief closing her eyes again, thinking the conversation was over.

“Why?” She furrowed her eyebrows in confusion.

“Why what?”

Why did you guys break up?” Lexa sighed and turned around fully to face the blonde. She could see that Clarke had good intentions.

“It just wasn’t the same anymore, we have been drifting apart for awhile  now, she has someone else.”

Lexa saw the change in Clarkes face automatically. Her eyes changed from soft to hard, she began clenching and unclenching her fists, her cheeks turned red.

“She cheated on you!?” Lexa grabbed Clarkes hands and unclenched them running her hands over Clarkes palms until she felt her relax.

“No, not like that at least, but she does have feelings for someone else and it was just adding to the confusion.”

“No offense Lexa shes a damn idiot.” Lexa released Clarkes hands ready to defend Costia but Clarke kept talking. “Look at you, you’re the most beautiful person I have ever seen or met, inside and out.” Clarke cupped Lexas cheek, but Lexa didn’t relax into it, she was still ready to fight. “How can anyone ever question between being with you and someone else? Whoever ends up with you will be the luckiest person in the world. No ones heart could compare to yours, you have taken care of me without any reason to, you didn’t know me Lex.” Lexa relaxed a little into Clarkes hand listening to everything she was saying trying to take it in. “If I got a chance to be with you I would never let you go not for anything.” Lexa smiled at that, Clarke was sweet.

“Clarke, thank you but it isn’t her fault it just isn’t meant to be, no one is to blame. If only you were into girls huh?” She laughed, “You’re a great friend, I don’t ever want to lose this.” She motioned between the two of them and moved forward to press a kiss to Clarkes cheek, she began to pull away when Clarke pulled her back in, except now their foreheads were pressed together, and Clarke wrapped her arms around her waist. Lexa just left her arms down to the side but didn’t pull away. Being close like this to Clarke felt right, like she was just meant to be in her life.

“Lexa…”

She pulled away when she heard the door was being opened, Raven walked in carrying drinks but paused when she saw how close the two girls still were. Lexa stood up and walked over to Raven grabbing a drink.

She turned to pass Clarke her drink but she was already up. She grabbed the drink and walked to the door, Lexas eyes widened as she saw Clarke down the drink. “We should socialize for a bit, come on.” With that Clarke walked out of the room.

Lexa looked at Raven who was confused. “What happened while I was gone?”

“I told her me and Costia broke up, and she just said I deserve a lot I don’t know. I said I didn’t want to lose our friendship. She was going to say something else but then you came in.”

Raven raised her eyebrow at that. “You don’t want to lose your friendship?” Lexa was confused as to why Raven was asking this. Lexa just nodded in response.

She just shook her head, “Friendship. Yeah sure, whatever you say Lexa. Lets go.”

Lexa followed out and closed her door behind her. Clarke had placed herself next to Octavia and Lincoln, Lexa wanted to be with her but she definitely didn’t want to be with them. She went and sat at the table taking care of pouring drinks for everyone who wanted, maybe it would save them a mess to clean up later. Being next to the drinks also made sure her own cup was always full.

Lexa was so focused that she didn’t notice Anya had moved to talk to her.

“Lexa!”

She popped her head up trying to figure out who wanted her attention. “Yeah?”

“Your girlfriend is drunk.” Lexa made a confused face, what was Anya talking about?

“What?” Anya just pointed to Clarke who was dancing herself around Niylah moving her body very seductively.

Lexa raised an eyebrow at Anya. “She’s not my girlfriend Anya.”

Lexa went back to pouring drinks but she kept an eye on Clarke. She was drunk, and being very touchy. It seriously was getting on her nerves, Lexa wanted nothing more than to grab Clarke and go with her to her room. Lexa stopped pouring when she saw Clarke pull Niylah towards the door to leave the apartment. Where the hell was she going? Lexa chugged the rest of her drink and stood up noting how dizzy that made her, shit she was drunk too.

She made her way towards the door, trying to walk as steady as possible but must have not been as steady as she thought because she felt someone steady her. She turned to see Raven grinning.

“Someone has had a lot to drink.” Lexa rolled her eyes but that just made her dizzy again so she grabbed Ravens arm to steady herself.

“Shut it Rey.” She just laughed at her.

“Where do you think you’re going?”

Lexa turned to the door remembering Clarke and began walking towards it again. “Clarke left with Niylah, have to get her back.”

Raven just tugged Lexa back a little from the door which she was only able to do because of her state of intoxication. “And why do you need to get her back?”

Lexas mind was too fuzzy to think of an actual reason so she pulled her arm away from Raven and opened the door muttering, “My Clarke.”

She heard Ravens laugh following her before she turned and covered her mouth with her hand because she heard voices. Clarkes voice.

“Come on babe, don’t stop.”

“Clarke you’re drunk, a lot drunker than last time, and last time you stopped us remember?”

“I won’t stop us now, please.”

Lexa waited but didn’t hear anything else. Which she knew meant the girls were doing something. She jumped into movement when she heard a moan. Hell no. She somehow managed to jog towards the stairs she heard the voices coming from .

She felt her stomach drop and her heart burn at the sight of them. She saw Clarke being pressed against a wall, Niylah moving from kissing her lips to kissing down her neck. Clarkes eyes were closed, so she didn’t see her. She had her arms wrapped around Niylahs waist pulling her in even closer. Niylah had a leg between Clarkes which seemed to be what was causing Clarkes moaning as she was visibly grinding into it. Lexa felt vomit rise to her throat, but she swallowed it down. She felt Raven trying to pull her away but she couldn’t move. It hurt. She felt tears forming in her eyes but she couldn’t look away. Why did this hurt so much?

Lexa closed her eyes willing for this to all be in her mind, but then she heard another moan from Clarke and she ran. She was going to be sick. She heard voices calling after her as she ran, Ravens voice, Clarkes voice.