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**Lexas POV**

They were walking towards her room when Lexa decided to invite Raven over too.

Lexa: I’m back, come over and hang out with me and Clarke?

She put her phone in her pocket, and looked at Clarke who was still holding her left hand. Clarke was watching her but the moment they made contact Clarke looked away. Why did she do that? Clarke confused her sometimes, maybe she was doing something wrong. 

Lexa let go of Clarkes hand and adjusted the strap on her bag.

“I invited Raven over to hang with us, you okay with that?”

Clarke looked up at her and smiled, “Yeah I really liked her she seems nice.”

“She is, she’s annoying too, just like you.” Lexa was just trying to tease and get Clarke to look at her and talk to her, but Clarke looked away again.

Raven: You’re back and with Clarke, why and how? But yeah meet you there, need anything?

Lexa decided to just get to the point now so she wouldn’t have to talk about it later.

Lexa: Me and Costia broke up, I don’t want to talk about it.

“What’s your favorite ice cream Clarke?”

She saw Clarke think about it for a second, “Vanilla.”

Lexa tried not to make a face, Vanilla was so boring. She just nodded in response.

Lexa: Can you bring Vanilla ice cream?

Raven. Wow… Ok, we will talk about it later though.

Raven: You don’t like vanilla.

Lexa rolled her eyes. Raven always had something to say.

Lexa: Can you please just get some.

Raven: Yeah I got it be there in like 20.

Lexa put her phone away again, she could feel Clarkes eyes on her again, but she knew if she looked up Clarke would only look away. She smiled to herself, she was going to have fun.

“Your staring again Clarke.” She looked up to see Clarke duck her head down.

“I was not.”

“Yes you were, I can tell when you are, which seems to be quite often, by the way.”

She could see that Clarke had turned red, she laughed out loud, making the blonde smile slightly. She put her hand on Clarkes shoulder and pushed her lightly, “Oh come on I’m only teasing.”

Clarke smiled and nodded, still too quiet for Lexas liking, she was so much more alive before her ex hurt her. She wanted to make her happy again. She looked down and saw Clarke was clenching and unclenching her fingers. Lexa grabbed her hand again and intertwined their fingers, making Clarke look up and give her one of her big smiles.

“Your smile is beautiful, I wish you smiled more.” Lexa almost face palmed, she didn’t mean for it to come out like that. Clarkes eyes just widened, Lexa felt her ears get warm and she just shrugged.

“You don’t smile big very often either, mostly little smirks.” Lexa shrugged, it takes a lot for her to smile. Clarke made her smile a lot though she realized.

“When I have a reason to smile I do, give me a reason and I will.” Okay everything she said sounded flirty or was that just to her? She shook her head.

They arrived at her door and Lexa sighed in relief, she needed to shut the hell up, and a shower would allow that.

She let Clarke into her room and Clarke put her stuff down and just sat on the bed waiting expectantly.

“I’m going to go shower, do whatever you want, if Raven gets here before I am out just let her in.” Clarke nodded.

Lexa went to the bathroom and closed the door, leaning her back against it, she was doing the right thing, and she knew she was. She needed a moment to herself though.

Lexa got undressed and turned the shower on and got in. She stood there thinking about everything that had happened in the last 48 hours. She had found Clarke held up in her room taken her back here, woke up the next morning freaked out about having Clarke there, went to see Costia, broke up with Costia, and was back in her room again where Clarke would once again be spending the night. Lexa shook her head it was crazy, it felt right.

**Clarkes POV**

She sat on Lexas bed as the other girl went to the shower. Clarke laid back and closed her eyes, how she ended up back in Lexas bed already? She just knew she felt better here than anywhere else, she wanted to be with Lexa.

Clarke sighed and laid back, she needed to push her feelings to the side, Lexa was being a good friend to her, Clarke didn’t want to take advantage, but she couldn’t help the way she felt every time Lexa touched her.

God the handholding was killing her inside. She could tell Lexa wasn’t the kind of person who held hands with just anyone, or even touched people unnecessarily but she did it with her and she loved it. It shot tingles up her arm, and when she let go she felt so disappointed.

Clarke looked over and noticed a picture frame, she rolled over to reach for it was of a very beautiful girl, she was tan and had amazing dark curly hair. Lexa wasn’t kidding when she said she like brunettes. Physically Clarke and Costia had nothing in common, it made her sad to think that she wasn’t Lexas type. She really had no chance.

Suddenly there was a knocking on the outside door making her jump. She had forgotten about Raven.

“Coming!” She ran out the door so Raven wouldn’t have to wait any longer. She opened the door and saw the brunette standing on the other side smirking at her.

“Well hello there Clarke Griffin.” She walked past Clarke and put some ice cream in the freezer before turning and walking towards Lexas room. Raven seemed to be very comfortable here, which only annoyed Clarke.

Raven threw herself onto Lexas bed and grabbed the remote, “Lexa!!! Hurry the hell up!” Clarkes eyeas widened at Ravens words.

She sat down next to her, Raven was studying her seriously, she wasn’t acting like the fun girl she was just days before.

“Is everything okay Raven?”

Raven just nodded, “You like her don’t you?”

Clarkes jaw dropped open, no no no no no. How could everyone tell? Did she literally drool on Lexa or something and didn’t notice?

“Who?” She tried to feign ignorance.

Raven rolled her eyes, “You know I’m talking about Lexa don’t act stupid.”

Clarke felt herself get angry, she was tired of people telling her what she felt (even if it was true.)

“Why do people keep assuming that? Why can’t we just be friends, kind of messed up you know, just because she is gay doesn’t mean something is always happening with her and a girl.”

“I didn’t say anything about you guys getting together, I asked you about you and that’s it, I know Lexa I don’t need to ask you about her.”

Clarke glared at her and turned away.

“You getting so defensive answers my question by the way. Don’t even think about taking advantage of her kindness.”

Clarke went to say something but the bathroom door opened so she just nodded at Raven and turned to see Lexa standing there. IN A FUCKING TOWEL! She physically had place her face on her palm to keep her jaw from dropping. She turned her head a little so she wouldn’t stare and saw Raven watching her and raising an eyebrow and smirking at her. Clarke just glared and stuck her tongue out making Raven burst out into laughter.

“What’s so funny Reyes?” Raven just smiled at Clarke, winked, and got up to go over to Lexa. Clarke watched her curiously, Raven walked over to Lexa and put her hands on the girls waist, she leaned in and placed a kiss on Lexas cheek.

Clarke jumped up and clenched her hands ready to pull Raven off of Lexa right away.

“How you doing beautiful?” Lexa just pushed Ravens hands away and wiped her cheek.

“Ew Raven don’t be weird.” Clarke relaxed at Lexas response, but a little too late, Raven saw how she had reacted and just laughed all over again.

“I’m just fucking with you, get your ass dressed no one here wants to see you naked.”

Lexa rolled her eyes, “You guys can’t handle me anyway.” She winked at both of them. She went to her drawer and grabbed some clothes before heading back to the bathroom.

Raven made her way back to Clarke and shoved her shoulder lightly laughing, “You got it bad, but at least you have good taste.” Clarke rolled her eyes again grabbing a pillow and burying her face in it. She heard the bathroom door open but kept her face buried.

She jumped when she felt a hand on her back, she looked up to see Lexa looking at her questioningly. She smiled and just nodded at Lexa who nodded in return and sat between her and Raven who was still smirking.

“So Lexa….”

“No Raven.”

That confused her she looked between both girls who were glaring at each other, Raven glanced at her and looked back at Lexa nodding slightly.

Lexa turned to her relaxing her face from the glare she had been giving Raven. “Okay what do you want first chocolate, ice cream, or wine? “

Clarke thought for a moment and then smiled, “All at once?”

Lexa smiled lightly, “I like the way you think, come on let’s get everything.”

Lexa and Clarke stood to go but Raven stood on the bed, “I will wait here.”

Lexa rolled her eyes and tilted her head for Clarke to follow her.

Clarke watched as Lexa moved around the kitchen grabbing everything they would need, she couldn’t take her eyes off of her. Lexa had put on baggy sweat pants and a black tank top. When she reached up high to grab something her shirt lifted showing a bit of skin. Clarke wanted to run her fingers along the exposed skin.

“Your staring Clarke.”

Clarke jumped, “I wasn’t staring at you, I was just thinking.”

Lexa turned and faced her, “Thinking about what?”

Shit she had to come up with something quick. “What happened to Ravens leg?”

Lexa glared at her for a moment surprising Clarke, her face softened. “That isn’t my story to tell, you want to know ask her.”

“Ask her what?” Clarke turned to see Raven leaning on the wall, shit she didn’t really want to ask her that would be rude. Right?

Oh gosh, Clarke began shaking her leg. Raven just kept watching her waiting, Lexa walked over to her and placed her hand on Clarke’s leg making her miss a breath. “Just ask her, she won’t tell you if she doesn’t want to.”

Clarke looked at Raven who was waiting expectantly. “What happened to your leg?”

Raven looked to Lexa raising her eyebrow, Lexa just shrugged in response and began making her way back to the room with everything they needed.

Raven turned and followed her, leaving Clarke alone until she got up and followed the other two.

Raven sat cross legged on the floor she motioned for Clarke to sit across from her so she did. Lexa poured them all wine and passed it out before sitting next to both girls creating a triangle.

Raven looked at Lexa expectantly. “You trust her?” Lexa turned and studied Clarkes face making her nervous but she wouldn’t break eye contact, she focused in on the green holding her breathe.

Lexa nodded and turned back to Raven, “I trust her.” Raven nodded and turned to Clarke.

“I was dating this guy named Finn.” Clarkes heart beat picked up automatically, shit Raven sounded like she was going to tell her everything. “Finn Collins, he goes here, we met freshman year. We dated about two years total. The first year and half was perfect, he was always so nice and I think that’s what made me take the end so hard….” Raven stopped talking and looked to Lexa who nodded at her and scooted closer to Raven putting a hand on her knee, Raven nodded too.

He began drinking more than usual I didn’t think much of it really, but we went out one night and got into a fight he was driving his car.” Finn didn’t have a car, so that kind of confused Clarke for a moment but she focused back in.

“It was a stupid fight,” Raven looked at Lexa again and then back to Clarke, “He didn’t like Lexa, he thought she was a bitch and didn’t want me to be friends with her anymore. I have known Lexa since seventh grade, they never got along. I refused to stop talking to Lexa she is my best friend.”

Clarke turned to see Lexa who had let go of Raven, she was sitting so tense and staring at the floor with such anger. Clarke scooted closer and grabbed Lexas hand intertwining their fingers and giving Lexa a little squeeze. Lexa glanced up and gave Clarke a thankful look. “Raven, Lincoln, Costia, and Anya have been the only constants in life, they are my family.”

Clarke turned back to Raven who was staring at their hands in surprise, when she noticed she had both girls attention again she continued. “So he was drunk and started driving crazy, I asked him to let me out of the car but he refused, that was the last thing I remember. Next thing I know it’s three days later and I’m waking up in a hospital bed with Lexa sitting next to me fast asleep. Finn crashed into a pole. A piece of metal had gotten into my spine and now I can’t feel anything in this leg.”

Raven was tapping on the leg with the brace on it. “He didn’t come visit me in the hospital, I thought he felt guilty, when I was released he came around. He just watched me though never really talking much. Then one day he got drunk and came over he told me it was my fault he crashed the car. When he was sober he was kind and quiet but when he drank he would say mean things like that and about Lexa.”

Raven sighed reliving everything seemed to be hard for her. “Lexa told me over and over again that I needed to leave him that I deserved better but I knew who he could be so I was waiting for that guy to come back to me. About three months ago he stopped drinking as much, I thought I saw the old Finn coming back to me, he was finally happy again. Turns out he was fucking someone else and that’s what made him so happy. I should have known, he never looked at me the same way after the accident.”

Clarke felt guilty but she didn’t know about Raven before she’s not the kind of girl who wants to be the other woman. “He had the nerve to come here to the party you and Lexa met at, said he was sorry and that he loved me but it got too hard, me being like this was too hard but he is the one who did this to me in the first place, he is the one who treated me like crap for months but I took it because I loved him. He left me telling me found someone else.”

Raven stopped talking for a bit and they all just kind of stared at each other. Clarke was surprised when Lexa began talking. “He called her on Wednesday, I picked it up and he freaked out on me saying I was the reason she left him that since I came along things had changed. I knew Raven way before he came along it didn’t make sense but he kept swearing he would get her back and wouldn’t let me stand in the way. He is delusional.”

Clarke stopped listening, Finn wasn’t talking about Raven when he called, he was talking about her. Was he threatening Lexa? What had she done? That was before she even admitted to him that she wanted Lexa, what would he do now? Clarke watched Lexa, she couldn’t let anything happen to her, she had to keep her away from Finn. She began running her thumb over the back of Lexas hand, she wouldn’t let Finn come close to this woman who was so bent on protecting her.

“Clarke.” She looked up at the sound of her name, Raven was trying to get her attention.

“Yeah?”

“So what happened to your lip?”

Clarke thought about it for a second and decided to tell Raven the truth but she left out Finns name while talking. She couldn’t let them know, she might lose Lexa if she told them the truth now. She couldn’t lose her just because she was Finns “other woman.”

** Lexas POV**

While Clarke talked Lexa got up and began serving them ice cream, this turned out to be a lot deeper than she thought it was going to be. She couldn’t hear Clarke talk about what happened to her without getting angry. But this was good both girls needed to talk about the things they had been through. She sat down right as Clarke had finished talking and passed the girls ice cream.

“Why don’t you call the cops?”

Lexa had to admit that the idea had crossed her mind and she was going to talk to Clarke about it but Raven beat her to the punch.

Clarke just shrugged moving the ice cream around her bowl, “I didn’t think he would ever be like this, he was so kind and gentle before. If he comes around again I will call them though, I won’t let him touch me again.

“I won’t let him touch you again.” Clarke lifted her head and smiled at Lexa nodding her head at what she had said. She meant it, she wouldn’t let Clarke get hurt again.

“Her roommate is dating Lincoln and she has been spending most of her time over there, I don’t want Clarke alone there so she’s staying here tonight.”

Raven nodded and turned to Clarke, “Don’t think you get to take my side of the bed permanently Griffin, I will always be Lexas favorite.”

Lexa just rolled her eyes, “Shut up Raven, no one’s trying to replace you, your annoying ass is one of a kind.”

Raven put her hand over her heart, “Oh my god Lexa that may be the sweetest thing you have ever said to me.”

Lexa shoved her as she stood up, turning to pull Clarke up too, and pulling her towards the bed. “What movie do you guys want to watch?”

“You help the girl with two working legs up but not me?! I see how it is Alexandria Woods.”

Lexa glared at her, “If I helped you up you would have yelled at me, and call me that again I dare you.”

Raven shrugged, “You may be right, and don’t challenge me Woods.”

Raven got up and moved towards the bed, Lexa went to fake kick her and Raven jumped back. Clarke began laughing which made Lexa smile automatically, she thinks that is going to be her new favorite sound.

Clarke climbed over her, making her heart stop when the blonde straddled her lap for a moment before moving off to sit between her and Raven. “Apparently you two need to be kept separated.”

Lexa smiled, “Hey Clarke what happened to your neck?”

Lexas smile fell instantly, fucking Niylah. She shook her head she can’t believe Clarke went for Niylah, for some reason it annoyed the shit out of her. Maybe she was jealous... She thought about it for a second... nah she couldn't be.