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** Lexas POV**

They had decided to watch The Purge, Raven loved it, it was one of her favorite movies, Lexa liked it too so it sounded like a good idea. That is until twenty minutes in when Clarke began screaming and trying to hide behind her.

She was amused that Clarke was such a softy but it was also so….. extra.  The little boy had just let the stranger into the house when Clarke grabbed Lexas arm and kept repeating, “Nope bad idea, don’t do it, you’re going die!” Slowly Clarke had been inching herself behind Lexa forcing Lexa off of the wall they had all been leaning on.

She was seriously uncomfortable. “Clarke just shut it and watch the movie.” Clarke glared at her and then fully climbed behind her putting one leg on each side of her, Lexa sighed. Whenever the music or screen got dark Clarke hid her face in Lexas shoulder.

“Clarke, I don’t know if you’re actually scared or just trying to find a reason to hold Lexa.” Clarke kept her face hidden in Lexas shoulder and just raised her middle finger in Ravens direction making both girls laugh.

Lexa couldn’t sit this way if she didn’t relax into Clarke but she had been avoiding it for about ten minutes. She wasn’t the kind of person who cuddled with her friends, this would definitely be cuddling. She pouted lightly, her back hurt. Fuck it she was going for it.

Lexa put her hands on Clarkes knees and leaned back until she felt her back hit Clarkes chest making Clarke lean her back against the wall. Finally her back had seriously been hurting. This was a lot more comfortable than she thought it would be, she could feel Clarkes chest rising and falling it seemed strained like the girl was gasping. She tilted her head to the side to see Clarke had her eyes closed, but there was nothing remotely scary happening on the screen.

“Hey, you okay? Need me to move?”  Clarke opened her eyes, they were super dark again. Clarke shook her head and wrapped her arms around Lexas stomach pulling her in tighter.

Lexa felt Clarke breathe her in, she closed her eyes enjoying the closeness, it felt good to let someone hold her something she rarely let ever happen.

Lexa turned and saw that Raven was watching them, she had her eye brows raised and looked suggestively between them focusing in on Clarkes hands that were wrapped around Lexa. Lexa just shrugged in response.

“Not fair I want cuddles too!” Lexa felt Clarke laugh, she rolled her eyes at that but grabbed a pillow and placed it on her and Clarkes legs gesturing for Raven to lay her head down. Raven jumped up excited and layed on the pillow.

Lexa took out Ravens pony tail and began running her fingers through the girls hair. Raven loved when people played with her hair, it always calmed her down, something Lexa had picked up on over the years.

This position was comfortable until Clarke got scared again. Now she hid her face in Lexas neck, making Lexas eyes close. Her neck was her spot and every time Clarke hid her face her breathing was driving her crazy. This was awkward as hell. Lexa had to get away from this. She pressed Ravens shoulder motion for her to get up.

Lexa was about to move to get up when something scary must have happened on screen because Clarke tightened her arms around Lexa and pressed her face back into her Neck, but this time Lexa swore she felt Clarke lightly press her lips to her neck. Lexa felt her entire shiver at the feeling of it.

Lexa couldn’t her eyes snapped open. She jumped up so fast that both girls looked at her life she was crazy.

“Umm I have to use the bathroom.” She jumped off the bed and walked to the bathroom closing the door behind her. She turned on the water and just sat on the floor, pressing her forehead to her knees. She needed to get her shit together, she was being a pervert, her body reacting without her consent.

She just needed to take care of herself… but Clarke was spending the night. She wouldn’t have the chance until she got some time alone. This was going to be difficult. She stood up and splashed her face with water.

“Get your shit together Woods.” She flushed the toilet before stepping out of the bathroom and heading back to her FRIENDS.

**Clarkes POV**

She hated scary movies, like really hated them. She should have said something earlier, she was literally hiding behind Lexa. She was probably being annoying but she didn’t care enough. Plus Lexa was letting her so she wasn’t going to give that up.

When Lexa laid her back into her Clarke thought she was going to explode, her heart began beating like crazy, she just hoped Lexa couldn’t feel it. Clarke hadn’t realized she was holding her breath until she gasped for air. She tried to catch her breathe from holding it so long and closed her eyes to concentrate on that.

When Lexa asked if she wanted her to move the first thing in Clarkes mind was the word never. Thankfully she didn’t say it out loud. She circled her arms around Lexa and pulled her in tighter hoping Lexa wouldn’t pull away, when Lexa didn’t Clarke couldn’t help but breathe in the scent that was Lexa.

Clarke felt annoyed when Raven laid on their legs and Lexa began playing with her hair. How she could be jealous while actually having Lexa in her arms and pressed against her blew her mind. She had it bad, really bad.

When she got scared again she hid her face in Lexas neck. She wanted to kiss her. Each time Clarke hid in Lexas neck she breathed her in and each time the need to kiss her grew.

Raven began getting up and Clarke pressed her face into Lexas neck one more time, except this time she couldn’t control herself she pressed her lips quickly to Lexas neck.

She thought she felt Lexa shiver a little but next thing she knew Lexa was up and practically running to the bathroom. Shit she hoped she didn’t freak Lexa out, she didn’t want to lose their friendship. Clarke placed her face in her hands and rubbed her eyes, she needed to control herself, why was she such a fuck up?

“You’re so thirsty Griffin.” Clarke turned to see Raven watching her. “And Lexa is so oblivious, it is sad really.”

“Shut it Raven.”

“I’m just saying you are not good at hiding what you want.”

Clarke tried to focus in on the movie but she was still scared so she scooted closer to Raven so she could hide behind her while Lexa was gone.

“Wow you actually are scared, I thought you were just trying to find a reason to have Lexa all over you.” Clarke shoved her shoulder but quickly pulled her back when she heard the background music get creepy.

Clarke peeked her head up when she heard the bathroom door open to see Lexa making her way back to the bed, but she stopped at the edge and sat on the floor leaning against the bed.

Clarke frowned, she fucked up. She turned to Raven and whispered, “Is she mad at me?”

Raven just looked at Lexa studying her for bit, “No, she has other things she is dealing with at the moment.”

“Like what? I could tell something was wrong with her earlier but she wouldn’t say.”

“It is not my business to tell.” With that Raven turned back to the television and focused back in on the movie.

Clarke wasn’t paying attention anymore though she was focused on watching Lexa, who was sitting so stiffly now, like she was incapable of relaxing.

Lexa must have a sixth sense for when Clarke was watching her because she turned her head out of nowhere and met Clarkes gaze. Clarke motioned for Lexa to come back to the bed but Lexa just shook her head with a small smile, and seemed to blush, turning back to the screen.

Clarke zoned out then just thinking about what could possibly be bothering the brunette.  She didn’t like it, she wanted Lexa closer, and she felt safe with her. She just had to control her attraction to the girl but honestly the wine was having its effect on her because Clarke just wanted to touch her in any way Lexa would allow. Costia be damned, Clarke didn’t know her, did she really care?

But then she looked at Raven, she cared. She sighed loudly making both girls look at her she just shrugged in response. She couldn’t ruin someones relationship because she was being selfish, because she wanted someone she couldn’t have, who didn’t want her. She had already unknowingly hurt Raven, even though she was sure it was what was best for the girl. She couldn’t do it on purpose. Clarke grabbed her cup and quickly finished her wine.

She was still thinking about Lexa, except she was starting feel really nice now. She crawled towards the bottom of the bed, nut felt an arm grab hers. Raven shook her head at her trying to stop Clarke but Clarke just shook her off and made her way to Lexa.

“Lexaaaaaa.” Lexa turned her head seeming to be surprised by how close they were. Clarke took her index finger a poked Lexas nose earning a confused glare.

“Are you seriously drunk already Clarke?” Clarke thought about it for a moment before nodding her head enthusiastically.

“Mhm. But Lexa we are friends right? You want to be my friend?” Lexa nodded her head at Clarkes questions looking at her question in her eyes.

“But what if I want to be more than friends?” Lexas eyes widened and she looked to Raven, who Clarke saw had the same face. “What if I want to be best friends?”

Clarke busted out laughing, she just thought she was so hilarious. She didn’t let it show how her heart felt a little pang with Lexas reaction before Clarke had elaborated on her question.

“Wow blondie, I’m her best friend.” Clarke laughed seeing Raven get all defensive about her title. Raven started crawling to the bottom of the bed towards them.

“I’m not asking you Raaaaaven, I’m asking Lexa, besides someone can have more than one best friend anyway. Right Lexa?”

Lexa was just looking between Raven and Clarke with a confused face. She was the cutest thing Clarke had ever seen. She wasn’t answering her question though so Clarke began to pout at her.

Lexa rolled her eyes, “You can be my other best friend Clarke.”

Clarke saw Raven glaring at Lexa, “Took us years for you to call me your best friend and she gets the title in two weeks,” She crossed her arms, “that’s bull crap.”

Lexa just shrugged at Raven and started playing with her hair again making Raven lay down and relax, “Not fair, you know how to make me forgive you.”

Lexa nodded, “I know what to do because you Raven are my oldest bestfriend.

“Fuck yeah I am.” Raven pumped her fist in the air.

The girls watched movies for the rest of the day thankfully none of the others were scary, so Clarke actually got to enjoy them.

After watching Moulin Rouge which happened to be Clarkes favorite movie ever, Raven got up and began stretching her leg. Clarke looked towards the window surprised to see the sun had gone down. She picked up her phone and saw that it was 11 pm.

She looked around the room noticing the mess of the pizza boxes which they had ordered earlier, and their cups, and bowls were all around the room. She knew Lexa was a clean person so this must be driving her crazy.

Clarke got up and began trying to clean the room up, Lexa and Raven quietly joined her. In about fifteen minutes the room was back to being clean.

“I better go, are you going to practice now that you are back? Does Indra know you’re back?”

“She doesn’t know I’m back but I will probably go still, we have that game Wednesday, are you still coming to it?”

“Have I ever missed a game?”

Clarke watched as Lexa smiled and shook her head at Raven who was putting her sweater on.

“Alright, sorry girls but the life of the party is out of here.” Clarke rolled her eyes but waved as Raven walked out of the room.

Clarke turned to Lexa who had sat on the bed and was going through the channels on the television. Clarke made her way to what she thought of now as her side of the bed. “What time do you have practice?”

Lexa looked at Clarke over her shoulder, “Seven.” Clarkes eyes widened in surprise.

“On a Sunday?”

“Shouldn’t you know this already, you live with Octavia?”

Clarke just shrugged in response, “I’m never up when she leaves, I prefer sleeping in until like eleven.”

“I should have known you were the lazy type.”

Clarke threw a pillow at Lexa, “I am not lazy.” That earns her one Lexas signature smirks.

Clarke gets up to grab her bag and change into her pajamas. She has a tank top with her pajama shorts, like really short shorts. She can practically see her ass, but she just shrugs and walks back to the bed.

She climbs in next to Lexa who got under the covers already. Clarke snuggles in and closes her eyes, the bed still smells like Lexa. She could get used to this. Her eyes pop open when she hears her phone vibrate.

She reaches over and grabs it.

Finn: I’m sorry about yesterday, I was drunk. I know it isn’t a good excuse but that is all I have. Where are you?

Clarke quickly unsaves his number so that his name won’t pop up anymore.

Lexa turns over and looks at her, “You okay?”

“Yeah just the ex.” She passes her phone to Lexa so she can read the text. Lexa rolls her eyes.

“I hope you don’t even consider seeing him again or talking to him.”

Clarke shakes her head fast, “Definitely not, I don’t want anything to do with him.”

Lexa seems to think about this for a moment. “What about Niylah, are you going to keep seeing her?” Lexa is watching her face intently. Clarke just shrugs “we have only hung out once.” She knows she isn’t really answering Lexas question but Lexa nods anyway.

They lay in silence for a while but Clarke wants to talk to her. “Was Costia mad about you leaving early?”

She felt Lexa stiffen besides her but there was no answer. Clarke was about to ask another question when she heard a light sniffle come from Lexa. She froze, was Lexa crying?

“Lexa?” Still Lexa didn’t respond. Clarke sat up and leaned over to see tears silently rolling down Lexas face. “Lexa!?” Clarke tried to get Lexa to roll over and look at her but she wouldn’t, so she decided to climb onto the other side of her even though she would basically be hanging off of the bed.

When Clarke starts climbing Lexa grabs her waist as she almost falls off the bed, this ends with Clarke straddling Lexas waist.

“What are you doing?!”

“You weren’t looking at me, what happened?”

“I don’t want to talk Clarke.”

“Lexa come on, I want to help you, please.”

Lexa is just watching her, Clarke can see her face is still wet from her tears, the sight breaks her heart. She reaches down and wipes Lexas cheeks. Lexa closes her eyes while she does this.

“Please just talk to.. Agh!” She didn’t get to finish her sentence because somehow Lexa had flipped them. Clarkes back was pressed against the bed with Lexa pressing down onto her. That was the sexiest thing she had ever experienced, Clarke held in her moan from having some of Lexas weight on top of her. It took every ounce of her strength to not wrap her legs around her and pull her down closer.

“No, Clarke.” That snapped her out of her mind. No to what, to fucking her right then and there or what? What were they talking about, she couldn’t concentrate. She was trying not to thrust her hips up to get some friction and pressure where she needed it most.

“No what?” Clarke couldn’t breathe she was physically gasping, she felt like if Lexa just touched her she would come unraveled.  Lexa looked at her with questioning eyes.

“Am I crushing you? You’re breathing funny.” Clarke wanted to say no, I just want you more than I have ever wanted anyone else. But she just nodded her head.

She regretted her answer as soon as Lexa moved from between her legs.  She threw her arms over head trying to catch her breathe, feeling how uncomfortable it was going to be to sleep next to Lexa with this need inside of her, not to mention her soaked underwear, she could feel it with every small movement she made.

“I don’t want to talk Clarke. Can we just go to sleep?”

Clarke just nodded still trying to calm herself down. She closed her eyes willing her body calm down. She opened her eyes at another sniffle. She looked and saw Lexa still had tears running down her face.

God she hated herself. She was fucked up. She forgot about everything but the tears going down Lexas face and the ache they caused in her heart.

“You don’t have to talk, but come here.” Lexa just looked at her but moved closer to her. Clarke reached her arm under Lexas neck and moved Lexas head to her chest. Lexa stiffened, making Clarke roll her eyes.

“If you get to take care of me I get to take care of you.” Clarke began running her fingers through Lexas hair. She could feel Lexas tears wetting her shirt and her heart began to ache, she tried her best to hold onto her own tears but she felt like her heart was breaking.

Clarke lets the tears roll down her face, she was crying for Lexa, for whatever was hurting her so bad, she was crying for herself, she was crying for Raven. She must have made a noise because Lexa lifted her head and looked Clarke in the eyes.

She lifted herself onto her elbow and used her free hand to wipes Clarkes tears away. Clarke took the moment to do the same for her. They continued staring into eachothers eyes, until Lexa leaned her head towards Clarkes, she closed her eyes when she felt Lexa press a kiss to her cheek. Clarke opened her eyes and Lexa settled back onto her chest.

She began running her hand through the other girls hair again, she began to drift off. But then she heard a whisper of “Thank you.”

It made her smile, she leaned her head down laying a kiss on Lexas head and drifted off to sleep.